So yeah I am done with the parental unit and helping with shit. Fuck the dead ass, worthless brother and the other equally worthless brother.
When you are told and shown that your importance is negligible by those that you are supposed to be connected to, family, girlfriend, s type or whatever then you have to act accordingly.
human expect you to wait for and on them to do whatever. As well as only on their schedule and their way.
I am normally helpful. I normally do my duty and job but it is all good. I am just going to do what I am...Evil
I will make sure all get what they ask for and are looking for...fully
Much appreciated.
Thursday, August 09, 2018
Your choice of support and a Blast from the Past
So the trip to brooklyn trip was like running a gauntlet through hell while being behind at all times. 48 hours of dealing with the parental unit, his attitude, him thinking that he know it all and trying to tell someone what to do all the time.
From dealing with the courthouse there and their chaos and not know what they are doing. To having to park at the sister hotel 4 blocks away because of them working on their parking deck.
Thankfully the apartment had aired out a bit because they had left the windows open. The place was a mess but that is probably because everyone has been coming in and whatever they already stole.
So from Sunday at 830am to returning on Tuesday at 5am it was pure hell. I drove most of the way there and back. Thankfully not all. Didn't really eat anything until like Monday night.
So all this and still have to find this boys ex wife and if he had kids or not. Total mess.
I posted that I was smelling piss and shit on one of the Facebook pages and people saw it. And A chick I fucked and semi dated also saw it. Hit me up thinking I was still in ny. But we didn't have a falling out or anything. So she was trying to get together but I was already gone. Will have to get together again. At least she knows that I am not a people person unlike others. lol I was like damn, and you and I haven't even seen each other in well over a decade.
But if I care, love or let you into anything with me then you know I am supporting and there for you.
But what I won't do is be around if you want to endanger yourself and everything. you are grown and make your own decisions so enjoy that.
If you don't want to be involved or interact then it is all good. I will sit back and not give a fuck. If you speak I will talk if I am in the mood or ignore you. But there will be nothing there at all. even if we were together, we dated or whatever else.
I am not carrying dead weight and drama contained individuals anymore.
No longer will I stand in the way for individuals to make their decisions, enjoy their distance, separation, drama and all. I will merely step across the street and watch the show they bring while yelling back at them if they try to communicate with me across the street
From dealing with the courthouse there and their chaos and not know what they are doing. To having to park at the sister hotel 4 blocks away because of them working on their parking deck.
Thankfully the apartment had aired out a bit because they had left the windows open. The place was a mess but that is probably because everyone has been coming in and whatever they already stole.
So from Sunday at 830am to returning on Tuesday at 5am it was pure hell. I drove most of the way there and back. Thankfully not all. Didn't really eat anything until like Monday night.
So all this and still have to find this boys ex wife and if he had kids or not. Total mess.
I posted that I was smelling piss and shit on one of the Facebook pages and people saw it. And A chick I fucked and semi dated also saw it. Hit me up thinking I was still in ny. But we didn't have a falling out or anything. So she was trying to get together but I was already gone. Will have to get together again. At least she knows that I am not a people person unlike others. lol I was like damn, and you and I haven't even seen each other in well over a decade.
But if I care, love or let you into anything with me then you know I am supporting and there for you.
But what I won't do is be around if you want to endanger yourself and everything. you are grown and make your own decisions so enjoy that.
If you don't want to be involved or interact then it is all good. I will sit back and not give a fuck. If you speak I will talk if I am in the mood or ignore you. But there will be nothing there at all. even if we were together, we dated or whatever else.
I am not carrying dead weight and drama contained individuals anymore.
No longer will I stand in the way for individuals to make their decisions, enjoy their distance, separation, drama and all. I will merely step across the street and watch the show they bring while yelling back at them if they try to communicate with me across the street
Monday, August 06, 2018
Not even my slave, but such an impact today
Today I got a call from a slave that I am friends with. We have never met. just spoke to each other on video chat, the phone and messages and text. I could feel that something was wrong. That energy of pain and despair resonated.
