Last monday was Chocolate Doll's birthday. A lot was on my mind. From the past to the present and the future. It didn't help that the male parental unit was here. That really fucking made the day horrible. That is why I stay away from the parental units during anniversary, her birthday and stuff.
It took me into thinking about how things were, have been and will be. Chocolate Doll wanted me to live after she was gone. We had that discussion before she died. That live life fully.
I care about, like and appreciate redvelvet and babygirlprincess. They have been who I have been with over these years. Our adventures, our disagreements and more. Even things with my Ru and tigger have have been transmuted into something else. But all have been what was needed.
There has been a serious influx of thinking, feeling and emotion. Things swirled around and manifested in force ghosts and more. The storms have been crushing and the eyes of them have been like a library.
So with everything changed. I have reached out and gave invite to what is now.
I finally met up with Charlie after all these months he has been gone from the cigar shop. I know there is more than he is telling that happened but I can respect that. Just was good to see him for a minute and just shoot the shit and chill. That old, white biker guy is definitely a brother to me.
Well, the next major issue to deal with has happened tonight. So it is time to deal with things.
Wish you well. Don't let experiences and life past you by.
Wednesday, August 16, 2017
Sunday, August 13, 2017
I Walked Into the Minefield and the Minefield Won
So here we go with a week review...
It has been a long week. Fatigue, not sleeping, eating barely and a little bit of everything has gone on. Life was covering it's bases apparently.
I will and have walked through the bottom of hades and hell for those I love. Even when it is them that are the current enemy. Right now I am bloody and battered beyond recognition. But still love, caring and concern remain my mission.
Things with babygirlprincess opened my eyes to things with everyone that I was involved with. The factors, miscommunication, mistakes. One of those things was that I asked them to be and do something that was strictly for and of me. So I had to apologize for that.
Definitions of needs, comforts and feeling have changed. An full metal alchemist transmutation.All from experience, miscalculations and observations.
I ask you
Just take my hand
Let Us stand
stand together
once again
this evolved
relationship
a 3rd Bass
Product of the Environment
Maybe it is time to call Amanda Wahler. Ready taskforce x.
Send the Suicide Squad in
And I missed Charlie at the cigar shop wednesday unfortunately. I haven't seen him in like 3 months. Missed him by 30 minutes.
The Joker and Apocalypse symbol in the air
Is Mr Wolf dead?
It has been a long week. Fatigue, not sleeping, eating barely and a little bit of everything has gone on. Life was covering it's bases apparently.
I will and have walked through the bottom of hades and hell for those I love. Even when it is them that are the current enemy. Right now I am bloody and battered beyond recognition. But still love, caring and concern remain my mission.
Things with babygirlprincess opened my eyes to things with everyone that I was involved with. The factors, miscommunication, mistakes. One of those things was that I asked them to be and do something that was strictly for and of me. So I had to apologize for that.
Definitions of needs, comforts and feeling have changed. An full metal alchemist transmutation.All from experience, miscalculations and observations.
I ask you
Just take my hand
Let Us stand
stand together
once again
this evolved
relationship
a 3rd Bass
Product of the Environment
Maybe it is time to call Amanda Wahler. Ready taskforce x.
Send the Suicide Squad in
And I missed Charlie at the cigar shop wednesday unfortunately. I haven't seen him in like 3 months. Missed him by 30 minutes.
The Joker and Apocalypse symbol in the air
Is Mr Wolf dead?
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