Today will be a bit busy I guess. But it will be one that will be left in the books for sure.
I tend to stick to my word. So when I said I would go to this swing party I was okay with it. Because I don't normally go to play unless I bring my own playmate. I am not the dick flavor or the month or desperate to be liked like that. Plus it has been known that I stepped away from the swing lifestyle because of how fraudulent and fake people are. Especially the ones I have met from NC. Add to that the ex munchkin chick has joined the monkey bitch ranks and it makes for preparations for a nice evening.
So hit this cook out and hang out with some like minded kinky people up north. Then head to RDU for this swing party.
Yeah, I am going to show my ass. There will be a Zeus sighting again but this time there will be even more for them to discuss and hate about me. My non conforming, anti human, don't give a Fuck me will show up and present the Havoc part of the equation.
*snicker*
"Wait till they get a load of me!"
Saturday, September 19, 2015
Friday, September 18, 2015
Poetry of Chocolate
Chocolate and Smiles
I want to give you
the world
As long as you are my
girl
Even though you hate
that type of
Application
If I can just give
you
That happiness
That will let you be
Nothing but you
To submit to
Love, expression and
living
Where there are no
needs for walls
As I protect you
Your very own
Death Star
Just give me all that
chocolate
Bath me in an abundance
Of those smiles
Treasures that I hold
tight
Their priceless
treasure
I just can’t get
enough of
Contently drowning in
chocolate
Seeing the Harley
signal in the sky
Your smile nice and
bright
Calling, I heed the
call
Always on my way
Take my hands
Let this Teddy Bear
engulf you
Leave behind the
trappings of
Doctor, Doctor
Come be doctored
Chocolate
Molten, melted
sweetness
Heavy sweet cream
Chocolate and those
smiles
Will solve and fix
Just about anything
From the
chocolatezeus collection 9/18/15 ©
Only the Strongest Need Apply
I noticed a weakness when Chocolate Doll died. At first it crept up. Then it merely danced through my existence. Now it seems to have made purchase to my soul. But that was before my scorched earth policy. Currently like internal organs there is a *seek and destoy operation* in place to cull out everything.
Apocalypse in the Marvel comic universe is allegedly the first mutant. The Alpha. He stands alone and outside of everyone and everything. He always states, "only the strong will survive." Even with violent evolution the strong must prevail. He has fought pretty much fought everyone and still remains. Any more history and you would have to be a comic book nerd to understand.
In correlation to Apocalypse and his actions. There are similarities to me.
With that said. Lil Red and I have been through quite a bit. Thus the nature of dating. As always the women that can keep my interest and make me wanna wanna are always these super illustrious, mega rare unicorns that are so weird and eccentric it is like solving the Riddle of the Sphinx.
Among our talks she said the phrase that should be put on a plaque for me. that phrase is "you are really not like anyone else." As Ru Ru always says, they just are not prepared for you being straight you. But I have heard this a lot since my evolution. At times in negative, I hate you monkey bitch ways. Other times in disbelief. What can I say I can only be me. And it is funny coming from the Queen of Weirdness herself. lol
I began as the nice guy. The ones girls would cling to and want to be around. Because I was their safety net and zone. "It's just Zeus, he one of the girls," said it all standing in a room of half naked girls. I was that knight in shining armor. The epitome of what society and pipe dreams have told us what a man should be. Captain save a hoe. Mr Fix it (which Lil Red said still is a part of me and I agree). It all amounted to pure folly. And I realize that.
Evolution came. I became what I denied and kept chained in a prison box in the solitary confinement room.
Yes, I am the Teddy Bear that Lil Red and others have said. But I am like the Wrath of Khan Teddy Bear version. Violent, sadistic teddy bear, yep that is all me! Passionate and loving to my people, while dropping my executioner's axe on the back of every neck with glee.
There use to be an internal battle constantly. The good trying to defeat the evil in me. Then I realized that evil must reign supreme. That Evil that I fought is the dna of me. The struggle I have now is with any of the good happening. Love, caring and feeling are mostly dead to me unless you are special to me. And lately we have seen the special people decide to go with the excommunication clause in the relationship contract. The ex munchkin and the delusional teenager chose their paths. Showed that regardless of love and all that. Things are completely irrelevant. I merely cued up Black Sheep's "The Choice is Yours."
I stand here in the carnage. Standing my ground and reveling in the body parts and brain bits of the monkeys and humans laying everywhere. I don't feel any remorse. I gave them and it a shot. Failures happen so that the treasure will be revealed.
To end this on a different note.
There have been severe transitions for me. over this year. Many of them from the looks of from then to now. lol
This weekend I will be attending a swing party. Something I stopped doing and I had agreed because at that point ex munchkin was still something to speak to and do. But hey i said I would go and now i am going to go and show the fuck out! And I am going to do it Havoc style with a slave in tow. There will be a clear understanding it this is going to be all about me and my pleasure and service.
As I relished in previously the Toronto trip with Lil Red was liberating because i got the chance to let out more of me. And that was a baptism of self growth and revelation. One of the defining moments and best moments of this year without a doubt.
