Life's Poetry: Love's Anomaly in a Modern Day Catastrophe

Love’s Anomaly in a Modern Day Catastrophe

The damaged and fucked up

Seem to be the norm

Catalytic 

Acid rain living

Caught in and re creating

Their own regurgitated

Purging

I miss the days

When females became women

When they got out of their own way

Were made up of more than scarred, mutilated remains

Told how horrible history

They have maintained

Calculated disdain created

In a cesspool of

I can’t

I won’t

Never again

Only here to project

Their inadequacy of self

Give the gift of

Hating themselves and whoever loves them

So there is no surprise

When I step up and say

What I want with you

That I love you

That I need you

And you slink away

Run away

Start screaming

As your fear and hatred

Keep you imprisoned

No worries

I will leave you happily

At the Rikers of your own making

As I hold onto

Memories, experience and knowledge of

What a woman

Relationship

Love and living 

Is live and well if you can handle it

These modern times

Make me glad and ecstatic

That I had a chance to live that

Mary J Blige “Real love”

From the chocolatezeus collection  8/9/19  ©

Sexy Twins, a Podcast and Poly

So when I went to the BRATS reunion in San Antonio I met these two sexy little twins. I talked to one more than the other since she was out in the smoking section more. We glanced on poly and bdsm. She said that her and her twin had a podcast and they wanted me to come on and discuss poly on there. I said sure and a couple weeks or month ago checked out their podcast. They were interesting, intelligent had some open mindedness as well as cute and sexy.

So, the Caveman recorded the pod cast tonight with them. It was entertaining and fun. I got a chance to teach and express myself, my journey and everything. Good questions were asked and I gave answers that showed the diversity of it all and that was what they needed. They didn't know how deep the rabbit hole actually could go or went. I gave them a bigger taste.

This should be a nice educational snippet for people to hear and get their minds thinking some more. So we will see when they finish editing the podcast how it goes. But I think it went well and reminded me of the old days of suit and tie presentations and meetings.


Other than that...

little one had a great day at work. Thank God! She felt loved on by me and everyone treated her nice. And I didn't have to go down there because someone stole her flowers or she didn't get her flowers today. So, that was a great bonus.

it has been a rough day as well. So things are what they are. The night is here and the drink is going so I will be alright for a few hours.

Poetry; Be Careful What you Ask For

Be Careful What you Ask For

Your words

Holding court

Etched into history

You want

Directness

With no ambiguity

You want

Equality

Without recognizing

Differences

You show no interest

As you remain

Mentally wet for me

Give me

Love and a relationship

As you hide from it

Screaming pettiness

Because you got exactly

What you asked for

Be honest

Ask yourself

And deal with it all

From the chocolatezeus collection  8/5/19  ©

50 Hasn't Got Anything on Her

Hope you are doing well and enjoying summer or heat fest that has been going on. lol

The weekend Me and little one spent the weekend celebrating her birthday in Raleigh. A weekend full of things that she would and wanted to do.

This year will make for years that she has been my submissive. The longest reigning and first submissive officially that I have owned.  Hard to believe it has been that long as well as how it all began.

We went to a burger spot near downtown Raleigh friday night and then hit the movie theater to see Hobbs and Shaw.  After a long week it was what she needed. To just get away from work and just enjoy herself. Burgers were good. My down south had bbq pork on it and the meat was not infused with hormones and steroids based on the taste. The movie was interesting and fun. Still have to deal with suspending my thinking process while watching a movie though.

Saturday was sip and paint minus the sipping. And hell there were only us along with grandparents and their grandparents in the studio anyway. But we all laughed and talked as we painted our coy fish paintings. I think my coy turned into a fricking shark with a laser running around Atlantis in my painting though. lol

Took her to a Japanese Hibachi steak place called Kabuki. I think I have been there before. The service was attentive but we did have to wait on our chef for a long time. I also don't like going to these without a large party to fill up your seating area. But at least it wasn't that bad with those that we were seated with. There was the drunk father across from us though. She enjoyed herself and everyone sang happy birthday to her. Plus she got the big portions which will last her days anyway. We both did have a lot of food afterwards.

She got to watch maleficcent and we chilled.

So, she had a chance to do things that she wanted to and have fun. Even though I know she held back with her submissive mindset because I kept saying that it wasn't about me and it was about her.

She was shocked by her gifts and decorations in the room. Even though the damn candles went out before she finally got there.

Well...

The things Dominant does for their property and when they have to brow beat them into focusing on self. Sign of a submissive basically.

It is the beginning of the week. Seize it and crush it in your hands as you move forward.