DOMINION!!!

I have naturally been a Dom. Embraced myself not that long ago. Understanding being a dominant more and more. An ongoing journey that is picking up speed.

In these last few months. I have been evaluating, experiencing and heavily thinking. Desiring a poly relationship but understanding just how difficult it is to even have a primary relationship. The twists and differences are surreal. I have known and been reinforced through Black Beat workshop the importance of starting off with a sturdy foundation. Making sure the primary and relationship as a whole is strong.

I thought I found the best possible poly relationship that could be created. Then there was clarity. As I realized the instability of one and the unknown of the other. I know the strengths of the union as a whole or even myself one on one with each of them.

Dominant is the leader in the relationship. And that is what I seek to give. Yet, finding the proper one or ones to share that with is mission impossible. But I see the glimmer of hope because of the vibe and connection that I currently have is the holy grail that I hold onto. Still, there are no garauntees or sure things.

Vetting and consideration is where things lie right now. I understand that but it battles my desire for this journey to be completed.To begin a dynamic anew and with purpose and potency. I have seen the possibility and it has reinforced the desire and craving.

Ready for the dominion, security and stability of this strong dynamic that I seek.

Rope, Debauchery and Pain

Many years ago living in Japan I became intrigued with Shibari (japanese rope bondage). Between that and the rituals of pain and cleansing. It became part of my childhood and more. Never knowing then that it would add to my flames of intrigue.

So, when Black Beat came up from conversation with Emerald. I decided to take a leap. To nurture my desire and understanding for the sadistic, bondage and domination that I keep inside. Emerald said that it would be a good way to release the rage and anger that holds my cells together. Between that and the interactions with Lil Red lately have allowed me to let it out. It has been gradually so far but increasing in intensity. As Lil Red calls for more pain. I lick my lips and am thankful. For it will allow me to give into what lies beneath the caged armor.

Choking, slapping and ass smacking have been the tip of sadistic tendencies since the beginning. Here I am at the crossroads of unleashing the reigns and letting the full force of Zeus out.

I watched with contentment, pleasure and pure energy as everyone played in the dungeon. Wanting to strap Lil Red to a St Andrews cross or other apparatus. To flog her into an ultimate glee. But I did unleash more of my need to inflict pain on Emerald and Lil Red while I attended. Watching the reaction as I flogged, slapped ass and face made me relish every delicious moment. Feeling their energy and pleasure at my purposeful pain filled me.

Mr Mentl and Verity's rope work and demonstration helped fulfill and fuel me even further. Just watching them gave me a boost to my need to release more of this Dark Side held in check within.

Lil Red seeks more pain. It is time to let loose more of Zeus the All Father power upon her sexy body!!

To Feed or Not Feed My DarkSide

This journey in

• BDSM
• The Lifestyle
• Relationships

Just kicked up a few notches. It felt like a light came on upon the path of enlightenment. The energy was like I was Sho Nuff in the Last Dragon and I got that glow. Like minded people together socializing, learning and being a part of something bigger than self, made everything stand out. 

I wish people would understand and focus on the relationship aspect of what we do and seek. I enjoyed Mythos class on "Playing For Keeps". The relationship dynamic in bdsm. As was illustrated at the conference along with before the conference. Many Dom/Master and sub/slave relations are totally fucked up from the beginning. This is due to a lack of foundation. The ability to establish, solidify and manage the foundation is the only way that a relationship can be created and remain strong. And that is whether poly or not. 

Mr Mentl's rope class was crazy. I would never thought that it would turn me on so much. I have been fascinated from the aspect of seeing it done and romanticized in Japan. But I watched him tie up his sub and the next thing I knew my mind had gone into arousal. Literally getting hard while watching her suspended in the booty basket. I drank in of this intoxication and began my rope journey. That first day of class I couldn't even tie the introductory knot at all. But that second class I practiced and practiced until I actually could do it. Made me smile all proud as my diligence paid off. Even used it during a personally applied scene later. *still high*

I have been in play dungeons before. And I enjoyed the ambiance it created. I watched as each applied their personalized technique of play upon their bottoms. The sensory experience is one that cannot be quantified or explained. Whatever your kink you felt something there. And to watch Lady Lash dance and strike her subject on beat was exhilarating!! I was mesmerized by that. She would be a great casting for the Xmen villain Spiral. All she would need is 4 more arms to dance around and strike with.

All events have their hiccups and issues. But from my experience now there really needs to be better organization. To allow as much fluidity and access to information as possible while there. Because the mind and souls are open to absorb and obstacles can diminish and give that unfocused feeling.  For example avoiding having popular classes running at the same time. I know this was one of my dilemma. I was in the rope class and I wanted to attend the hand torture class as well. And yes I did get in my feelings about it. Even though I was told it was better off I wasn't armed with that information. *lol*

From beginning to end the experience was one of a kind. Leaving me in a nice high. Dom/Master round table to discuss needs, journey and future of our design led to thought provoking comments and revelations. While I am sure that the subs/slaves had their own in their round table respectively. I became fed and full off of knowledge, presence and relations. 

I came to a better understanding of Dom/sub relations. Strengthening my importance of properly establishing the relationship from the beginning. Making sure that the sub/slave is ready, not crazy and destructive. 

All I can say is this: 

Maintain your integrity to the relationship you choose to be in. Understand, act and support the relationship so that it may be all that it should be

Growing in the darkside of the force

LORD HAVOC