The Representative: Good Evening

Well I know you are happy that the weekend has officially begun. Time to relax, Re cooperate and release.

I want to know about all the fun things you will be getting into.

Meanwhile, I am not up to anything but reading and watching Boston Legal and my current shows that come on tonight and the weekend.

I did make a dinner that turned out nice. Vodka chicken with bowtie pasta in vinaigrette and some mixed veggies. See

Well have a good one. There is no time like the current time to have some fun.

Spoken Word: Just Be

Just Be

Why can’t you

Leave behind the traumatic times

Be by my side

Lean on the shoulder I provide

Just be

Let your hair down

Accept I love your body

You stimulate my mind

Just be

My super freaky whore

Woman that I adore

The one whose heart over flows

Just

Stop fighting

Mentally filibustering

Trying to deny

What you feel inside

Just be

Mine

All mine

The woman

The legend

The Omega

By my side

From the chocolatezeus collection  7/30/15  ©

Needs and Wants in Relationships....A serious Rant

This stems from a post I read about relationships don't need to be "need" based. It obviously annoyed me. The female says that "Basing a relationship solely on needs (and the +/- of them being met) is overly shallow and unhealthy in my opinion."

I thought this was simply some more feminist rhetoric until I noticed two males commented in the positive on the post. Then I just realized it was some tree hugging bullshit.

Look here as being we have needs and wants. And I agree most do not know what their needs or wants are or how to differentiate. Lack of self confidence, comfort or whatever the case may be.

It pisses me off that the humans have to remain so fickle that they can't admit there are things that they require and need in relationships. Otherwise the relationship is not real or just terminated. They pretend like everything will work itself out. No wonder there is a lack of marriage, love, companionship and understanding in society.

I am not the one to sit here and downgrade myself because you as a candidate for a relation with me don't fit the parameters. Fuck your feelings and the rest of the humans with you. I don't make personal decisions based on the so called society and their idea of what I should do.

I operate on the principle as a love interest or friend there are certain needs involved. Communication, understanding, acceptance, focus and etc. If these needs are not there then "thanks for playing, your fired." I give them their chance to show me who they are and based on that against what I need for their position there is a judgment and action accordingly. I don't need anyone to be around just to say they are around. Cut the dead, useless weight and push forward.

What is unhealthy is for these individuals to have no back bone or self worth of their own to set a standard and keep it for themselves. Just move along like the amoeba that you are and let the grown folks continue working.

Alright the Representative is coming in the door with your cake, pie, cookies, ice cream and balloons. So don't worry. I am heading back to real life.

Enjoy

Spoken Life: CaveMan Manifesto

I am truly the modern day caveman. It is something that I have embraced and even have been seen as.

See when you love,care and are passionate just as great as you are at disassociating, excommunicating and being the ultimate hell spawn. The humans really don't know how to handle or take you.

Truthfully I don't' worry about the populace. I worry about those interpersonal relationships that have meaning over the rest. Yeah, yeah, yeah that is not politically correct but then again right now this is NOT the Representative!

So something I let the pen say today. Something that has more deep of a meaning to the one that knows me.

CaveMan Manifesto

Silence begets understanding

Such a base individual

Yet, how does he transfer

This presence

All Cro-Magnon

All original man

Graduated  from a caveman club to

A thermal detonator

In a World War Hulk

Man

Altered beast mode

Tactical advantage

Hunt and destroy enemies

Protect what is his

See

I hold you heart and soul

Deep into my soul flow

Buffer you from harm and pain

Mentally and physically

Cultivating

Nurturing

Inciting

Uncaged

Here I am modern day

Passionate and loving

Thoughtful and understanding

Caring and protective

Caveman

Weapon X

Uncaged vengeance

Angel of love and death

This I state to you

My love and presence

My action and conveyance

Are  true to me

Which means they are true to you

There in revealed

The modern caveman

And the basis of my

Existence

From the chocolatezeus collection  7/31/15  ©

Spoken Mentals: Mental Symbiosis

Something that just came to mind with all the reading and things going through my mind right now. The ink decided to spill and leave it's mark. An understanding, a statment, a design.

