The plan was to get down there and the Road Warriors ride out to Dallas. But transportation issues and 12 hours later that was a thought and concept in the rearview mirror. But it was meant to be obviously from all the things that transpired from that point on.
I was very appreciative of the folks that went out their way the weekend. Definitely was appreciated and had some great convo, laughter and everything.
There was major discussion with Ru's friend who I dubbed pebbles and fluffy. *she hated fluffy so that is why I used that more...hey, I am a sadist* We discussed bdsm. Quite a bit of me trying to get her to understand the difference between Dominant and topping. Which since she is fully submissive from her up bringing is a challenge for her as she found out with the young boy that was there. He wanted her to dom him, collar him and he was going to be her dom and punish her with dick. He was obviously a victim of the 50 shades do it yourself bdsm kit. And she isn't sure about what she wants which is fine but starting out with someone that ultimately has no clue and is making things up as they go along with out seeking or gaining any knowledge is dangerous.
Add to that tigger's son got shot while he was in a corner store getting a bag of chips because two monkeys were arguing over a crack ho giving them head. So she has been hysterical about him almost dying.
Relations, Relationships and D/s
I love lil red and little one in their own unique ways because they are uniquely different. That weirdness is what attracts me to females for more than half a second. I talk about their achievements and how they are doing. As the old folks said, "their ears should be burning" sometimes. They are praised, appreciated and thanked.
Things are not easy. There are struggles and disagreements. Mistakes and miscommunication. But for me it is important to sit down and work things out if it is important. To not let things just go into whatever. And I was listening to En Vogue "Don't let go." Apparently background music right on time.
This snippet spoke a whole lot:
There'll be some love makin', heart breakin', soul shakin' love
Love makin', heart breakin', soul shakin'...
What's it gonna be 'cuz I can't pretend
Don't you want to be more than friends
Hold me tight and don't let go
Don't let go
You have the right to lose control
Don't let go
It is that aspect of choosing to be and work together instead of just being disposable. It is dealing with the hurt and mistakes and learning so you go forward together stronger. Because I choose to care and give in to the connection that is felt I will do what I can to support, facilitate and make things happen. It makes me the bad guy plenty of times with red and little one but I will be that if it makes them stronger and everything. Establishing a zone for them to be themselves in is what I seek to enhance.
I choose you, to be with you and to stay with you because I see all the things that are wonderfully beautiful and unique. The things that make you stand out. Even when you question it all.
But my D/s has aspects of love in it unlike others. And that is only if the submissive can handle love and emotions or understand them. Even though I can be devoid of feeling and emotion as they can tell you I want those things in my relationships and dynamics.
So when it is said I don't know why you keep being with me because you are not getting exactly what you want and they are bothered and bewildered. The answer is because you are a work in progress and i see all that you are through your defenses, posturing and distance. I see and remain because of that and who you are.
I just don't let go of what I want, need and is important to me. You shouldn't either!
The week has started so party all the time or make the best of it. Either way do something different.
