The Thing Called Marriage

Folks have been wanting to converse, give their opinion and even give their side comments and silence lately on a lot of stuff. So here we go with this.

I believe in marriage and what it presents and represents. If those involved want to TRULY be together they can be married and do it. I know that is not the popular comment because everyone needs to be by themselves and all that stuff. Well thanks for informing those that are not hindered in their thoughts, feelings and lives. But I am happy and supportive of those and their desire, ideologies and all on relations, relationships, situationships and marriage.

Marriage is NOT for the weak. Meaning those that are scared of everything or need their version of control to be maintained in their own eyes just have what it takes to do, understand or appreciate marriage. And that is part of free will.

I had a great marriage. But it wasn't all roses and cotton candy. We had our issues and problems both before and during.  But here is the secret. We accepted ourselves, each other and what we wanted, had and could have in our connection. We decided to give are all in those pursuits regardless.

How do you make marriage or any other relationship work? By dedication, communication, support, commitment, connection and actual true love.  if you are pretending or unable in these areas then you get what you get.

I hear the woes, complaints and all daily from folks. In passing, guys at the shop, reading posts online as well as those that I have come to associate with.

My point of view:

I am about marriage. I always wanted it and when I had it I was happy through it all. I even still wanted it for a while after Chocolate Doll dies since I gave my word I wouldn't just destroy it and move on. Well now that I have given it the college try and spoke my mind and heart to who I thought was worthy my desire, actions and all concerning marriage have adjusted to the modern day.

No longer do I attempt to or chase marriage. I don't even desire it anymore. That doesn't mean that I am not open to it if a worthy woman or women came and the opportunity presented itself.  But it means I am good without the need for marriage or to have some faux pas version it.  The girls think that I was lying or didn't grasp what I was saying. But the proof has not only been in what I said but in my actions from last year into infinity.

Marriage gave me and created so many different aspects, experiences and gifts that I am so damn proud and happy for.

Because of marriage I am blessed and can handle the current attitudes, issues and all that present themselves with the opposite gender. I am open minded, loving and caring against the opposing force of fear of vulnerability, emotions, feelings and love.


This is my position. you can do and feel how you choose. I have no problem or concern with that. And it is ok if your mad, don't understand or in ultimate denial of what I have said.


Be blessed and be yourself...

Poetry: Anne Frank Lullaby

my laughter permeates the cosmos
anticipation of the precipitation of
culmination

my grin
my smile

Wait
what was this again

a defied
defined
sub atomic
remnant

snicker
guffaw

now down to
the guttural
business

epic
epicenter
signifying nothing

expounding on everything
holding court over
nothing

There goes the signal flare

simply smiling

huddled
surrounded by

destined
destiny



from the chocolatezeus collection. 3/6/18. (c)

Poem: When you Show Me

from the conception of your first
breath in my presence
action that I bared witness
words that seeped from your existence

you showed me

with the stalwart affect
billowing personnel content
evident security check

you showed me

through processed time
creases within your mind
aptly proportionate design

you showed me

upon a funeral pyre
submerged in the san Andreas trench
aloft in the ionosphere

you showed me

the calm came
silence befriended
ripples subsided

you showed me

And I Believe it




from the chocolatezeus collection. 3/6/18. (c)

Contemplation in Delineation

This will be based on captured moments and conversations. 

I am not sure if it is a trend or just modern day way or life or thinking. 

But why is it such and issue for those that are supposed to be in relationships to have a difference of opinion? It is like that difference of opinion is violating chicks deeply. Because I won't and don't see, act or take things exactly as they perceive and feel it creates this major critical demolition in them. 

The inability to have a discussion where there is listening as well as expression is a dead end with them. 

What happened to being able to actually be with someone and you don't agree but you still remained strong and together? 

Where did understanding and acceptance actually go? 

Burger King and the sliding scale...

The Flow and Laughter of It All

So this will be all over the place but I am a damn caveman and that is what I do.

ACC women's basketball tournament wasn't like it use to be back in the day. There wasn't all the crowds of people or anything. Rather lackluster. And they didn't really market it at all either it seems. Since this is the first year back after the bathroom bill charade I guess it hasn't caught on.

It seems that I am back in counselor and teaching mode. From helping submissives and slaves to talking to vanillas I have never met. I am still weary about helping anyone anymore after last years mess with them females. But it is a part of me no matter how hard I try to shake it apparently.

Some great talks about travel, movies, comics and food have happened with some new people lately. It has been refreshing to communicate at times. Have conversation and exchange interest and creativity.

I have played the Team Titans album a few times. Washed in emotion, feelings and memories provided some great poems and plenty of reflection. Still have to finish a few more from while I was gone.

The discussions about my version of poly. Being a Dominant and love have definitely been colorful. From those that feel it is an issue because what I have chosen to do doesn't fit their little minds and what the masses say I am supposed to do about being poly and those I am involved with. Or the big thing about how I am involved or not involved with others. And of course the usual issue about those that are supposed to be mine having a higher place than others (apparently they don't want to be special to me.)

I have had to really look at the comedy of love, relations and marriage now. Most know that I am pro love, relationships and marriage. But the disconnect they have is that I no longer have an interest really in love or marriage. It is if they can actually love me and not have a melt down then fine. The marriage thing is dead. Unless someone seriously worthy shows up and can handle the role without all the fucked up issues then I am extra good.  But little one and red have both said the same thing along with others that I haven't given up on those things and i still want them. Well truth is in the action and the action has been showing that there is ABSOLUTE ZERO left.  Just sticking with the policy of get in where you fit in if you want. I am still not chasing or making effort if there is not any effort or interest. Plug and play!

BB2 is moving into service stage as soon as I clear up some more stuff. Then I will add them and spread everything out so there will be more coverage for me just like in the old days with a less intimate demeanor.

I am still enjoying Black Panther. Glad that they did a different style movie. Looking forward to Deadpool 2 next.

lol after talking to josh really thinking about going to pick up a few wives for entertainement, sex and financial purposes.

The R/C shop was nice this weekend. Definitely have to head back there. And they had an F 4 corsair and a spitfire there. It is on now.

And cigar shops are life! The place where i go and always end up laughing and talking to a bunch of folk that I have no idea about.  I just need to get up north and hang out with more black chicks that smoke cigars though. There are some fine ones.

And then there is the graduation for my god daughter coming up on memorial day weekend of all weekends. I need a woman to go with me to chaperone, fuck me and for me to beat while I am there. Because it is going to be a hot mess for me. Still have to support my god daughter though. I need to work on someone to do that with now.

And back to the old school is where it is at once again. This year will be back to the basics and being on the go and all that. So yeah, it's on already.

I hope your time has been enlightening and entertaining as mine. There will be more to come in this journey of Life Unscripted though. (the other stuff is where you know it has to be...lol)