Monday, November 13, 2006

Run, Run Away


You Running From You

You call me a liar
I simply look into your life
Know that behind those eyes
Fear is inspired

I know my flaws
My faults
Mistakes that haunt

Sought not to lie
There for I don’t
Instead I merely stand here as you make your death bed
Calling me a liar
But lying to yourself instead

Lie to yourself
Telling yourself that you don’t need a man for anthing else
That you have every thing under control

Just release yourself
Come on out here and deal with it

Don’t try to be bold
Turn on that “I think I am superwoman” cold
Stand your ground
Let your true self be known

You don’t want to come face to face
With your own self worth
Your disgrace
That you are a human like others in this race

The recognition that you seek
Can only come from
Within
Right there where your heart beats
Your soul will be free
You will truly know what it is to be free

Stop lying to YOU
Let yourself be
Stop the lying to make yourself what you want to be
You don’t need to impress other things

Telling yourself that sex is just a physical thing
All the while wanting to be that loved being
Stop playing that stupid games others tell you to be

Knowing that you struggle like everyone else
That life is not a polished silver spoon on a china shelf

Don’t be mad with me
Be mad with yourself
That you have lied to yourself

Now who is the liar again?


Form the Chocolatezeus collection 11/12/06 ©

Taking It to War


Battle of What Is


Ripped apart by feelings undefined
Knowing the vulnerability and pain that transpires
Yet I do it
Because it is what is me

That steely grey haze
That permeates and lifts me
Knowing that I am there with them
For them

Support
Seen and unseen

Looking past everything
I see cleanly what is underneath

Once more
Unto the Breach
Standing in the gap for someone else’s life being

Against them I see
I act not to battle them
But to fight their own fearful stupidity

Blades
Daggers
Bullets and attacks

Standing
Hands open
Allowing
Braced against the combative attacks
Knowing the true reasons they coming at me

Tired
Weary
I know I want it all to end
To know that I am appreciated for what it is I am

Wondering sometimes
When will I get a break in this plan
Can I get that supporting hand
Let my guard down for just a moment
Give my mind a quick vacation
Man

Still I won’t whine
Nor will I offer up the internal tears that are cried
Weakness is what I cannot allow to shine
Too many people depend on me
There is no time for a weakened me

Dress the wounds
Beat back the fatigue
The one man army
Once again needed
Especially when they won’t realize it

Powering up
Fight the good fight
Don’t give up

With just my luck
I will finally rest
And one of these times lose the battle of love
Join the ranks of cannon fodder and casualty counts

Just let me rest
So I can settle down

My battle still hasn’t begun


From the Chocolatezeus collection 11/12/06 ©