Mental Symbiosis

Tethered

Holding you within cloud nine

Giving iron discipline

When you get out of line

I hold the creases of your mind

Broken walls laid bare

As you understand

Daddy’s care

Keeping in mind

Your welfare

Your future

As your mind opens wide

This connection

Guiding force

A journey into mystery

All with the comfort of knowing

My lead

Is to our true destination

Purpose, honor and no reservations

Keeping pace

Obstacles overcome upon the way

Minds conjoined in hierarchy

For what you have given

Mentally and physically

Is what we are living

Mentally and exponentially

From the chocolatezeus collection  7/30/15   ©

Comedy, BDSM, Cigars and Movies

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The Precursor and Entrance

Yesterday was a precursor to today. So I had to throw on some E 40 "Ball Street Journal" and deal with the day already.

The female parental unit already called about me coming to get them at the end of the month. And I guess is pissed because I said no way. So this is the barometer for the day definitely.

Last night and yesterday I was going through and dealing with things. And today will just continue that way most definitely. So I am going to kick the play list into some gangsta and mob shit and keep it pushing.

Memories and understanding crept in last night and I let it manifest destiny so that it would merely be whatever it needed to be. I realized a conglomerate had to be established in all this. After learning just how much was missed through non communication and investigation it was time to introduce the command and control regiment.

*Darth Vader heavy breathing*

Welcome to the Empire!!!

Make sure to have a good day. I am about to get back to planning and implementation. And then mix me a drink to get things happening.

salud!!!

Love Like My Own

I don't have kids. They are either dead or got killed by their womb donor.

Having said that I have taken care of those I was dating kids. From basketball practices to putting together christmas gifts and all things in between.

I love kids. Well, let me be honest. I love the good kids. the others I avoid like the plague.

One of the only good things to come out of my living in east chicago, indiana was falling in love with my god daughter. Now the reason why I became the god father was shallow and stupid but hey I love that little girl regardless of her family ties.

You are wondering why the Big Evil Muthafucker is bringing this up? Is he trying to play on your human parts and bits? Well the Representative just said, "good idea." The regular me said because I said so and it's fact. But anyway I bring her up after she tells me that she is graduating high school 2 years early. I am like WTF. I thought I would have at least another year before that with her little smart, grown ass.  So, I am going to have to get prepared. This is a graduation that I have to go to and I do not want to be around her family so somebody is gonna have to roll with me to this thing in Tennessee next year.

Though I could rarely ever see her. She has always been in my heart and mind. I constantly remember carrying her with me everywhere when her mother wanted a break. Me her and coco the puppy at that time. Teaching her to overcome fear and jump from couch to couch. Or teaching her to defend herself and not let anyone take her out. She was the reason I smiled back then through all the fucked up shit that was going on. She is the child I still wanted contact with when I moved from there.

I really wish that she had gotten a chance to meet Chocolate Doll before she died. I know Chocolate Doll would have fell in love with her cute self as well. And my god daughter always wanted to meet her or someone that I was with and made me happy for some reason.

Do Not get it twisted! She is a little girl built in a grown woman's body that has had to be the woman of the house in two households and had boyfriends 4 years older than her. I have cringed, bit my lip and tongue many a times thanks to the females that I have known in my life. Telling me just listen and don't go fucking daddy caveman on her. It was hard. I tried to just steer instead of my desire to crush and make things right.  That shit has been hard!

She has been the child I have had but didn't have. The smart little girl that really wasn't as much trouble unless there were issues with her womb donor and family. She rebelled like kids do. Thankfully she never did anything to fuck up her future and career possiblities.

Now, I am hoping to get her to use that brain of hers for more than hairstyles and perms. she would be a great woman lawyer. But no matter what I am proud of her.

Hell, she said she is going to the bahamas next year. I guess that is the graduation present. Lord please look out for her!

Let me go fix me another drink and deal with these thoughts. No doubt, more grey hairs will be prevalent before i know it.

