I learned being open, straight forward and transparent is not a good thing. Well, in theory it is a good thing and the best way to be. But people need the Representative. And they can't handle those aspects I have seen.
The issue when you speak and act straight forward is met with disbelief, disdain, fear and loathing. It is pretty much like the plague. Which really baffles me. Because there is always this rhetoric about being real and all that bullshit. But when it occurs it is more like "run for the fucking hills."
It is something that Ru Ru and I spoke about this morning. About me being just me. Through the outside views, notions and opinions...I am just me in the beginning and end. She understands that I simply continue to be who I am. That doesn't change my love, deep passion or my evil ass actions. And this is also why I know I can be myself and tell Ru everything and anything. As evidence to her reminding me about a reference to pre marriage that was pertinent to the current situations. Even I had forgotten or locked that memory away until she said it. All I could say was oh damn. This woman knows who I am, what has happened and all the information from top to bottom. And I am happy with that.
Outside of Ru I realized that there had to be a revamp of information regulation. I am not holding information in escrow for anyone. There is no way for them to handle it. So as it has been shown and enacted, they get the Representative that they want. Meanwhile information, emotions and feelings all remaining behind the 30 ft thick walled vault.
I guess you can say that it is not the human's fault that they are like this way. But fuck that it is and they love it that way.
Well, I have eaten breakfast. Steak, cheese eggs and grits. And fixed me a tequila, vodka, rum and fruit punch. I think it is time to really get things started!
Have a great one and enjoy the weekend. Until the next time smack some ass and smack it hard!
Friday, August 21, 2015
Right On Cue
With the things that have gone on lately I needed that moment in time like being in the tardis tonight.
So I called and checked on Ru. And we exchanged adventures in life unscripted. The good and the bad of what has gone on lately and in memory.
From her sabot kicking the porn guy in the head while fucking and busting his head open to fucking nihgas until they lose their common sense. That's my gurl. My road dawg. My fellow Road Warrior.
She knows the crazy details of me and my life. She is that fortress in the eye of the storm and there to help you fight. Understanding and accepting of each other. Who would have known that we would ever become this close from swinging and the retarded monkey ex.
As we talked this morning she reminded me of a somilar situation with my wife. I couldn't remember it until she spoke and reminded me. And I had to laugh because it was the same situation again. Further showing why I felt, started things and why there is importance. but the conflict is similar.
In the uncertainty and agitation she threw water on me and I was awoken. Dealing and handlimg things
Ru Ru is my heart. I love that girl deeply. We have been through so much together. Our bond is so very toght. Flowing with no effort.
She has met my wife. Helped me through rough times
Amd made laugh and smole in this apocalyptic era.
I thank God for Ru Ru. She is a severely blessing. And those big soft titties of hers feel great!
I can't wait for her and her man to make it official. She is happy with him
So I called and checked on Ru. And we exchanged adventures in life unscripted. The good and the bad of what has gone on lately and in memory.
From her sabot kicking the porn guy in the head while fucking and busting his head open to fucking nihgas until they lose their common sense. That's my gurl. My road dawg. My fellow Road Warrior.
She knows the crazy details of me and my life. She is that fortress in the eye of the storm and there to help you fight. Understanding and accepting of each other. Who would have known that we would ever become this close from swinging and the retarded monkey ex.
As we talked this morning she reminded me of a somilar situation with my wife. I couldn't remember it until she spoke and reminded me. And I had to laugh because it was the same situation again. Further showing why I felt, started things and why there is importance. but the conflict is similar.
In the uncertainty and agitation she threw water on me and I was awoken. Dealing and handlimg things
Ru Ru is my heart. I love that girl deeply. We have been through so much together. Our bond is so very toght. Flowing with no effort.
She has met my wife. Helped me through rough times
Amd made laugh and smole in this apocalyptic era.
I thank God for Ru Ru. She is a severely blessing. And those big soft titties of hers feel great!
I can't wait for her and her man to make it official. She is happy with him
Thursday, August 20, 2015
Quote of the Evening
“there is nothing outside of yourself that can ever enable you to get better, stronger, richer, quicker, or smarter. Everything is within. Everything exists. Seek nothing outside of yourself.” ― Miyamoto Musashi, The Book of Five Rings
Hmmm more education
A very good conference call. I did miss Sir Mythos speaking on things before I decided to see if there was a call. Which is a bummer.