I was stunned and shocked when she told me a monkey bitch female had molested, burned with cigarettes and starved her grandson and more until he died. It hurt deeply. A child I never knew or will ever know. A grandmother who I have only communicated with all this time and never seen. The tears were there below the surface as i tried to hold them into place. I couldn't let go in the care with the parental unit and the sister on the way up here to new york. But the outrage is here and it is deep.
This also made me consider some D/s issue that I have to address this year. About connection, desire, need, submission and service. I have let things slide a lot because of previous emotional attachment. It is not appropriate to the House or the submissives and slaves. If there is no desire for submission, or even being connected or anything then what is there? After questions, thoughts and discussion it is time to come to terms and address things this year. A hard part.
Being a Dominant. Even an Evil Caveman such as myself there are people and moments where things strike beneath the armor and defenses. It is why I have loved those that I have had under me as well as those I have currently. It is the difference between you being a Picasso on my wall to being someone and something I barely remember. I will support, love, protect you ferociously with all I have and more. But when there is no activity or interest coming back to me I give the head nod and file it into the archives..
How can you say you are comfortable submitting and being a slave but all these stipulations and actions that you have make sure there is no connection and nothing works? It is a question that I asked and haven't gotten a real response to yet.
Regardless it feels good that there are those that are comfortable and want to confide, be supported, helped and everything by me. It is not an ego thing It is a matter of duty for me. And it is something that has gone on since the beginning of my planetfall. Even with those I don't know it is the case. So it truly baffled me when there were those that can't do those things with me regardless of what they have said about what they feel towards me. And it was a serious quandary for a long time. And then I just stepped back and realized they just can't, won't and don't want any of that with me. So make my decisions based off of that and move forward.
As my prayers go out to my friend, her daughter and the rest of her grandchildren. I am seriously in thought and coming to terms with some things that I have not addressed in the last year concerning dating, relation, relationship and D/s.
I was stunned and shocked when she told me a monkey bitch female had molested, burned with cigarettes and starved her grandson and more until he died. It hurt deeply. A child I never knew or will ever know. A grandmother who I have only communicated with all this time and never seen. The tears were there below the surface as i tried to hold them into place. I couldn't let go in the care with the parental unit and the sister on the way up here to new york. But the outrage is here and it is deep.
This also made me consider some D/s issue that I have to address this year. About connection, desire, need, submission and service. I have let things slide a lot because of previous emotional attachment. It is not appropriate to the House or the submissives and slaves. If there is no desire for submission, or even being connected or anything then what is there? After questions, thoughts and discussion it is time to come to terms and address things this year. A hard part.
Being a Dominant. Even an Evil Caveman such as myself there are people and moments where things strike beneath the armor and defenses. It is why I have loved those that I have had under me as well as those I have currently. It is the difference between you being a Picasso on my wall to being someone and something I barely remember. I will support, love, protect you ferociously with all I have and more. But when there is no activity or interest coming back to me I give the head nod and file it into the archives..
How can you say you are comfortable submitting and being a slave but all these stipulations and actions that you have make sure there is no connection and nothing works? It is a question that I asked and haven't gotten a real response to yet.
Regardless it feels good that there are those that are comfortable and want to confide, be supported, helped and everything by me. It is not an ego thing It is a matter of duty for me. And it is something that has gone on since the beginning of my planetfall. Even with those I don't know it is the case. So it truly baffled me when there were those that can't do those things with me regardless of what they have said about what they feel towards me. And it was a serious quandary for a long time. And then I just stepped back and realized they just can't, won't and don't want any of that with me. So make my decisions based off of that and move forward.
As my prayers go out to my friend, her daughter and the rest of her grandchildren. I am seriously in thought and coming to terms with some things that I have not addressed in the last year concerning dating, relation, relationship and D/s.
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