Poetic Inspiration: Reinvigorated Energy Coupling

Reinvigorated Energy Coupling

Most cannot grasp or understand

The deep rooted meaning and power of

Connection

Or they fight it for all that they are worth

Making denial their best friend

But when you know it and feel it

It makes all things

Relevant

Incredible

And powerful

When I felt it again

After years of one way dead ends

I was taken aback

Caught with my mouth open

Did I just feel this deep connection?

With someone that I don’t know

Is it one of those miracle situations

Where something might grow

Through moments of

Anger, stress, disbelief and despair

We gravitated like polarized black holes

Expanding

Exploring

Growing

All of this

From and in

Two unknowns

Moving on the path of becoming

Known

I felt it again

That unexplainable

Push and pull

That makes things exceptional

Transcending

Moments of misunderstanding

Sensitive posturing

Full blown representatives

We ended up

Just being ourselves

In Dynamic fashion

in those moments

where something intricate and intimate

formed and created

something stronger than

attempts at being together and other relationships

the energy just flows

feeds me abundantly

As I look forward to

Each exchange

Telephone and messaging conversation

She feeds me

Heartily and delicacies

Makes my hunger increase

As she gives me

Passion

Intimacy

Communication

Comfort and peace

I am ecstatic

Thankful and reverent

Someone that understands and represents

What a connection is

From the chocolatezeus collection  9/8/17  ©

Poetic Message: Where I Want to Be

Through all the things. For me connection is and always will be the key. Even when there is nothing being shown. When times are good and bad. That connection is what is there to give credence to what you are and mean to me.

So the ink spilled. Hoping you understand. you feel something...

Where I Want to Be

I cannot remember
The last time
I looked into your eyes
Even longer
The last time I saw that
Captivating smile
 Still
Even in this distance
 I see
I feel
The pain and discord
The difference between universes
 The answers
I do not know
Even the cause
Remains my unkown
 Sending you
 My love
My passion
Support and caring
 Through this cold unknown
 As I reach to
Wipe away tears
I cannot see
 Hold you tight
In a hug
That I don’t know will help
Anything
 Just saying
Baby, baby
I here for you
Your hurt is hurting me
 Let us share
Make it through this together
 To reach
The other side of this
Deep blue sea
Away from these dark clouds of
Imprisonment
 Just take my hand
Over here in the darkness
By your side
Is where I am
Remain
Continue to be
   From the chocolatezeus collection   9/5/17  ©

The Killing Joke

Time has been filled with helping others. With being there for others. With supporting others.

The funny thing it is not with those I actually need my connection to be and strengthened with.

I have no problem and I am glad to be of help to others. To help them through trying time. But what does it say that the persons that I am supposed to be connected to are not in that pool of people?

Things have come to a point where there is merely the emotionless and unfeeling aspects of things. Because what I deemed important was only important to myself. Tough loss. But I understand that ramifications and realize the actions that have had to be taken.

So closed off. Devoid. Have become the things that were asked for of me. And I have given them. Letting all things be reduced to the compartments that were asked to be created.

I laugh. Hysterically even.  For the brightness that burnt the universe has been caged. Put into the pit of nothingness. Imprisoned.

Mr Wolf. Chocolatezeus. Casket sharp as they say. As I look in reverence and remembrance.


Laughing


THE JOKE IS ON ME!!

Poetic Inflection: The Moment of When?

The Moment of When?

When there are no longer

Words

Thoughts

Feelings

When

The void

Emptiness

Blue rondu

Become your

Existence

What do you?

Do you?

Is there?

Will there?

Was there?

Anything

Echo

Any thing?

From the chocolatezeus collection  9/4/17  ©

My Needs Meaning vs

So after a discussion the light bulb went off. Finally actually realized why I disconnected everything when it comes to my needs and needing someone. Because for me when I have said that I need red or babygirl it was meant as a permanent thing in my life and so forth. But for them and other need is only about things they actually needed like air and food and whatever strictly for themselves.

Funny how it just became clear today after the conversation. But better late than never. And now there is more to place in proper protocols, compartments and applications.

Need vs. Need

Like a strobe light

The lightbulb went off

Meaning

Definition

Modern day reveal

Need

Needing

Something that I thought

Felt so deeply

That It became a part of me

I said the words

Meant every letter of it

A fiery passion behind

It’s meaning to me

Lost upon a funeral pyre

For once there was another that

Agreed and understood

The meaning in the same way

So many times

Words and meaning

Non congruent, disparaging entities

When I say

I need you

When I allow those words to be

Expressed

It holds a reverence

Core belief and connection with me

Very rarely if at all will I say it

No wonder

The once or twice I have said it

It has fallen upon

Deaf ears and hearts

Just something

Another thing

That only has this meaning

For me

And only

Me

From the chocolatezeus collection  9/4/17  ©