Wednesday, December 04, 2019

Poetic Moment: Hears your Sign





Hears your Sign






pretender
charlatan


I see you
bundled in epitaphs of
daddy and relationship fuck up
issues


culminating


a living
festering wound
imbued with ultimate toxicity


living your best life
Well..
your best interpreted pipe dream


your fear gripped indefinitely
lifeline that you ride in false pride
repeatedly committing seppuku inside
lost in your need to murder any attempt
to live life


screaming to the emptiness
I am alright


just so we can see
the intelligent, pussy is power wielding heroine
that the conformist decided you liked


keep hope down
entitlement alive
as the rabbit hole has already
swallowed you alive


we see you
hear you


thanks for clarifying






from the chocolatezeus collection 12/4/19 (c)

Tuesday, December 03, 2019

Thanksgiving and Beyond

Thanksgiving is gone. My ribs and tater salad were delicious. I am glad I cooked them for me while the parental unit and the sister ate the huge amount of food that the sister cooked. Ja Bless! I got in a few sticks so pssita was in effect as much as possible. It was great to have a chance to stay in the room and not be bothered. Anyone I wanted to be bothered with was nowhere near by anyway.

Great conversations and interactions have continued since Spanksgiving. Inspired interest and intrigue has bloomed as well as plenty of learning. Connections and vibes have been great and I am enjoying their growth.

I did have to finally admit. Well at least accept 97 percent truth when the girls stated that chicks did watch and stuff. I am still going to claim it is not interest but shock and awe. lol Just like dating. But I have to acknowledge all that has happened and is happening lately. Hell, I even had ole pegasus contact me talking about she hadn't talked to me in a while. *that would be because if you dont make the effort and maintain then I don't remember you.* Even the mahogany journalist asked some questions of me about dating, love and stuff.

Took little one out to the cookout my cousin from massachusetts throws at his daddys house a few times a year. I was requested by him so I had a chance to show up this time. We just chilled, talked and interacted. As usual most of them I have no idea who they were or their names. lol

Work. Yeah, these idiot presidents and politicians need to be culled. Both past and present. I seriously have to come up with a business idea to implement. Much to do and will have to do.

Had a chance to chill with kitty yesterday. We had a great talk at the sushi spot since the clusterfuck due to the parental unit deciding that he needed to go with me and sit in the car while I was down there in chucktown.  kitty and I talked about so many aspects of the lifestyle and just living it. Laughing and talking. Plus I think the staff there got a kick out of us as well. We talked to the point where I think they had already closed. Because I got there so late we didn't get to smoke a stick together but I am sure there will be other times.  It was a breath of fresh air and a lot of fun, as well as educational.

Dealing with attitudes, personalities, issues and so much more is challenging to put it lightly. I have had quite a bit of experience from exes, red, little one, babycakes and others for sure. Hell, many rules, protocols and regulations have been introduced, tweaked, strengthened and made more iron clad because of red, little one, babycakes and any others I have interacted with or had in any capacity or role.

The thanks is there. Because the learning has been real through the good and the bad.  I am thankfully for the love, lust, desire that I have and is being introduced lately. And thanks for being able to manage the emotional and mental aspects that are completely not of my style.

Time to get ready for the fetish ball in the atl in two weeks and then the House of Havoc new years this year.

I am still looking around and wondering where this year went to though.

Well, I am sure you are doing well and having a good time. Just be thankful you survived eating thanksgiving and didn't end up exploding like a kid in the willy wonka factory. lol