But the subjects of submissive's obedience and the meaning of obedience came up. And the use of the terminology of breaking a submissive versus a more positive terminology like restructuring them.
Also discussions about safety when meeting others. I have definitely been for that. Because you have to worry about things on both sides of the slash.
I will write some more concerning the subjects in depth. I will have to formulate things. But the breaking and obedience when it comes to a submissive are very definite, important and relevant things currently.
Learning and evolving still and continuing....
I know you should have been sleeping for hours by now. Yeah I will get a nap in soon and be up at 7am.
But the subjects of submissive's obedience and the meaning of obedience came up. And the use of the terminology of breaking a submissive versus a more positive terminology like restructuring them.
Also discussions about safety when meeting others. I have definitely been for that. Because you have to worry about things on both sides of the slash.
I will write some more concerning the subjects in depth. I will have to formulate things. But the breaking and obedience when it comes to a submissive are very definite, important and relevant things currently.
Learning and evolving still and continuing....
I know you should have been sleeping for hours by now. Yeah I will get a nap in soon and be up at 7am.
Wednesday, August 19, 2015
Spoken Reality: Demon Ronin
The purpose, duty and reality is clear. It is what it is. It always has been.
Eternal Demon Ronin
My code
A bond from and of
Hell
Upon a heart barely
beating
Covered in ice,
concrete and titanium
Path marked and clear
to me
Even when it is not
And is rebelled
against
To those who I charge
to keep
Sometimes the only
Other times the last
line
Of defense
Which allows them to
take offense
To my methods and
stance
I am use to that
The purpose is a
clear path to me
While they will not,
cannot see it
I breathe in the
darkness and pain
Harness it
My vault of rage
flowing
My purpose and intent
Shown and given with
deadly
Reverence
I am the love
That you have and
seek
The Master that you
feel and have foreseen
The companion that
will always intercede
You are merely stuck
In methodology and
humanism
Which is where you
are supposed to be
As for me
My purpose and this
carnage
The rain of blood and
forever stains
Prose and guardian pose
The reasons
Why love is in my
heart
I speak my mind and
act with motivation
Feed on and live in
this dark reservation
Is to
Guard and protect you
Lead you to the
glorious
Predestinations
Give you the things
that
You were meant to be
and be appreciated
I am this warrior
This spawn of satan
Warrior of Darkness
Master of Rage
So that you may know
Your place with me
That I will not allow
harm to come to you
We are linked
Through good and bad
I will protect and
lead you to
The bright path of
Your Destiny
From the
chocolatezeus collection 8/19/15 ©
Morning From the Fortress of Solitude
This is about as close of a reference I come personally with superman. After all I only bought the superman book where my boy Doomsday kills his ass.
And the superman shirts that I have are remnants and reminders of my wife. After all they are hers, since she was Superwoman in nickname and reality.
Well mornimg ro you. The Representative bids you to have a good day. Sieze the moments and life.
Meanwhile with all that is going on. It is time for storm troopers, a star killer and 2 Death Stars kind of celebration.
Enjoy. I am back to the void.
And the superman shirts that I have are remnants and reminders of my wife. After all they are hers, since she was Superwoman in nickname and reality.
Well mornimg ro you. The Representative bids you to have a good day. Sieze the moments and life.
Meanwhile with all that is going on. It is time for storm troopers, a star killer and 2 Death Stars kind of celebration.
Enjoy. I am back to the void.
Tuesday, August 18, 2015
And Now...
Back to loading while listening to Eminem and Onyx at the same time.
All hail the ABM!!!
Chairman of the Board
All hail the ABM!!!
Chairman of the Board
Spoken Wordz; Dynamic of Chocolate
Well the Representative won the wager. So I had to drop something not ABM for a moment and here it is...
Dynamic of Chocolate
Looking into eyes
Pierced with
intelligence
Bright and revealing
Flickering passionate
In their evidence
Captivating
Lips that make the
word
Full jealous
Sultry, seductive
Pulchritude of
sexiness
Parting for knowledge
Lasting carnal
effects
Curves that the Alps
Fear their chocolateness
Holding the energy of
Aphrodite’s
Prowess
The ultimate
playground
Keeping my attention
Very permanent
Like a priceless
masterpiece
Hid bids
Constant coveting
Eternity of claiming
chocolate
By all means
necessary
You are that forever
Effect
The touch of your
Heart and soul
Showing
Marks
Your royal pose
The future that it
holds
The sweetness of the
Sweet tooth that you
create
In one vessel
Heat
Warmth
Cold
Scorching
Unfurled not in
pieces
But the whole
Whole piece of
chocolate
The sweet tooth
You created
Now I must feed
Devour you
As my chocolate fix
Needs to be eternally
fed
That means
You
From the
chocolatezeus collection 8/18/15 ©
The Aspect of Ownership
This has been the chapter I am on currently. And it has been in discussions lately as well.
