Thanks...No Giving

I was appreciative of people being worried and concerned about me spending the day by myself. I don't think they quite understood that it was just fine for me. I haven't been concerned about spending time with someone on thanksgiving since I was married and when I was dating my wife. I am not with anyone like that now so it really doesn't even enter my mind at all.

A nice quiet day was spent with me eating and drinking. I didn't even turn the tv on at all. Enjoying ribs, swan, dressing and tater salad.

Wasn't even planning on leaving the house outside of the yard to smoke. But since my cousin was down with his girlfriend from nj I figured I would swing out to bolivia and see him at Auntie's.

Of course thinking was in full effect during the quietness along with working on some models. Plus I had to go over the jobs I have applied to all over the world.

Change has come and yelled Domino Bitch!

It is time to reconstitute life and get back to being the Ultimate Me. Had to step back and understand my mistakes and lack of strictness in life recently.

So, it is all good. Looking forward to more travel and re-established adventures of Life Unscripted.

As I blow smoke. Wish you well. PSSITA!!

Burger King Submissives, dommes and female dominants...oh my LMFAO

I have personally interacted with subs, dommes and female dominants and find it educational and entertaining.

Submissives that want to whine, complain and be brats to get their way. Saying that they are not happy and that a Dominant needs to change what they already explained and negotiated with them. Hmmm, that sounds like you are just not adult enough to discuss, express, negotiate or act appropriately.  Whether in vanilla life or D/s I really am not the man that a female will be able to control or remake.

dommes, female dominants or whatever else they want to call themselves need to get a grip and understand what being a Dominant truly is. I am not addressing those that actually are Dominants and females, merely the pretenders. For the pretenders it is time to stop coming up to someone and telling them that they are a submissive for stupid reasons like they asked you a question or because you said so. And the classic getting upset because I don't address female dominants in my general discussions where I use the word Dominant need to stop. You are trying to hard so you are merely a fucking fraud.


Know yourself. Step up and be honest with yourself so you can be honest with someone else. If there are things that you are not sure about or are interested in then say that no matter how far fetched it may be.

Some are not meant to be submissives, some are great ones and others have to figure out how they are one for themselves. I have come across and experienced the whole gamut.

So step up, learn and be yourself.

This burger king, have it your way bullshit only makes you a loser.

Poetic Relevance: At One With the Void

At One With the Void

The darkness

Coats

Cloaked in the coldness

Peering into the

Emptiness

Remnants of

Times and memories

Are they supposed to

Soothe me?

Their existence

Merely the petri dish

Underneath life’s

Microscope

Each feeling

Peeled back

Exposed

Emotional content

Decompressed

Every intimate connect

Sucked out of the

Airlock of existence

Observing from outside

Others feelings and emotions

Tilting my head at their

Self-evident irrelevances

A place

Where I will never be

This void is where I will be

Comfortable

Peacefully

From the chocolatezeus collection   11/20/16  ©

Ronin: Life Unscripted

Rōnin

A rōnin was a samurai with no lord or master during the feudal period of Japan. A samurai became masterless from the death or fall of his master, or after the loss of his master's favor or privilege.

This truly fits. It has fit since I lived in Japan and has become even more so currently than in the past. 

in my life I apply universal principles when it comes to dating, vanilla and D/s relations. These things are my own and designed for and by me. 

• I am not changing who and what I am to make you feel better about yourself. Accept and understand.
• I have chosen you for a specific role in my life. 
• We will be together for as long as you choose to maintain, work on and cherish our relation.
• There will be no chasing after you before, during or after we interact.
• Any interpretation or comparison to others will be incorrect. So get to know me for me.
• You will not get your way. So bratty, whining females need not apply for an application.
• if it doesn't work out, then we won't be friends and all close. We can be cordial if things were not violated but close or friends will not be an option.

These and some other things have been core values and tend to serve me rather well. Well, expect when I go out on a limb and do experiments I shouldn't have. But that is part of the ole college and boy scout try.

Looking at relations, dynamics and what was I realized I let so much slide. I was so lenient about things that really put things in disarray from the beginning.  Letting things go in negotiations because I felt it wasn't as important as the experience. Agreeing to things that were not ideal for me. Well, no need to cry over spilled milk. It all happened and i learned. So when it is time for me to get a sub and a slave then things will be in a more proper perspective.

I even had to re-evaluate the status of the D/s dynamic I had and the dating issues.  Realizing this is where things are and where I let them go. Semper Fi motherfucker!!!

In my relations compartmentalization is such a terrible word for them. They cringe, guesstimate and try to anticipate what will happen. And that anticipation has been what has really caused a lot of issue. I compartmentalize and adjust things constantly. Because things have to be tweaked in order to work and function at their best efficiency.

In compartmentalizing I don't express much. Hell, I express even less than I already do not express. And that level has gone back to what it was before i was married. Even with my Ru. It was weird at first but I realized I was using outdated and expired data in a completely different situation. 

I realize it is hard for the two that I deal with to accept and understand how I am. And they have come a long way from back in the day.  And i am thankful for their effort and attempts. Bless their hearts.

The journey continues. And this ABM continues rolling along like the Battle of the Bulge. 

"I am not paying for the same real estate twice!!"

-Gen. George S. Patton-