Spoken Reality: I See Why

I See Why

Those motes smolder in your eyes

You’re so twisted, gnarled and mangled inside

The rivulets of love, passion and soul burn like napalm

I see why

Chivalry died upon a cross of your design

Where you are only worth the pussy you are attached to

Your proclaimed abilities are miniscule

I see why

Giving a fuck about you is the deadliest sin

You are the disease and creature that all must kill

Like the plague you spread your cancerous cells

I see why

My heart, soul and mind have self-erased

Why I stand at the center of hell and now it well

My Caveman mentality is the only thing that won’t fail

I see why

You chop the head off of those that are not in the inner sanctum

Pitch their body and soul upon a pike as a trophy edifice

I laugh at the so called expressions that hold the weight of an astral projection

I see why

Fuck it

I just fucking see

And seeing is believing

So fuck it all

And welcome to

Where

Hell meets Hades

From the chocolatezeus collection  3/5/16  ©

Spoken Relation: Dynamic Unity

Dynamic Unity

Have we begun

Oh yeah

There is that

Mind fuck

Where my words

Actions and commands

Have changed and altered you

In ways you hadn’t seen

You fight me

With every bit of grown up angst

Every subversive

Submissive stance

Embrace it

The lust

Need for me to inflict

Peace and release

Upon and within

You

The trust

That tells you I won’t let you

Fall into the pit of despair

Be broken beyond repair

Without me reeling you back in

Whispering melodious in your ear

As your mental and physical aftercare

Bring purpose to

Subspace universe

Life’s mental curse

Each bruise and trophy occurred

You step

We step

Consent

Wills us to purpose

This D/s universe

Is based on only

Our tailor made purpose

So come

Let me show

Explain

Hurt and transform

As we are transfixed upon

The goal that is maintained

Give me your

Lust

Heart

Body

Mind

So I make the insane tame

This relationship

This dynamic

D/s molding

Will never be plain

Together

Our dynamic

Glistens and glows

Insane

Paved upon the ethos

Stellar like

Purple Rain

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I Need to Hurt and Fuck You Unconcious

In my sadistic lust and enjoyment I have gone to a place where I am wondering if I am going to seek full fullfillment in.

The last time I came anywhere near some serious impact, humiliation and fuckfest situation was last year. And since then the beast, need and beating of the drum of Hades has only increased to broken ear drum levels.

I love that look of shock, fear and despair I see when they are cumming too much. Or I am hitting them or slapping them in the face. The sounds of the floggers smacking their skin and their cringe in anticipation as they hear the sound of the flogger's tails going through the air. The wack of the cane makes me smile.

Or treating her like a worthless fucking whore that is good for nothing but a fuck as I drag her by her hair and fuck every opening she has with wreckless abandon.

That energy, feeling and flow is what I crave. It is what brings balance to my Force.

Hope still remains.

Maybe I will finally get to enjoy myself fully with lil red one day.


Fuck it!!!!

Torrential Rains and Typhoons...Welcome to Life

The say when it rains it pours. That is bullshit it doesn't rain it does ten perfect storms at once.

What I need right now to retain balance is kept from and not available to me.

Woosah!

I am going to need it bad right about now


Enjoy

My Book of Five Rings

Ok, so I thought I had posted this days ago. lol 

This is my personal take and journey using the template of Miyamoto Musashi's "Book of Five Rings."  He was a Japanese swordsman that traveled and learned and grew upon his life journey.
The Book of Five Rings

Life and Living

Life is full of ups and downs. Like the waves of the ocean crashing upon itself and the shore. Many things we can't control throughout the journey and things that we can. 

My life has been filled with the obscure, unique, weird and more. I have died on the operating table a few times. Been able to use the combat flight simulator and feed my inner nerd.

When Ru and I talk about Life Unscripted. It truly is unbelievable when you look back at it.

Push the envelope and seize each moment, because it is your last rules supreme. The travel, adventure and created memories come in abundance mostly.  Where I have tried things that I would never have seen or been.

Be and remain unto yourself. Meaning do the things that you want to do and try. Open up to the unknown and embrace it. You find different meanings, understandings and inspirations that way.

So I have made choices and like the Battle of the Bulge, kept right on rolling. No matter what.

Love and Happiness

I believe in, cherish and am Love. My heart beats love and passion in a very intimately, deep way. Which is always a contrast to my apathetic, asshole ways.

My love is the thing that knows what I want and need from you and that it is possible to have. The heart beat that still pounds even when you have every obstacle in the way and your fighting your feeling.

As many episodes that would and should and have made me not want to and question love. I have found strength and purpose in it. To give and gain that connection that genuinely energizes and increases your existence. It is a dwindling thing among humans now but it is still there hidden somewhere out there.

My happiness is made up of traveling, eating good food, enjoying time with those that care and love along with reciprocate those things. They want to spend time with me and have a great time. To enjoying movies and books. There are many things that make up my happiness. And there are a few things that trump everything else and keep me happy. Those involve another individual so that is definitely a needle in the hay stack or long shot timing type thing.

Relations

Relationships hold a strong meaning to me. They always have. My circles of trust and their hierarchy within. From friends, lovers to my wife and candidate for my wife. They all have been deeply rooted and considered. Even at the wife and candidate for wife status has been so deep when I get that YOU ARE THE ONE connected feeling that I deny it myself until I have to face reality. 