Beam me up...I need more liquor here!

Expression: You Are The Fifth Element

The pen wrote and felt the boundaries of feeling and thought and came up with this. Yep, part nerd and part heart.

You Are The Fifth Element

Unparalleled anomaly

Such a unicorn of beauty

Pursued and claimed

Exponentially

But I see

Have felt from the beginning

The Alpha and Omega stance

Booming

Marveling at

Super strength

Outstanding intelligence

Put in a body

That makes lust

Burn at it’s peak

Aphrodite type beauty

As I touch your face

Look into eyes filled with galaxies

Feel the strength

The whisps of

Fraility and uncertainty

Seeking purchase

In the dark recess of mentality

For all the things

That separate you from everything

Your fit so exquisite

Vibrations attuned

So perfectly

Enigma

Savior

Holy grail

You encapsulate so many things

But the things that stands out to me

Makes you the Holy Grail

To be with

Your

Heart and soul

The imperfections that you own

The things that you feel

The love that you wield

This is why you are

The ultimate element

The holy grail

To have and keep

The

Fifth Element

Is

YOU

From the chocolatezeus collection  7/28/15   ©

Infuriated!!! Blacks and the Inability to Exist

Ok for those of you that are of the faint of heart persuasion and need the candy ass version. This is your time to stop reading. Because the Representative has left the building for this one!

I am not a black panther. I am not in the million man march or any of those things. But I do place importance on bettering, maintaining and educating. Because honestly so many black folk are fucked up and only want to get and be more fucked up!

This is an editorial on what was said concerning passa tony evans and sarah palin on the plight and solution of the black family as the us' ultimate crisis.

http://www.manhoodraceculture.com/2015/05/09/why-passa-tony-evans-and-sarah-palin-want-to-re-institute-slavery/

In this article I read from the site called Manhood Race and culture I read the synopsis and I am not in disagreement with what the author has said. When I first read the headline on facebook I wasn't shocked. Which is a dangerous thing. It shows complacency and makes things seem to be alright.  So I went and read the one article that this link was attached to. It is from may of this year. And when I researched it for validity with other news sources I didnt' find anything. So either it was media scrubbed or edited on the internet to change publicity.

Here are my thoughts and problems. And as I type I am trying to be concise and direct because I am pissed with this. and it is hard considering my temperment right now.

As black people we have to start thinking and acting accordingly for ourselves. Stop trying to be the next fashion statement and all this shit that the white people don't really do. I mean, there is a disparity of being able to move beyond meaningless material expectations and fluff in life. If you do then you are the worst person there is. Someone that tried to make something of themselves and all the other rat crabs will do what they can to pull you down to their misery.

Palin is a total fucking bimbo with the iq of wet cement encased in titanium. Her best contribution to the world is the porn parody "nailin palin." But the crazy part is that people listen to her. And listening means they are thinking it is correct because someone that has been in authority said this. They won't think for themselves and weigh out the validity of the source or the statements.

Here is where I am going to focus. Because palin is the norm for many and their thoughts. She is just open or dumb enough to say it. Which ever is the case. But my issue is with passa evans. Because this is a huge factor in the black community. People in power and authority fucking it up for everyone by knowing steering them wrong and keeping them retarded, dumbed down drones. And in this case passa evans says the black folk need to return to slavery so that there will be a better family unit. That is like saying the jews need another holocaust to bring them closer together. God didn't put this into this fool's mouth. It was his choice to lead his congregation that way. To reinforce that they are nothing at all and they must stay underneath the boot. Well at least he has slaves already apparently.

Religion, government and all these other influential positions are key proponents of people paying attention and listening. and instead of giving the people the tools and knowledge to say hey "think and understand for your self first and foremost."  Then they are just dumb pawns to be moved around and sacrificed.

I am just burnt up about this. because so called black leaders are the ones that cause the most damn problems. Hell, I would feel better if they educated the people and made them think for themselves and they still chose to go back to being slaves for themselves. At least then they had a chance to think it through.

I am going to fix a drink now.

Your Representative will return after these messages...

