Analyzed Projections

As always I analyze, scrutinize and attempt to summarize possibilities. NO, I am not a futurist or anything. It is just how I am made up.

Looking at things. I see the good possibility and know what I want and feel. But I know the reality when that forecast involves a human. Some good things happen and then evidence of this will probably lead to nothing shows up. Things are so tainted that there really is nothing to feel, hold onto or even consider working on.

This summer has brought out the microscope upon things. And everything has been cut down to the cellular structure. Unearthed things that I would never have known and truths behind the curtain.

Distance has become the ekg line of living. Disassociation a matter of autonomous living and growing rapidly in strength.

I look. See what I need and want. Staring back is a Noh Mask. Laughing, taunting and telling me that the goal cannot be obtained. Kishin forever there guarding, reminding and blocking.

Heart and blood have congealed. Leaving the nothingness of everything.

left in this outsider, other world apathy!

Dripped In Darkness

I walked into the darkness. The place that I feared. Not because I was scared of what it would do to me. But my fear of how deep past that darkness I can and will enjoy going.

The sadistic side of me has been held in check for so long. Caged on 10 truck chains is where that beast has been and even after this has to remain. Remain until it can be let out on someone appropriately again.

Being a Dom you have to be careful about your playmate. Only time will truly show how they truly respond to and can handle things. And there was no need to cut corners and end up with them injured. So I slow walked the process with HQ. And even with Em I brought the process to a stop because I knew she wasn't going to be able to handle me fully out of my cage like that.

So I finally danced with myself, the devil in the dark, velvet midnight.

It was a relief. I found myself emmersed so easily into it. The love of nipples and titties became my portal into the transition. Relishing in the pain that I caused. The reaction of pain that she gave me. I watched as I saw the tears begin to flow. Turning me on more and inciting my internal flames.  Nipples hard as I pinched, twisted and bit them. Squeezing and biting the titties all over.  She was writhing and I wouldn't let it go. Each moment I tasted fully. When I finally asked her if she wanted me to stop after the tears were flowing she said yes and I stopped. But things had already begun and my engine was at warp speed.

I had already had my scene planned out but with everything that had happened thursday night and friday I didn't have all my tools with me. But still I made the best out of it.

And I had to get happy since I had a chance to play with rope and gain a little of practice in. I need to get longer rope next that is for sure. It was just sexy to see her naked there tied with her hands up. But she would have pulled that shower rod down after a while of enjoying the flogging. *but now i know to use the shower head instead (smiling)*.

So the flogging was continued on the bed. And I got practice and my delight in. Enjoying each strike of the flogger on her ass, legs and back. I had to work on not hitting the same spots in the beginning but I got better. I watched the marks of the tails on her ass cheeks and just smiled.

But I have to say that what I enjoyed the most and was the most sadistic for me was fucking her mouth while I hit her with the cane. Hearing her say I might bite you didnt matter. I just kept shoving my dick in her mouth and hitting her with the cane. Gagging and choking on my dick just made me harder.

Woooo!!! I am so glad I had this chance to let loose some and let the beast breathe.