I know for me it is not something I have taken lightly. Thanks to meeting Sirs that have shown and explained the value and importance in this. Hell, it is the reason why I paid attention, studied and opened up the learning to betterment.
Ownership is important to me because the point is to take care of my s types. To provide the things that they need and to lead. The pride and feeling of saying and the recognition of "she is mine." That makes me smile and strive to be better. There is nothing like that feeling of ownership.
This is not recognized by society at large. But it is the application of taking care of your submissive. Making sure that they are healthy, moving forward positively and achieving the goals that are set to the betterment. Through attending conferences and events I have seen the recognition of Doms and their subs. The respect, rituals and service of the good dynamics I have seen are inspirational. You can see it with each interaction. The respect from Dom to Dom, Sub to Dom and the relationships between each. The outline that says this is mine and respect is in order and necessary.
It doesn't mean that the sub does not express themselves. I prefer my sub to express herself and I attend to her input and needs. She expresses so that things can be better tailored and the dynamic grow correctly. The protocols and rituals held in place to strengthen everything.
As a Dom it is my purpose to decide the best for my subs. For their service and realization that they are subject to what I decide for them.
I have been able to witness the need from the sub's point of view as well. The need for ownership that can give purpose and comfort. Part of that strengthening in the dynamic bond.
The key is applying the proper things to the sub that will allow her to understand, feel and accept her ownership. And that is not a simple task at all times or for all. But if it was simple more people would do it.
I am glad that I am learning and applying. Just have to finish the equation and complete
Keep your head up and do what you can to live for today and tomorrow.
*back to ABM*
I know for me it is not something I have taken lightly. Thanks to meeting Sirs that have shown and explained the value and importance in this. Hell, it is the reason why I paid attention, studied and opened up the learning to betterment.
Ownership is important to me because the point is to take care of my s types. To provide the things that they need and to lead. The pride and feeling of saying and the recognition of "she is mine." That makes me smile and strive to be better. There is nothing like that feeling of ownership.
This is not recognized by society at large. But it is the application of taking care of your submissive. Making sure that they are healthy, moving forward positively and achieving the goals that are set to the betterment. Through attending conferences and events I have seen the recognition of Doms and their subs. The respect, rituals and service of the good dynamics I have seen are inspirational. You can see it with each interaction. The respect from Dom to Dom, Sub to Dom and the relationships between each. The outline that says this is mine and respect is in order and necessary.
It doesn't mean that the sub does not express themselves. I prefer my sub to express herself and I attend to her input and needs. She expresses so that things can be better tailored and the dynamic grow correctly. The protocols and rituals held in place to strengthen everything.
As a Dom it is my purpose to decide the best for my subs. For their service and realization that they are subject to what I decide for them.
I have been able to witness the need from the sub's point of view as well. The need for ownership that can give purpose and comfort. Part of that strengthening in the dynamic bond.
The key is applying the proper things to the sub that will allow her to understand, feel and accept her ownership. And that is not a simple task at all times or for all. But if it was simple more people would do it.
I am glad that I am learning and applying. Just have to finish the equation and complete
Keep your head up and do what you can to live for today and tomorrow.
*back to ABM*
Lucifer and Minority Report upcoming tv shows
ok so I watched the pilot for both of these just now.
Minority Report
Besides the black chick having a decent ass and body. That was about it for the interest with it. The precog shit was campy. The tech use was a little intriguing. But how the hell do you make a series out of this? I am clueless. It seems to be the recipe for immediate boredom.
Lucifer
Is about as you guess. The reign of the devil and family. The character Lucifer is interesting. He plays to the carnal and desires of individuals. It has a light feel of the demonic. Even with the reference to having a war with demons and the balance between good and evil. So I will give this a chance when it comes out to see what they can do with it.
They were leaked but hey it was something to do.
Minority Report
Besides the black chick having a decent ass and body. That was about it for the interest with it. The precog shit was campy. The tech use was a little intriguing. But how the hell do you make a series out of this? I am clueless. It seems to be the recipe for immediate boredom.