The Representative: Musical Memories

Morning there. Yeah, it is me. lol

We hope your morning has started off with some good food and vibe.

Well, been listening to music as usual. Hell, I have burnt out enough headphones doing it. But talking to HQ I truly realized how songs have marked times and people. You know those songs that play and remind you specifically of that time and place it represents?

Well let's give a rundown for example.

Chocolate Doll always will be immortalized with Etta James "At Last," because that was her favorite song and what she came out to for our wedding. And Fabulouso's "Make Me Better" was something very evident.

Ceelo Green's "Crazy," fit a number of people from the Demon, to Dirty Red and other monkeys. (oops part of me showed up here)

Lil Flip's "Game Over" definitely was rotated when it came to the retarded houston monkey bitch. (yeah it's me again).

"Chocolate Factory" by Rick Kelly or R Kelly for you folks was the representative of Big Giant Head from chicago.

And the guys at the shop tease me and laugh about HQ's ring tones. "She's a Brickhouse" and "Hot Sex on a Platter," are what plays when I get messages and calls from her. Always makes me smile and grin.

There are more but they are either top secret or I just can't remember right now.

And for me since my ringtone is a reflection of this.  Rick Kelly's "Bad Man," from Shaft plays to represent me of course. (This is him. Not the reflection of the Representative. So don't worry.)

Salud to you and may your day be fruitful!

The Representative signing off...

A Discussion About Control

The things that one holds on to and manages is that realm of control. Everything is not seen on the surface for everyone to gaze upon and dissect. And times things get lost in the translation or communication.

My mind at any given moment processes ridiculous amount of things. To the point where there is no way to really stop it except for specific times and activities. But having control allows me to deal with that and still function productively.

Anger management that runs through each vein. Used to fuel everything. Held in check by the will power of my own. Oh yes, that is right. No control

Mind, body even the unknown. Control is formulating goals and plans. While adapting and moving forward against anything and everything.  Just like Patton's 3rd Army.

Managing more than one person is a task that not everyone is up to. When you have even one person, you have to learn their idiosyncracies and behavior to better manage them and their ways. To understand their behavior and thinking. And no matter how big your brain is, it takes time to do it.

Being me, being Dominant is having control over myself as well as everything else. And step by step you solidify it more and more each amount of ground covered.

As I have heard comments about over confidence and all. Either I am myself or I am nothing at all. So my confidence is necessary for me not to be a drone with the rest of the humans. Never have I said I am an expert. But then again interpretation is a Bitch!

Well this overconfident, desperate, asshole is going to hold his glass up and toast.

For the disbelievers with the assumptions that you have chosen without evidence.
I salute you.

Damn 360 and kraken is good!
Waving night night to those that are not insomniacs like I am.
Will be back sooner than later with the next installment in

The House of Chocolate's Neighborhood

For My Viewing Pleasure

I had to check out the show Charlie told me about called Forged in Fire. Yeah this is geek and nerd material. But hey I love weapons. The premise is that blacksmiths get 3 hours to forge a weapon with the material provided. Then they have to attach a handle and make the weapon presentable in the second round. For the last round they have to build a weapon that has been chosen and they have 5 days at their home forge to make it happen. The first two episodes had some interesting bladed weapons. And some that were alright. But they chose the katana and the chakram for the first two episodes. And what can I say I love shows that use ballistic gel dummies for tests. Reminds me of that whose the best warrior show I loved.

Checked out the latest Ray Donovan and it got super deep in there. Ray is going through it and losing it. And damn his wife has completely went mental in this season. Still one of my favorites. And hell it is funny when you make a judge have a heart attack by yelling at him and he can't get to his heart pills fast enough.

Well I will end things there and keep it light.

