2014 A Year In Another Universe

The last night of the year. I look back and even I have to really wonder about all the things that have happened this year. 

This summer I traveled and had a good time. Adventures Zeus style. Plenty of laughter and enjoyment. Met someone I didn't even get along with at first. Interestingly enough that is the opposite now. I also had the curtain lifted on the fog and parlor tricks to me.  Ultimate realization that I dearly miss my family.

I grew exponentially in my bdsm learning. Indulged and finally found some sadistic release. Found the relationship I would like to have and enjoy for eternity.  Went to Black Beat and saw first hand the different aspects of individuals in the lifestyle and how they can be. The good, bad and ugly.  It all helped me refine what I wanted and understand what I didn't need.

After having one of the worst years ever and horrid holiday memories. I realize that there had to be a quantum leap in being me. To not only regain the things that I have lost but to surge forward in a nuclear intensity. 

From relationships, lack there of, and the one wanted. Made me realize how am just like Halo's Master Chief. Duty bound even when I disagree. The one that leaps in and fights to the teeth.  Yet, vulnerable as I await my peace. 

Into the void I leap. 

Strapped to the teeth.

Declaration of War

Lost in a year that will live in

Infamy

Cauterized

Lycanthrope releases

Seething

I challenge the future

We will battle for eternity

My intensity increased to

Super Saiyan times ten

I take back and ascend

Into the darker side of me

Regaining and surpassing

What use to be

Never again will these memories

Be repeated

Giving all and everything from here on back

Their eulogy

Battle cry

2015

Opens with this

Determined ferocity

No weapon forged will stop me

For I am the ultimate weapon

Let the

Carnage

Chaos

My breathing

Begin and increase

Ready or not

The battle is coming

From the chocolatezeus collection  12/31/14  ©

The House of Havoc!!!!

This year solidified a lot of things. Open my eyes to things and people I thought were real. So let's let the Borg free shall we!

There use to be individuals that were constants in my life. Ones that I looked out for and gave up for.  Love and caring were second nature. Now, like the rest there is merely apathy. When you make our relationship a memory instead of a priority. Then I merely dismiss you and see you as something and some memories. And there was a surprise there for me. Because I never would have thought it until the discrepancies and all floated to the surface of our dead sea. Or when a friendship takes no relevance until you might remember that we were once friends and call out the blue again.

Relationships have always been mission impossible for me because females just can't seem to function, think and become a woman like they should be. With each encounter there was a diminished capacity for the probability of true relationships because of females and women being inept terribly. Step forward, explain what you want and are looking for. Slap them in the face with it. If I am feeling you tell you that and all. But that brutal honesty and truth are too much for them. Intensity and knowing what you want, while expressing it.  Causes the fright and flight tendencies.

Even with BDSM. The things I have seen and experienced this year got me to seriously considering and thinking. The want for poly family. Having a sub/slave and all. In a supposedly more open lifestyle it is harder to find one suitable to start a relationship with. The only thing that is prevalent is the attitude of "just come play with me." So, I will just entertain that until I get bored with them being nothing. I looked forward to growing and establishing something of meaning....a relationship. Looking at the messy people and their so called relationships. Maybe this is the ultimate mission impossible situation. Full of facades, lies and unnecessary things.

I am captain caveman. A modern day chauvinist in this day and age.  I lay it on the table if you are in my circle and you have all of me. Outside of my circle you will see and hear the tumbleweeds. So when I say just be yourself. Then that is what I mean. No need to fight for something that the other parts of the equation don't want to keep. Spouting words out of their mouth. While saying and showing nothing.

So looking back on 2014. I see two constants. Ru Ru and Munchkin for the year. HQ for allstar. It is what it is!

Messages heard.
Lessons learned
Assimilation occurred

Just have to sum up 2015 in the hook of Redman and Meth.....*Whatever Man!!!!