Word is Bond...

Step into my universe. Where I will tell you directly how I feel and what I mean.

I will say this...

I listen to who I date, in a dynamic with and are actual applicants or candidates to be involved with me. Whether we agree or disagree things will just be fine. I will continue to cherish the views, opinions, outlooks and all of those I have some trust for and care for. It is alright to agree to disagree. we will live, love and continue on.

Decisions I make for me and mine are based on what I think is the best for all involved. Their desires, wants and all are considered. Many times over my own depending on their importance.

But there are times where I make decisions completely of and for myself that from my point of view do not change things for the others.  Recently I made those decisions. Because it was time for the best for me.

So I will continue to be public enemy number one even to those that decide to grace one of my circles if they choose to like they have. it is all good.

Tonight I stood at the top of the hieararchy and watched the deterioration occur. The aftermath of making a decision for myself once in a blue moon.

I don't regret my decisions. They needed to be done. They are in their better places and comfortable positions that they want now since we have began.

So with the attitude, hurt feelings and no telling what else. I am the Bad Guy to them. The one that they are going to treat accordingly and deal with in the ways that they have available to them.

Just me and my word is bond...

Public Enemy Number One

Through the Natural Disasters and End of the Universe Events

I have to truly say that things have been extra fucking crazy as hell. This year. This quarter. This Month. This week. lol

The damn issues with the parental units increased to another level. Going to still have to do my duty and problem solve as public enemy number one.

The attitudes, moods and actions have been in full swing. And I have had to swing back at them.

I was asked about who I talk to about things that are going on and that are being dealt with. My answer is "no one now." I keep things to myself. I analyze and enact for myself. When I need another view I ask specific people that I can ask without attitude, drama and issue.

I have seen some light but I will let it decide whether it will fully reveal for itself or not. I don't hold onto those things that are not solidified anymore.

People in their place has been the theme. If I accept you then that is what i do. Accept you for who and what you are and whatever you can offer and no more. That is why they remain in my life. Even though they question the why after I have given my answers. I am like why question why if I am still loving, caring, want you? But then again I am not them so what the hell would I know. So, hey if what you have to offer is all you have to give and I have agreed with that then...there you go!

I realized that I was missing being able to laugh, be comfortable and just have a good time with those that are mine. It reminded me of how fleeting things are. And I understand even more clearly.

After watching Batman and harley and reminding me of my relationship with red. Episodes of the Orville to remind me of little one. I had to look back at all these years. Laugh and shake my head.

As I look at and wonder at that miracle. I am reminded of the Search for the Holy Grail. And I feel like the holy hand grenade of Antioch. lmao


There are some other things but maybe i will get to those later tonight. I think I will finish this writing and get some more thinking done.