Cause shit is just like that.


here comes the Representative!!!  LMAO

Spoken Word: Beskar'gam of the Heart

Cue 

Beskar’gam of the Heart

Results of

Dead Reckoning

Sniper precision

Guerilla tactics

Left it shredded and torn apart

Picked apart

Upon an altar of

Apathetic and hatred

Fueled funeral pyre of

Feelings and thoughts

Until it became

Encased in

Unbreakable skin

Altered into

The ultra Mandolorian

Devoid of humanity

Tactical emotions and expressions

Plucked from the banality of

Societies fucked up loop hole

Thinking and feeling

When the only end result sought is

Further and eternal suffering

Tougher than titanium

Preserved better than Han Solo in

Carbonite

My heart lies within

Beating

Loving

Feeling

Channeled like a weapon or lifeline

To those targeted

All the while protected

By the toughest of skin

While love and caring is part of my

DNA from beginning to end

It is not a faucet for all

To sip from

Forever and again

Posted up

Armed to the teeth

Viciously attacking and guarding

You get what you see

Unless you have gotten the golden ticket

From this stoic

Mandolorian

From the chocolatezeus collection  7/27/15  ©

All Hail The Decepticon!!

Death poetry
Judgement Night soundtrack
Onyx
J-Ro
and a sprinkle of Dave Brubeck for the slight respite

Transformed

embrace the chaos
the abm way

yeah
yeah
okay

snickering

the switch has been tripped

Time to just do this!!

Still Zeus, Still Daddy

As I talked to Big C this morning and she responded yes Daddy. I had to laugh and think at the same time. This has always been the case for me. Even though I now and understand learning more bdsm wise this has always been me. Just a natural instinct for me. Both Daddy Dom and Sadist Dom in one body.

I talked to Big C about what was going on with her now and the changes that she needed to make now post divorce. Once again I was back into counseling mode. A mode that I have been involved in since I was little and talking to girls. It is an inescapble part of me apparently.

Looking a the type of female i am attracted to I wondered if they all had to be fixed or rescued somehow. I do tend to date and like chicks with the I can do it all, by myself personalities. I am the addition they see to break up the monotony I guess.  Strong, independent but want someone to rely on and trust.

Being named Zeus came from this. Because of the way I silently held things in check and controlled them. Without a bunch of talking and yelling. Holding them with a safety net will looming over them silently. Always me upon a throne lording whether I chose to or not.

So I embrace it all. Decide to invest more into who and what I am. From experience to learning. I never questioned myself about my path or purpose. Even though the public definitely wanted me to.

Confidence continues because simply it is backed with experience and knowing. The ladies reinforce that over and over.

A wink and a laugh

As Zeus
Daddy

Just continues moving right along.

Enjoy your sunday. *salud*

Kaleidoscope of Microscopic Perceptions

I have had to realized I was and am spoiled by having had Chocolate Doll and having Ru Ru know me. They so effortless accepted and understood things. Ru still does no matter how crazy it is. It turns out that is a blessing and a curse.

Because outside of Ru Ru there are apparently no clues or ability to formulate that same equation. A return to a constant why don't you change this or that. I know society tells you that you have to do that. But believe me you can use your own brain and do your own thing.

In a country that uses the rhetoric of alleged pride of individuality. There is a desparity when it comes to the action actually taking place. And it is very prevelent in the social aspects.

There is nothing wrong with constructive criticism. We need that to do course corrections. It helps on the journey.

But where I fucked up at was wanting and expecting those that I chose to be close to ability in accepting and understanding. I really don't concern myself with outsiders and their views or opinions because they are irrelevent to me. I heard them talking and spitting that be nice and you get more honey. Or their analysis of me and they have no clue about anything. I glad say to them GTFOH. Just like I laughed at that chick in maryland when I was up there the other month. No clue about me and definitely no interest in her so why would I take your commentary into account again? That's right I wouldn't.

I think just about everything has come into question recently. Mostly centered on me. Nothing new right?  But also some things I had to question personally because of there relevance to anything.

I instruct
I counsel
I lead
I remain me

I will continue to observe and listen to the things that are abundantly, intrinsicly wrong. Blink a few times and move on. I am always under the microscope. There is nothing new about that at all.  I will just perservere and show the mettle of my existing.

Yeah, you better keep those Death Star plans hidden from me. Otherwise...IT'S ON!!!