Lucifer
Is about as you guess. The reign of the devil and family. The character Lucifer is interesting. He plays to the carnal and desires of individuals. It has a light feel of the demonic. Even with the reference to having a war with demons and the balance between good and evil. So I will give this a chance when it comes out to see what they can do with it.
They were leaked but hey it was something to do.
Back to the Regular Program
Good thing for preparation.
Judging from the separate things this morning. The usual standard has been set.
Off to the ABM side of things. Let the pen dip in it's blood red ink once again.
A drink, thoughts and current activities lead to unforgettable comments and spoken word treats.
*mad face*
Judging from the separate things this morning. The usual standard has been set.
Off to the ABM side of things. Let the pen dip in it's blood red ink once again.
A drink, thoughts and current activities lead to unforgettable comments and spoken word treats.
*mad face*
Morning...let me rant for a moment
My morning is decent. Nothing has happened. Then I head to my poetry group and I get to be entertained. And not in the snap fingers in response to some good prose kind of way. lol But let both sides say what they need to say. *snicker*
The comment in question is:
And when I return looking more beautiful and confident than ever before, all I want you to realize is what you had and what you will never have again...
So without further adieu in this corner with the white trunks and smile the Representative. In the other corner we have the Real Deal in the black trunks with the blood red trim. Come out your corners fighting.
Ding
Ding
Ding
The Representative: I see how they are still upset that they were left like that and or cheated on and all. This is part of their closure they need.
The Real Deal: So everyone is supposed to wallow in the self pity filth with them so they can try to feel better about themselves? Or is it a need to project their bitterness on who left them?
The Representative: It is just part of their closure. They want the person that left them to feel what they are going through and understand the good thing that they had.
The Real Deal: Apparently it wasn't all that good if they cheated and left the so called good thing that they had. And it really seems like the effects of "bitter bitch syndrome" set in and they just want to share the pain in a passive aggressive way.
Ding
Ding
Ding
well folks there you have it. The entertainment in a clusterfuck kind of way. But hey at least you got both sides of the story.
*evil laughter*
Start your day off funny and with purpose. Enjoy your day
The comment in question is:
And when I return looking more beautiful and confident than ever before, all I want you to realize is what you had and what you will never have again...
So without further adieu in this corner with the white trunks and smile the Representative. In the other corner we have the Real Deal in the black trunks with the blood red trim. Come out your corners fighting.
Ding
Ding
Ding
The Representative: I see how they are still upset that they were left like that and or cheated on and all. This is part of their closure they need.
The Real Deal: So everyone is supposed to wallow in the self pity filth with them so they can try to feel better about themselves? Or is it a need to project their bitterness on who left them?
The Representative: It is just part of their closure. They want the person that left them to feel what they are going through and understand the good thing that they had.
The Real Deal: Apparently it wasn't all that good if they cheated and left the so called good thing that they had. And it really seems like the effects of "bitter bitch syndrome" set in and they just want to share the pain in a passive aggressive way.
Ding
Ding
Ding
well folks there you have it. The entertainment in a clusterfuck kind of way. But hey at least you got both sides of the story.
*evil laughter*
Start your day off funny and with purpose. Enjoy your day
Monday, August 17, 2015
Today at the Home Cinema and My Rant
I just finished watching "Straight Out of Compton."
It was good. It broke down the relationships and everything. From the pioneering in the beginning as NWA to the end where Easy E died and it brought them back together again.
I honestly didn't know that much in detail about everything that happened with all of them. I was overseas when most of the beginning happened. But from what I know this was definitely on point.
And yes as Lil Red said Ice Cube's son does look just like his ass. And the Tupac look alike was eerily similar to Pac as well.
I had to laugh at Tammy and them seeing this movie. The white people definitely went out to check this movie out.
And even though I know people were thinking this was going to spark violence and everything. The movie really didn't. It didn't glorify anything. It told the story and let you feel the characters. Because this whole pay for security at the theaters it is playing at pissed me off. How about you fucking pay for security when movies like Saw or something filled with gore come out instead. But no, we have to be concerned about the black people and this movie. Fucking Bullshit!!
So if you haven't seen it. Go see it and enjoy the thrill, excitement, the sadness and other emotions the movie invokes.
It was good. It broke down the relationships and everything. From the pioneering in the beginning as NWA to the end where Easy E died and it brought them back together again.
