A definite rough start to the day.
Arrive here in ATL and wait for my road warrior twin. Only to end up standing at the car rental ticket counter for an hour. While they are saying they have no cars for the people that have reserved them. They come up with a car finally and we on the go. Only to have to go pick up the porn star. So as always when we get together. We are running.
Rough patch number two of the day.
My road warrior twin and I have not really had time to hang out in years. We keep each other's back. We have had a time and adventure already and it has only been day one. We haven't even left for the cabin yet.
My mind is constantly filled with billions of things on the information highway. Some collide into other things or others are thankfully out of reach and understanding. Either way it makes it hard for me to rest, relax and just be most of the time.
It has been said that I am intense and I have to agree with that. It simply is who and what I am. My mind and mouth speak. Mostly not in the benefit of humans at all. I am complex, evil, mean and simplistic. As well as the kind, loving, caring romanticist.
I have no problem telling her that I love her because I do. I also know that she may or may not be ready or available for any of that with me. Just the reality of free will. Gladly will give, support and be with her to fill her wants and needs. Be together as us and we instead of he and she. I see her interest and know there is something there. I just don't act like it is a sure thing. Because, it honestly isn't.
Would I like to get married again? Most definitely. Do I expect it? No! Society has created a lack of women and that there is death to relationships and marriage today.
Nor, do I expect everything to be simple and easy. Because it truly is not. The polar opposite.
I have learned to let emotions and rationality play the parts as a whole. To make decisions about who is right for me and everything. That passion and direction is that intesity that they feel and see.
I find my patience being tested through wait and see. It is not what I have wanted but I understand her point of view. I honestly want her as my woman, sub and service oriented one. I want to be her dom and provide what she needs. while seeing her side that serves, and pleases.
Dom, my woman, subbie.
Dynamic that I want at full strength.
