Enduring and survival have always been who I have been. Holding the wait of worlds upon myself so many times. For periods I cannot remember. My nickname Zeus came from my overwatch, protective nature. One of the few things I held onto from college days.
Now things have changed. Invulnerability has lessened. Maturity, evolution and change has come. I am still on Overwatch. I am just not as young and foolhardy as I once was.
I have been husband, man, counselor, protector and so much more. I realized that was part of my life from an early age. From the moments where I was the boy with no girlfriend and all the girls talking to me. Loved and hated for just being myself.
As we come to the here and now. The universe as well as myself has expounded. Things are not as simple as they use to be. The complications have grown and risen to all new heights. My nice guy persona died. Evolution allowed me to grow and become the Havoc that I was supposed to be.
Now I am known for cold, concise, uncompromising intensity. I'll be dat!! All of that look at things from others points of view is irrelevant for me when it is my principles that are most important. Their feelings, thoughts and views do not define me. Like I tell females. My switch is either on or off. There is no in between. I know what I want and need. Nor am I afraid to speak it and be specific about picking properly.
But my strength remains most evident when you move past that view and concern about everyone else. With me I will love and care for you until the end of existence unless you decide to destroy that or walk away. My circle is small and tight but those within get every aspect of me. My love is just as potent as my disconnect.
So when I seem indifferent. Or merely observe and don't use fake phrases like family and friends where it is not appropriate. You can truly understand. I laugh constantly at the lies people say when you talk them or are in a group and they are hollering out the lie that we are all family. Especially when I know how you betray and turn on your so called friends and family.
No matter. I hold this weight of all things upon me. Because it is my destiny. The loss of my family. And dealing with the parental units. To the apparent end of a loving destiny. Each day something else is added. It is part of my whole existence. Transmuted into my eternal damnation and endurance.