I honestly didn't know that much in detail about everything that happened with all of them. I was overseas when most of the beginning happened. But from what I know this was definitely on point.
And yes as Lil Red said Ice Cube's son does look just like his ass. And the Tupac look alike was eerily similar to Pac as well.
I had to laugh at Tammy and them seeing this movie. The white people definitely went out to check this movie out.
And even though I know people were thinking this was going to spark violence and everything. The movie really didn't. It didn't glorify anything. It told the story and let you feel the characters. Because this whole pay for security at the theaters it is playing at pissed me off. How about you fucking pay for security when movies like Saw or something filled with gore come out instead. But no, we have to be concerned about the black people and this movie. Fucking Bullshit!!
So if you haven't seen it. Go see it and enjoy the thrill, excitement, the sadness and other emotions the movie invokes.
Sunday, August 16, 2015
The Lock and Keys to ME
After doing a lot of reading and poetry writing. Plus the other things going on.
There is a level that I maintain. For those elite that I keep close and I love. They hold the keys. The inner sanctum of me. That means all of me. Which is strange indeed. But that is why they are the elite. They know and see the vulnerable pieces of me.
If you are the one. I tell you up front when I feel that you are ready and worthy then the vault is open to you. I give you the trust and responsibility of the deep dark things that are me. Or the light and funny things that I also keep.
In this same factor. Who I love and I am with relationship wise is the key to a number of things. Peace, calm and being free are things that that person helps get me to and keep when need be. Hell, even when there is no need. Ru Ru will give you plenty of stories of the human race surviving. From my times with Chocolate Doll to the reprise that has happened with Lil Red. Ru will automatically ask me when will the next visit be so that she won't have to worry about another humble texas episode happening.
The key is about that connection that I have with them. The moments near and far where there is an effect of mutual dynamic. This is that love that is cherish, revered and precious. When you can make me smile out the blue. Or comfort me when all hell has broken lose.
Here is the point. If I offered you the key and told you that I am open to you. Then know how deeply I care and love you. For it is the Hall of Valhalla where no others will come to view.
You have it all. The choice is yours
Spoken Word: Strength In Expression
Strength In Expression
I don’t fear the
vulnerability
The clueless
inevitability
I fear not taking
action
Acting on what I want
and seek
It makes me
The board member
For the Caveman
Collective
Yet it defines me
When I told you
That I wanted you
How I wanted you
permanently
It was because I
Looked
Analyzed
Thought
Felt
And most of all got
that
Vibe
Between you and me
Never thought
Or sought a perfect
relationship
I just knew what we
had
And why the
connection
Gave a pulse to being
Collectively and
totally
What I sought and
seek
A second miracle
When there has never
been
An outlook of possibility
Teddy Bear
Angry Black Man
Non feeling and
excommunicating
They all describe me
But only you get to
see
The blessing of
Love and caring
Those things reserved
for
Those that are with
me
So I speak my mind
My heart and soul
When I gave voice to
Loving you
And the future that I
seek
The adventures and
experiences
Of
You and Me
from the
chocolatezeus collection 8/16/15 ©
The Answer to Expectations
I got the question I get at times.
What do you expect? (when it comes to the humans)
I expect NOTHING! I expect everyone to do what is in their best interest and that is it. What makes them happy, satisfied or comfortable.
I was met with that is so negative and fatalistic.
Ummm, but it is true. The nature of humans dictates that to happen.
A male is interested in a female. He makes an attempt to show interest and get to know the female. She perceives it as he is just trying to fuck her and waste her time. So that is her expectation of him. While he expects her to be standoffish and playing games. Their expectations may be wrong but they are in their own best interests.
Expectations, dreaming and planning can lead to disaster of the utmost proportions if you let it. The key is to stay centered in reality. Temper all the what if's with what is happening currently.
What do you expect? (when it comes to the humans)
I expect NOTHING! I expect everyone to do what is in their best interest and that is it. What makes them happy, satisfied or comfortable.
I was met with that is so negative and fatalistic.
Ummm, but it is true. The nature of humans dictates that to happen.
A male is interested in a female. He makes an attempt to show interest and get to know the female. She perceives it as he is just trying to fuck her and waste her time. So that is her expectation of him. While he expects her to be standoffish and playing games. Their expectations may be wrong but they are in their own best interests.
Expectations, dreaming and planning can lead to disaster of the utmost proportions if you let it. The key is to stay centered in reality. Temper all the what if's with what is happening currently.
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