But I believe in being there for each other. Through the good and the bad. The one that will be your sin eater, counselor and cheerleader. I believe a relationship has to be worked on, managed and actually cherished. Otherwise it is not a relationship. It is just something to do. And I realize that is popular these days in society with situationships and the need to remain disconnected. But there really is no need to be scared if you are honest and true about it.

Whatever type of connection it is. It is there for a very good reason or reasons. Immerse in it. Learn, grow and enjoy it to the fullest. I have been deeply blessed for some relationships. They have stood the test of time. And yes there are those that didn't. But you have to learn what is proper and best and that is not all sugar and sweets.


BDSM

My journey in bdsm and D/s specifically. It is a release and acceptance of self. The things that have always been there, lingering in the corners. Now brought out in the light. The things that I didn't realize I was doing or the reasons behind them until I embraced and learned more. 

Here is where hierarchy, leadership, manangement and kinks come together to form such a powerful and needed entity. 

From the impact, rope, breath, forced orgasms and more play it has only enlightened me further. And it is has provided a much needed release and purpose. 

When I know that you understand that I am looking out for you as your Dominant it makes me feel good and makes me need to do the best in our dynamic. The times are difficult, but they hold a distinct meaning within me that I must do better and better. And make you better than when it all began. Provide structure, release, comfort and your ability to just be. 

Learning and learning and learning. I have made mistakes and thankfully they have not been suncrusher style mistakes. But I accept my faults and will continue to grow. Looking at dynamic with intensity and desire to make it better and tailored to what my dynamic must be. 

BDSM is simple life and existence to me. Part of the whole I am and always will be.


Balance

Ahh, one of the trickiest things of all for me. 

It is tricky because the balance is not all centered or reliant upon just me. There are other people involved and that brings in other mentalities, time tables and thinking.

What provides me balance:

• Stability
• Love and caring from those that I am with
• Attention from those that I am with
• Regular sex (this saves the humans)
• Regular kink play (keeps me off of americas most wanted)
• Traveling
• Food and drink
• Time and adventures spent with those I am with

These things help keep the balance of the Force. My Force!  Where I am not all ABM constantly or just don't give a fuck about humans completely. 

Balance is the key to moving along freely and competently. It gives way to your ability to adapt and overcome things more easily. And when it is off things are that much more difficult. 

In Summary

This is my style of the book. And I have read the book and will continue to re read the book. But these things fit me currently. And very well. 

As K Ci had the album "My Book," this one is simply just me.  Well parts of the whole. The rest you have to decide to come and talk to me! lol Yeah, come find out for yourself and I will show you the gateway to being me. 

Passing Through Cities and Memories

As I pass through RDU and GSO it brought back memories of days gone by. Adventures and things that linger, laugh and rest within my mind.

RDU

Full of budding adventure and my first established home with my wife. The place that I call home still even though I am no longer there. From expensive cook your own meal at the Melting Pot to a super damn delicious birthday cake from the Mad Hatter in Durham. (I super greatly recommend them, even if they are near duke...lol)  My life of joy and happiness started there fully I can say honestly. Through the trials and tribulations the simple constant of comfortable and happy remained steadfast. My family literally began here. People got to know me at harris teeter and rite aid. It is nice when people know your name and face. I realized the appeal of that type of customer service and attention to detail.

GSO

This is the town I attended many a swing party at the Proximity Hotel. And that penthouse presidential suite was gorgeous. I spent many a time there enjoying drink, food and more drink. Even put on a few shows. lol This town is also where I had part of my poly relationship at. She was the superstar of the swing groups and I basically broke and tamed her. My first public displays of dominance occurred with her at parties. *snicker* And it made the males rather upset, jealous and hatred for me. (biyatches!!) The soaked box springs and mattresses of the hotel from our adventures. (still shocked they didn't charge me for those...lol)

This is also where I came to watch the ACC women's basketball tournament for years. To enjoy my baby momma's Dawn Staley and Tora Suber. Watching quality and skilled basketball and enjoying myself. And that is what is going on right now. And I miss it. But there is always next year.


As I sit here and reminisce and skip over the negative things I have to laugh and smile. Truly more examples of Life Unscripted.


Good morning.

Poetic Mentality: Flame Out

Flame Out

Destination set from the beginning

Autopilot and gps double checked

And verified

I kicked the afterburners

Ripped time and the mind

Clearly my mission and goal was defined

Make you mine

Give, hold and feel love

Establish

Relationship Prime

After that brilliant ignition

Seems like the results of the

Last challenger mission

Boom

Boom

Boom

Like the human torch

Engulfed with a dark matter dwarf

Snuffed out

The touch

Beacon of hope

Predestined course

Now

It just seems like

A bad episode of the

Fantastic Four

Here I am

Johnny storm

Dead at love’s

Door

From the chocolatezeus collection  2/29/16  ©

Being Within my Circles

If I allow you in. To be in one of my circles of the personal me. You need to understand the importance and meaning. Especially if I tell you specifically your status. I do not allow anyone in without seriously vetting and wanting them to be there. And the closest circles how the deepest parts and access to me.

It still doesn't mean that you cannot opt out, not accept or be demoted to irrelevancy. But as the Black Sheep said, "The Choice Is Yours."

Message!!!