The Power of Love

I have watched and observed the fear and hatred when it comes to love. Both by listening to others as well as what has been said and the actions of those I am involved with.  It is always something negative constantly or how it is the worst thing there is.

Those I am involved with have their disdain, disbelief and anti- love aspects based on their experiences, fears and lack of anything that close to someone because of trust, safety and other issues.

These aspects and more are why there is so much against love, dating, relationships, marriage and more. Because in this disposable, I don't want to be too close so i don't lose being by myself mentality of living, love is seen as a death sentence and weakness.

Here is the kicker.

I am evil and apathy. I am love.

These two things are what are my basis. What drives me and my existence The simple black or white situation. Being told that I don't do things in the gray area proves this.

What do I mean that I am both evil and love? The fiery, force and potency I am are based on these corner stones. It is why I am precise about my wants, needs and all. It is why I love with so much ferocity that it scares those that hate and feel that love is a weakness.  While my apathy and ability to excommunicate people that I was with and loved has equal strength.

This made me think about some songs and one popped up which had lyrics that really said what needed to be said to people. Luther Vandross' "power of love."  And we know I am not a big r&b person and especially stay away from love songs.  But here are the lyrics that I speak of.


Did you know that your feelings show
You thought your love was locked up inside
But when your senses start to overload
Love is something you should never hide

You've got to believe in love
It's a feeling that's next to none
Can't stop until we are one
With the power of love


I stopped fighting, hating and being scared of love a long time ago.  It was who I was and am. It is what makes me the chauvinist man that feminists love. As well as allowed me to have a great marriage unlike what so many others have gone through and avoided out of fear. Allowing me to giver fully, all of my heart from the moment I said I loved you.  To also not being your friend, speaking or interacting with you when you are done.

There is power in love, loving and being loved. And that is why people are in fear and loathing of it.

I Saw LOGAN...and I Liked It!

As I listen to the score from the movie it brings me back to last Thursday when I saw it.

Being the comic book snob that I am. I didn't go in with any expectations other than to see Wolverine one last time. Pretty much what I do with any movie that is based off of reading materials. Reading is really, really bad for you apparently! And we all know that sony especially has fucked up comic book characters in the movies.

There was no continuity of any timeline, cannon or none of that. So once again hollywood said no to those that read books and came up with a hodgepodge of things that they thought could sell to those that don't have a clue.

Hugh Jackman played Logan well. The old man that is in his twilight and ready to go. You can see the fatigue, the conclusion and everything in his acting. This is what truly linked you to the Old Man Logan comic story line. He brought Logan from the comic book pages to the screen. Maybe he channeled things from his life to pull this off or something. But he pulled it off.

There are a number of easter eggs throughout the movie. Some funny ones. And the Deadpool intro before the movie starts definitely makes you glad that you got there on time.

They truly used this movie as a jump off for introduction to new characters and movies. Some interesting ones like the new mutants and x force.

What was frustrating though was the ambiguity about what happened to all the mutants. I understand casting a hook out there but can we get a better hook?

And Professor X like you have never seen him before in this. lol Patrick Stewart definitely went out the box on this one  He must have channeled some Walter from Blunt Talk in there.

This is a must go see. And it is not about the action completely. And the action is rather good. But it is about the acting here more than the action. The expressions, tones and interaction is deep in this one.


Go enjoy and see for yourself.

Why Yes!! I Am Blunt Force Trauma

I have been watching the sunset on the dating thing. Watching it drift wherever the fuck they are taking it to. 

This is a by product of being direct and females hating love and unable to trust themselves or anyone else that is not doing exactly what they want. As Ru pointed out to me my blunt force trauma approach has an  equal and opposite reaction mostly. (helps weed out the weak immediately mostly)

I listened to Aaron Hall's "the truth" album. One of those rare occasions I listen to r&b. And this is one of the few albums I can listen to from beginning to end. 

He told females:

We can Do Anything

Open Up

Get A Little Freaky With Me

Pick Up the Phone

Don't Be Afraid

What happened Until I Found You

Some You Keep Me Crying

Following those up with:

Let's Make Love

I am here When You Need Me

How I Miss You

Until The End of Time

These songs speak volumes on how a relationship is supposed to be something those involved actually want. With the love, attention and all that is required. But in this day of disposable  and burger king style relations all of that is dead. 

The choices these days are wait around for the tides to shift each time, Nuke it all and say fuck it. Or play their games. 

Dating is bullshit! 

And that is why... It is what it is!

The guys at the cigar shop, Ru, little one and others have asked me about if I am excited about going to Amsterdam next week. And at one point I was. Now that has been seriously tempered. I look forward to making it to Madurodam and seeing the city. This will probably be an artistic journey for me with how things are now.  But this is time away to just get out of the country and do my thing.  lol Well at least until I leave out of the country again this year. 

I am still laughing at the chicks at the chiropractic office being shocked when I came in lol. That was classic. 

Logan was a good movie on Thursday. I enjoyed that.  I will have to write about this on a separate post 

The void, the changes and blatant realizations lately definitely have created plenty of things to pen, analyze and everything since the beginning of the year. It brought eye opening and closure. As always I left my mark upon them while permanently changing them to lead the to this point they are at right now. But this is what it is like living Life Unscripted!!

Well I shall bid you adieu for right now. It is time for me to go write on the non pg 13 page and let it all out. lol   

ABM IN FULL EFFECT!!