So it has been rocky for those that grace my circles. They had their internal defenses, walls and everything tested once again. Not by me on purpose or any of that. But because I am just me.
Hell, it even came out in discussions on conference calls as well.
There is a severe quandary out there. For the opposing gender they want a man to be:
- strong
- intelligent
- sensitive
- a manly man
And with those things come the male and Dominant that is not going to tell you what they feel or if things are bothering them. Strength and honor!!
But the opposing gender want men to be this way until that invisible line in their head is crossed by a man. Then they are not worth it and they won't listen to them and all the other things they come up with. They want the balance but are unable to articulate it. They want that take charge, take no prisoners man but they cant' handle it at full power.
These days the opposing gender has taken their view of think like and be like a man approach. Where they have this bravado of not needing to be emotional and feel anything while making sure to keep all walls, defenses and mrs freeze defense mechanisms on high alert.
This also brought up more of men being men instead of the neutered version that the opposite gender's feminists want to employ. Being a misogynistic, chauvinistic Caveman is who and what I am. That man that will love you deeply from the beginning to the end even when you question my intentions or motives. And the man that will do the complete opposite when it is warranted.
The opposite gender was and is appalled at me being this way. They have all their issue with it and the rattling of the equality noodle sabres and all.
But, I married, dated, date and have a submissive that are feminists. That is the type of balance there is and how it works for me. They are the only ones strong enough to be an applicant to have a chance for anything with me. As the opposite gender was in their shock and awe a Master had to explain to them what I said. That those that are with me are with me with the understanding of their role, place and meaning to me. Or they decide to leave or fake it as best as they can.
Because of these things and many more traits I test the resolve of those i am involved with. I am not what their exes, husband and friends are or think. I say and do things that are not mainstream. I show them a deep love that I do not give to others or even acknowledge others. Here is where the spotlight shines down upon them and they decide if they want to, can handle or be in the role that I have for them. Taxing their heart, mind and soul with how I am. It truly is not for the weak at all. They will drive themselves questioning how I am and being with me instead of enjoying their role and what they mean.
So me as....
A Dominant
As Havoc
As Chocolatezeus
Or Big Evil
I make and will continue making you think, feel and be outside of the box that you feel so comfortable in.