This weekend will be about control, pleasure pain and edification for all involved.
Monkey Bitches, familiars and humans...it is time for you to be put on notice.
a big FUCK YOU is going down in the RDU!!
Apocalypse in the Marvel comic universe is allegedly the first mutant. The Alpha. He stands alone and outside of everyone and everything. He always states, "only the strong will survive." Even with violent evolution the strong must prevail. He has fought pretty much fought everyone and still remains. Any more history and you would have to be a comic book nerd to understand.
In correlation to Apocalypse and his actions. There are similarities to me.
With that said. Lil Red and I have been through quite a bit. Thus the nature of dating. As always the women that can keep my interest and make me wanna wanna are always these super illustrious, mega rare unicorns that are so weird and eccentric it is like solving the Riddle of the Sphinx.
Among our talks she said the phrase that should be put on a plaque for me. that phrase is "you are really not like anyone else." As Ru Ru always says, they just are not prepared for you being straight you. But I have heard this a lot since my evolution. At times in negative, I hate you monkey bitch ways. Other times in disbelief. What can I say I can only be me. And it is funny coming from the Queen of Weirdness herself. lol
I began as the nice guy. The ones girls would cling to and want to be around. Because I was their safety net and zone. "It's just Zeus, he one of the girls," said it all standing in a room of half naked girls. I was that knight in shining armor. The epitome of what society and pipe dreams have told us what a man should be. Captain save a hoe. Mr Fix it (which Lil Red said still is a part of me and I agree). It all amounted to pure folly. And I realize that.
Evolution came. I became what I denied and kept chained in a prison box in the solitary confinement room.
Yes, I am the Teddy Bear that Lil Red and others have said. But I am like the Wrath of Khan Teddy Bear version. Violent, sadistic teddy bear, yep that is all me! Passionate and loving to my people, while dropping my executioner's axe on the back of every neck with glee.
There use to be an internal battle constantly. The good trying to defeat the evil in me. Then I realized that evil must reign supreme. That Evil that I fought is the dna of me. The struggle I have now is with any of the good happening. Love, caring and feeling are mostly dead to me unless you are special to me. And lately we have seen the special people decide to go with the excommunication clause in the relationship contract. The ex munchkin and the delusional teenager chose their paths. Showed that regardless of love and all that. Things are completely irrelevant. I merely cued up Black Sheep's "The Choice is Yours."
I stand here in the carnage. Standing my ground and reveling in the body parts and brain bits of the monkeys and humans laying everywhere. I don't feel any remorse. I gave them and it a shot. Failures happen so that the treasure will be revealed.
To end this on a different note.
There have been severe transitions for me. over this year. Many of them from the looks of from then to now. lol
This weekend I will be attending a swing party. Something I stopped doing and I had agreed because at that point ex munchkin was still something to speak to and do. But hey i said I would go and now i am going to go and show the fuck out! And I am going to do it Havoc style with a slave in tow. There will be a clear understanding it this is going to be all about me and my pleasure and service.
As I relished in previously the Toronto trip with Lil Red was liberating because i got the chance to let out more of me. And that was a baptism of self growth and revelation. One of the defining moments and best moments of this year without a doubt.
This weekend will be about control, pleasure pain and edification for all involved.
Monkey Bitches, familiars and humans...it is time for you to be put on notice.
a big FUCK YOU is going down in the RDU!!
Thursday, September 17, 2015
Time Flies and Reveals
I am smiling. Because I was correct about the outcome. I said it would happen and it did.
*look out for them trees!!!*
So ABM had an entry this evening with the christening. lol
And Ru Ru already laughed at this so when we get out discuss on this will be the icing on the cake.
yeah, I know I could pick them. But at least it is in past tense now.
*Proof*
There is nothing like that vibe and connect separates the rare woman from the multitude of females.
hoooo raaaa
Shits and Giggles As I Travel
I am glad to finally put some distance between the cause of major stress and myself. I am looking forward more and more to when it is permanent though. But for right now getting out of the horrid state of alabama will be a vast improvement.
I had to chuckle to myself today remembering the comment "I still love you big evil." It's connotation is comical now. But I am glad everything has been shown. It was about to be another major mistake years ago. So when Lil Red asked about the munchkin situation and I said it was an ex situation. She was a bit shocked. But that was because there was a brief dialogue about her being a submissive and i realized that was a fucking disaster ready to happen. History was made again. And the Familiar is locked in with the associates and monkeys. Good to go.
I am tired after driving all night and being up all day basically. But damn if I can't get any sleep at all still. This is just extra crazy as hell. And I need sleep before tomorrow night and the weekend.
The more and more things occur. It makes me realize I made the right decisions about things, people and associates and less.
It is good to be on the better side of the equation than the side that is bullshit!
I had to chuckle to myself today remembering the comment "I still love you big evil." It's connotation is comical now. But I am glad everything has been shown. It was about to be another major mistake years ago. So when Lil Red asked about the munchkin situation and I said it was an ex situation. She was a bit shocked. But that was because there was a brief dialogue about her being a submissive and i realized that was a fucking disaster ready to happen. History was made again. And the Familiar is locked in with the associates and monkeys. Good to go.
