Chocolate Doll Memories and My Duties

Back here in the city of unbrotherly love. Why? Because I promised myself that I would come back after my wife's 2nd funeral here.

It is strange being back here. The last time was to end the greatest parts of my life. To say my last final fairwell to a part of me.

So I will hit 4th Street Deli and try to go to the diner on broad. I am not sure the nifty fifties that we went to is still open. Other than that I am just taking time to just be. I had dinner with shortcakes last night. It was good to laugh and catch up.

Hmm, philadelphia. The place I found my wife. Where I flew from to get married in Jamaica. And plenty of outstanding marathon sex sessions, fun and enlightenment. For a place I do not care for it held a portion of my life that was great.

When it comes down to me as a person I have rules and regulations I live by that don't make sense to others and more.

Within the three circles of interaction with me there is caring and loving aspects towards the few that can grace them. And it goes at a hierarchal level. But in all of them I will do what I can to help and support according to their level. Obviously the highest level aka the inner sanctum is an all out type of relation.

Well, in a discussion with red earlier I was talking about my concern for my Ru Ru and her situation. And the fact that I can't give her the support that she needs right now. And she has been there for me for all the years that we have known each other. That is why she gets the supreme spot and treatment that she does. I know I can only do what I can but it is important to me to support those that I care about in whatever way that I can. Well, unless they don't want support. Then I bide my time until another decision is made.  This is part of my intimate relationship package. They get the things I do not give out to associates and humans. So yes there is a division of meaning there.

I always try to maintain and carry out my duties to those I care about. Sin Eater. Counselor. Friend. Lover and more. Does it always happen? No. But I do what I can, how I can and when I can.

This is one of the things that I am not mean and evil about even though it is only for a very small and select amount of the population.

So I am going to continue this journey this weekend. My birthday month has began with this trip. We will see how things happen and work out this month. We are already off schedule. And this month will show and help me decide some things.

Have a great weekend.

Fisticuffs, Bad Meets Evil and Mental Weekend Recap

My uncle is doing fine and recovering after his open heart surgery. I am glad that is over with. That made me think about things that I have had on my mind about what is left of what i would call family since Chocolate Doll, Big Ma, Aunt Naomi and Uncle Ralph are gone. There are not that many left to lose. If I lose uncle and auntie then all I have left is Ru Ru. And yeah, at that point in time all bets are off and you better armor the fuck up.

Black Bike week. What can I say there were some nice bikes and some nice thick ass chicks on some of them. Of course there has to be ignorant asses out there. They think they are gangsta. They had to be taught a lesson why they call me Unk OG in the chuck.

Being me I had to adjust my comfort and perception about things. There were some major realizations.  I can't give or allow those things when it is not warranted or wanted. I am the Juggernaut Bitch!

Why yes, I continue to analyze, think and prepare. With that came the checklist and I have been looking at it and realizing just how close I am when it comes to analysis. As I said to Ru, we will see what is what. I am just in Doomsday prep mode!

I did get a chance to go out and get my eat and drink on with the two drunks friday. The food at that sports bar was good and the band definitely brought the funk that night. Watching an old, drunk white boy dancing is just funny. And the little white girls bartending had cute little asses to be skinny. The best still was the older one rita the pediatrician and biker.

Dealing with setbacks but that is why I analyze and think. Time to move to the next phase and mode of life and existing.

As I look at the calendar and clock, waiting for the evidence of what will happen. I will continue to keep my go bag ready, plenty of cigars, bottles and my mind ready for that moment to use the Suncrusher (Star Wars) to make the final exclamation point.

But her there was some good conversations with shortcakes and a new young lady that I did get to enjoy this week.

Keeping those I am concerned about in prayer, thoughts and position.

Enjoy your memorial day and remember those that have died to keep the country safe.

Rip Warriors

The Man and the Dominant

I am not your Make A Wish Foundation answer.
Nor am I nostradomus.

I am simply me. The man and alien. That is all that I will be.

As I have seen, many times females and subs have been looking for someone to solve everything for them or take it all away. I can't do those things. No one can do those things.

What I can and do is make the best effort and decisions possible for you to grow and achieve goals. This does not mean that mistakes won't be made. It means that it is a process and all involved are responsible in making it work.

As a man, I do walk to the beat of my own drum. I think, act and say things according to me, myself and I. I don't think in a equal, fair or other people's mindset. Many have an issue with this. And that is fine.

I don't deal with, date or have an interest in males. So when the phrase, "can't you see a female's point of view comes up," I will merely look at you sideways. I am not a female and nor do I think like one.

In all of this fairness, equality and make me change mentality it seems that the picture is not being seen. You are not looking for a clone, a cog or the same ole thing in who you have a dynamic or relationship with. You are looking for something unique.  Well, so am I.

Nothing is completely the same. And there are plenty of things that are similar. Like codes, rules and so forth. But in D/s as with relationships you have to tailor make things to what is going on with and for your situation.

As a Man:

I have always stood out as being my own person. My ways may not be yours. But if you want to understand them then address that with me. If not, then no worries. I won't and don't apologize for being myself.  My changes are my own.

My taste in females is very unique and picky. Unlike the thought process many females use for men. I am not fucking everything that has a pussy and nor do I want to know everything with a pussy.  You can be a tool for sex, just another female or something more. That just depends on how you approach me, your intentions and the results.

As a Dominant:

I am strict, commanding and mean. That is tempered with understanding, application and growth. I may only have a few years under my belt but I continue learning and growing. But the core principles will remain the same.

I strive for those with me to become better than when we met. To be able to be more critical in thinking, actions and living. For them to embrace themselves, life and their submission in ways that they can explore and enjoy fully.

There is no template. Let me say it again. THERE IS NO TEMPLATE! For being a Dominant or submissive and slave. What works for one will not work for anyone else. What works for most may not work for the one. lol and I know this very, very well.

In Conclusion:

There is already a huge communication gap between men and females. Add to that the gap between Dominants and submissives and the deficit is already rather large. So with that said, make every effort possible to understand, grow and achieve what you seek.

My Dominance is defined by me. The way I lead and teach. Through the things that I see, address and task to do. Those things are what show why I am a Dominant. This isn't about some star status. It is about the real life example of the D/s dynamic.

As a man I love titties and ass with curves and thick treats. Those women that are sexy and open minded enough to be outside the box that society has set aside for them to be in. That intelligent, super freak that is nerdy, finds things funny and is a super freak.

As a Dominant the quest is for the best D/s or play possible. The elation of the experiences. The knowledge of where we came from and are going. The memories that have been shared. An understand and application of TPE completely.


With that said, I hope you have had a good Memorial Day Weekend.