In any relationship I require strength and purpose. For as much as I give I require to be able to recieve as well. So these standards apply to girlfriend, wife, friends, best friend as well as sub/slave. Without these standards being kept I don't keep you around.
The Cabin Adventure
I went to the cabin trip to support my fellow Road Warrior. I didn't want anything happening to her or her flipping out on folks in the middle of nowhere. Arriving in atlanta was an adventure. From the over an hour long wait in the rental car line as they told everyone with reservations that they didn't have any more vehicles. To going to tgif friday during a biker club party or something. Where candy decides to moleste the 20 year old young boy that was serving us. But damn there was some nice ass that me and the porn star were enjoying in there.
Upon reaching the cabin the silliness had already began. The mess with as my dawg called her the Tragedy was already in full swing. Calling herself mrs bones and wearing a shirt that said that. Later on finding out it was shirts that all said mrs bones instead of just one. lol At least my dawg wasn't goaded by this chicks commentary all weekend.
But what I don't understand at a swing party is the crazy notion that it's weird to walk around naked. Where is your open minded thinking? If you are unhappy with yourself and your image then keep it to yourself. But people's insecurities reign supreme as always. Between that and the amount of people you fuck at a SWING party coming into question is just Ultimately Stupid. You are a venue where you can have as much sex with as many as you choose but you want to be prudish about other's actions. Get the fuck out of here!
I took advantage of the time in the wilderness to relax, smoke cigars, eat and drink while being deep in thought. It was good to sit on the deck and look at nature during my meditations.
My meditations led me to streamlining things further. From the loss of friends, lovers and all becoming a necessary evil to have happen. It is time for more strength and quality relationships. No longer a party to the give the less qualified a chance. Either you are qualified or not to be in my world. And with that applied it has ended some long term relations recently. Couldn't be helped. Best friend and lover had to be placed in the distance until and if they decide to return to the fold properly. The positive was that I strengthen what I got with my Dawg for the wonder twin powers that we share.
The trip showed me why I am selective about the groups and people I associate with or party with. It is the main reason why I don't attend or associate with individuals from NC and the past parties. Just no need for the drama and issues. Which made me remember the drama about the chick that had been to a number of cabin parties deciding to call the police. Only to get removed by the police and left somewhere in town hours away from the nearest airport. Kind of hard to get back to good ole nyc when you are stuck. And to top it off a man goes down to help her and offer to drive her to the airport and she acts nasty about it. Dumb monkey bitch in action.
all in all besides the pat monkey bitch and about cursing her ugly ass out things were entertaining. Using my favorite word all weekend long YAHTZEE!!! Courtesy of Batman: Arkham Assylum assualt lol. Dawg kept looking at me shaking her head and laughing because I kept yelling it over and over. Especially when she was in her hours and hours of play time.
Intensity
I have been told I should give chances and not be so strict in my design for those that are interested or may be interested. From the ex best friend on to HQ. Reality is that I don't want the weakness and inconsistency that brings about. The lack of quality.
So I speak my mind, desires and wants. Gone are the days of indecisive and unfocused actions. And most females run scared because of that. But that is part of the weeding out process. Only the strong survive in this. And strength is what you need to be with me.
I know exactly the things that I want and need. And I am not afraid or ashamed to speak up, say and demand those things. If that causes many to run the other way and wither into obscurity. Then that was what needed to happen.
Even More Thoughts
I originally thought about a poly dynamic. But in seeing the situation in indviduals this summer I really better try to find one sub or slave that is at least able and focused first and foremost. As with any relationship *cue mission impossible theme music* there are a lot of statistics against you.
To find two females that fit the requirements of the relationship is like congress, the house of reps and the president all voting the same way. I see that now after the evaluation and observations that I have done over this summer. And I am thankful for the idea of it as well as the things that led me to make decisions about it. Learning has definitely occured.
I have listened to Sir Strange, Koree and others talking about their poly relationships and they work wonderfully. And that is what I had wanted. Even thought the pieces were correct. Upon further evaluation I think that will be put on the counter for and if then statement than it occuring any time soon.
As usual I walk the valley of death. I fear no evil. For I am that evil that resides there.