I am tired after driving all night and being up all day basically. But damn if I can't get any sleep at all still. This is just extra crazy as hell. And I need sleep before tomorrow night and the weekend.
The more and more things occur. It makes me realize I made the right decisions about things, people and associates and less.
It is good to be on the better side of the equation than the side that is bullshit!
*Unleash the Dogs of War....Apocalypse is here*
Monday, September 14, 2015
Quote For the Night and Forever
If you wish to control others you must first control yourself” ― Miyamoto Musashi, A Book of Five Rings: The Classic Guide to Strategy
Another Day, Some More Dementia
The horniness has already left for Mars and is on it's way back. That is how rough it is right now. DAMN!!
The day starts out with the female parental units telling me the people at the cult church they go to asked if I was dating or getting married again. Because they know how I feel because they lost someone. yadda yadda fucking yadda! As I tell the female parental unit I don't discuss those things with you or the male parental unit. it is none of your business. so here goes that fake christian fucking attitude. lol I just leave. Fuck that!
I hit the cigar shop for some therapy. As usual we solve the world's problems. An elderly man from Ireland was in there today. And I was too shocked and laughing too hard at the old lady that said she had to pay 900 in deposits for two cats she rescued at her apartment. And that money is non refundable. Then she pays 40 a month for the two cats to be there. what the fuck? I don't 'fucking think so!
Other than that thinking and analyzing heavily. Making sure that the armory is stocked and the ABM is ready and primed. Because shit is just ridiculous lately.
*shooting two in the air*
Enjoy your evening, night or whatever
The day starts out with the female parental units telling me the people at the cult church they go to asked if I was dating or getting married again. Because they know how I feel because they lost someone. yadda yadda fucking yadda! As I tell the female parental unit I don't discuss those things with you or the male parental unit. it is none of your business. so here goes that fake christian fucking attitude. lol I just leave. Fuck that!
I hit the cigar shop for some therapy. As usual we solve the world's problems. An elderly man from Ireland was in there today. And I was too shocked and laughing too hard at the old lady that said she had to pay 900 in deposits for two cats she rescued at her apartment. And that money is non refundable. Then she pays 40 a month for the two cats to be there. what the fuck? I don't 'fucking think so!
Other than that thinking and analyzing heavily. Making sure that the armory is stocked and the ABM is ready and primed. Because shit is just ridiculous lately.
*shooting two in the air*
Enjoy your evening, night or whatever
Sunday, September 13, 2015
Dungeons and Dragons, Plus Football
I went up to Jacksonville last night for my first adventure with the Society.
Of course I was the only black male there. But in this lifestyle that is pretty much the norm since I live in NC in the port city. The people were nice and they were efficient with the rules and everything. There were plenty of equipment available for use and it was a laid back atmosphere after the auction. Which I didn't get a chance to get anything from unfortunately.
As with any place I normally won't play the first time and just observe. Even though it is hard to play without a playmate and most are already coupled up or with their regular play partners. But observing things in action works for me rather well. I watched a young lady do some fire cupping up close and it was interesting. I also watched a scene where a lady wrapped a guy up in package wrap and then duct tape. Combined that with rough play and I was sparked with an idea. Of course my idea has it's own evil twist in it.
Plus I enjoyed the suspension/rope work that was put on display as well.
As I said a nice outing and a good time.
Today was the first sunday for nfl football and it started out interesting. I will have to check my fantasy teams situations a little later on tonight.
Thought of the Moment:
Just because emotion is not shown does not mean there is no emotion. The converse is true as well. Just because emotion is shown doesn't mean that there is any emotion. Act accordingly!
As for me emotion is a non factor unless it pertains to one individual that is the tried and true, plus trusted one.
Enjoy the rest of your sunday
Of course I was the only black male there. But in this lifestyle that is pretty much the norm since I live in NC in the port city. The people were nice and they were efficient with the rules and everything. There were plenty of equipment available for use and it was a laid back atmosphere after the auction. Which I didn't get a chance to get anything from unfortunately.
As with any place I normally won't play the first time and just observe. Even though it is hard to play without a playmate and most are already coupled up or with their regular play partners. But observing things in action works for me rather well. I watched a young lady do some fire cupping up close and it was interesting. I also watched a scene where a lady wrapped a guy up in package wrap and then duct tape. Combined that with rough play and I was sparked with an idea. Of course my idea has it's own evil twist in it.
Plus I enjoyed the suspension/rope work that was put on display as well.
As I said a nice outing and a good time.
Today was the first sunday for nfl football and it started out interesting. I will have to check my fantasy teams situations a little later on tonight.
Thought of the Moment:
Just because emotion is not shown does not mean there is no emotion. The converse is true as well. Just because emotion is shown doesn't mean that there is any emotion. Act accordingly!
As for me emotion is a non factor unless it pertains to one individual that is the tried and true, plus trusted one.
Enjoy the rest of your sunday
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