When You No Longer Give a Fuck

You have loved
You have cared

Given and been supportive
Listened and consoled
Genuinely cared

Accept them as who and what they are
Gone through the good, the bad and the ugly

yet

they are distant, distracted and uninterested apparently in maintaining things
There interactions are minus one...you.

So what do you do?

Just don't give a fuck.
Demote them to the proper place in the universe
Bid them adieu

Learn from valuable lessons before they learn to take advantage of you

A study on poly relationships i participated in

I like to participate in research when it is something that is a part of me. So I participated in this one as well.

I had to say it definitely made me tilt my head and look a bit.

If it is applies to you then join in.


The Western Love Lab is looking for polyamorous individuals to participate in a study on relationship processes in polyamory. To be eligible for the study, you must:
• Identify or philosophically agree with polyamory
• Be at least 18 years of age
Participation involves completion of an online, anonymous questionnaire.
If interested, please follow the link to the survey: http://www.uwopolystudy.ca/
If you are not eligible to participate, please share this survey with anyone else you know who meets the call.

My Silence vs the Impact

The words, "you rubbed off on me," are heard. More than once or twice and more than irregularly. And they have been good things received through my osmosis.

There is my Silence.
It denotes many things and is interpreted as many more.

In dating my silence can be seen as an affront. Or some form of force choke basically.

In D/s it is seen as I am not pleased, things were done wrong or a multitude of other interpretations.


In truth.  My silence is my own. It's uses are multifaceted. But I still understand and realize my impact.

When I am silent because the other person has decided to be distant and maintain their defensive posture.

When I silently observe things to get a better picture.

Or when silence is required for me to think, analyze and formulate a response.


Silence is a tool I use and deploy for many reasons. But it is also something that reminds me of differences in people. How the constant and upgraded armor of those that you are supposed to be close to happens. Or the difference in a moment where everything is taken out of context or just a smaller portion.


Impact:

I leave a mark. A very distinguished and unique mark upon those that I come in contact with. Especially those I have had a relation, relationship or dynamic with.

That mark is mental. One of the most difficult and invasive things for them to handle. It comes from my way of thinking, talking and doing.  The things I show through my existence.

Like little one has mentioned how she can't tell if I am happy, sad, angry or what with my tone and expression majority of the time. Even the cali thing mentioned about me having dry humor and not being able to read me.

Some of the marks I have left:
Balancing feeling and rational thinking
Focus
Passion
Living life fully
Adventure
Love and caring


These things don't come or are accepted easily, if at all.  These are the hard parts to deal with internally when it comes to interacting and being with me. I make you think and feel.  Through all that I am and what they think of me the simple fact remains.

I leave a crater
My mark

An Impact upon you

When Only the Hysterical Laughter is Left

I will help. Guide. Support.

Even when I have to do battle with you to do it.

But when you are not or don't do your part then there are consequences.

I have taken on mental charity cases that I shouldn't have. And I learned the folly of my ways. If they are really fucking fucked up then there is no hope for their ass. Leave them in the garbage ass city that they are from.

As I look at the pieces on the board all I can do is laugh and prepare for the Finishing Move that is to come.


Well true believers we will pick this up on ABM so we can keep it in it's proper place like everyone remains.

Back to this regularly scheduled program after this...

I Will Never Leave

This really said what needed to be said when the comment has been made about leaving them and being there. So here is some Rick Kelly to explain it.

"I'll Never Leave"

Shut up
I don't ever wanna hear you say that again
Baby, i'm not goin; nowhere
Look at me, you understand me?

What gave you the silly idea...that i'm about to leave,
Girl, who you be listenin' to...they must be crazy.
Look back and see our past and all the shit that we've been through,
I'll be damned if i'm gonna let this bull crap take me away from you.
Cause i've vowed to give my all and girl i'm a man of my word,
And on that word i'll stand tall..bein' without you sounds obserd.

So dry your weeping eyes..cause i'll be here by your side,
No need to doubt this guy..i'm in this for the long ride.

I will never leave, no
You don't have to worry, girl i'll be right there for you
I will never leave, no
Baby, can't you see that I was born to be with you
I will never leave, no
God put us together,nothing can't take that away
I will ne e ever leave, no
Now until forever i'll be with you the rest of my days

You never have to question..the love I have for you,
Girl, I will put my life..on bended knees for you.
Ask all my friends they'll tell you..you're all I talk about,
Even when I go to sleep you're the only one I dream about.
See i'm your picture, girl and baby you are my frame,
That's why I know our love will stay the same.

So dry your weeping eyes..weeping eyes girl i'm by your side,
Just trust me i'm that guy..i'm in it for the long ride.

I will never leave, no
You don't have to worry, girl i'll be right there for you
I will never leave, no
Baby, can't you see that I was born to be with you
I will never leave, no
God put us together,nothing can't take that away
I will ne e ever leave, no
Now until forever i'll be with you the rest of my days

Since the day that doctor took me out of the womb and spanked me,
Girl, I was born to be with you and the rest is history.
Generations and now i'm all grown up and you carry my seed,
Now we have flesh and blood with you I am in love.

For the rest of my life [2x]

We've been blessed with a love that's rare and i'm not goin' nowhere.

I will never leave, no
You don't have to worry, girl i'll be right there for you
I will never leave, no
Baby, can't you see that I was born to be with you
I will never leave, no
God put us together,nothing can't take that away
I will ne e ever leave, no
Now until forever i'll be with you the rest of my days