I have sat back to observe both red and little one go through their things. Much or most or everything they are dealing with in have no clue about. They have chosen their paths.
So it has been tough love as the old people would say. Just sit back and watch things unfold for them. Not what I would prefer but that is their free will choice.
Things really have been eye opening. Made me learn a lot of things that made me think and place appropriately.
Thankful for red and little one showing me what I needed to assimilate.
So no captain jumping off. Just leave the she ra complex to run it's courses.
Tuesday, July 18, 2017
Monday, July 17, 2017
Can You Serve Me Really?
It is a serious question in D/s. One that many gloss over, ignore or cannot come to terms with.
I mean can you follow my lead with the understanding that I will make the best decisions for you and me?
Will you be able to listen, comprehend, ask for clarification without your normal beat on your chest and roar attitude in your regular life?
I have experienced that for some they have a mental block from past experiences, attitude, their career and more concerning serving. Even though they claim that is what they want.
Serving is not have it your way! It is not tell me how you need to serve me. And damn sure is not tell me how or what I think.
True serving is a mental thing. And I have witnessed that if you mentally cannot allow yourself to commit to being of service then you are not going to be able to serve.
They come with plans on how I should be with them so they can serve and expect me to do whatever they think, feel and someone else has done with them.
Serving me is easy. If you take away all the interpretations, posturing and other issues. I tell you what I want, need and expect. At that point you know what it takes to serve me. To by my submissive or slave. Even to date me.
But in this era it is prevalent that there has to be some form of control that needs to be kept so they can feel safe and themselves. When in actually releasing that would be even more powerful and more of themselves.
But you can't force the mental understanding or the analysis of self required for this. They either grasp it and can act upon it or they cannot.
I have seen when they can and it is a beautiful thing.
So can you serve or are you keeping one foot in trying to be alpha while alleging that you are a submissive?
I mean can you follow my lead with the understanding that I will make the best decisions for you and me?
Will you be able to listen, comprehend, ask for clarification without your normal beat on your chest and roar attitude in your regular life?
I have experienced that for some they have a mental block from past experiences, attitude, their career and more concerning serving. Even though they claim that is what they want.
Serving is not have it your way! It is not tell me how you need to serve me. And damn sure is not tell me how or what I think.
True serving is a mental thing. And I have witnessed that if you mentally cannot allow yourself to commit to being of service then you are not going to be able to serve.
They come with plans on how I should be with them so they can serve and expect me to do whatever they think, feel and someone else has done with them.
Serving me is easy. If you take away all the interpretations, posturing and other issues. I tell you what I want, need and expect. At that point you know what it takes to serve me. To by my submissive or slave. Even to date me.
But in this era it is prevalent that there has to be some form of control that needs to be kept so they can feel safe and themselves. When in actually releasing that would be even more powerful and more of themselves.
But you can't force the mental understanding or the analysis of self required for this. They either grasp it and can act upon it or they cannot.
I have seen when they can and it is a beautiful thing.
So can you serve or are you keeping one foot in trying to be alpha while alleging that you are a submissive?
Sunday, July 16, 2017
Life Unscripted Oyabun Style
They say it is lonely at the top. It's the best shit ever!
Big Boi
I have been working hard. Trying to manage everything and everyone. It is what I do and have done.
Energy has flown. Discussions have been had. Decisions made. Messages assimilated.
It is what an Oyabun does. Take the heat, issues and everything. Place everything and keep the tactics rolling.
Having discussions about D/s and being submissive. Chopping it up with other Dominants and just growing.
The mood and attitude reflect it all. From the dating stuff to the D/s and life. It's all good.. You let people play and show you their roles and positions.
So I am in a place I have been before some times with some twists.
Sight beyond sight as they would say on the thunder cats.
Sitting at my table. Armored. Receptive. Helping. Caring and rolling.
Time to address things in the ABM spot. You knowhow that a goes.
Hope you had a great weekend. I am ready to get to the nextonenow!
Till then be open. Be yourself and Act!
Oh and I am going to have to drop some horny ass sadistic shit when I get in tonight so you were warned.
Big Boi
I have been working hard. Trying to manage everything and everyone. It is what I do and have done.
Energy has flown. Discussions have been had. Decisions made. Messages assimilated.
It is what an Oyabun does. Take the heat, issues and everything. Place everything and keep the tactics rolling.
Having discussions about D/s and being submissive. Chopping it up with other Dominants and just growing.
The mood and attitude reflect it all. From the dating stuff to the D/s and life. It's all good.. You let people play and show you their roles and positions.
So I am in a place I have been before some times with some twists.
Sight beyond sight as they would say on the thunder cats.
Sitting at my table. Armored. Receptive. Helping. Caring and rolling.
Time to address things in the ABM spot. You knowhow that a goes.
Hope you had a great weekend. I am ready to get to the nextonenow!
Till then be open. Be yourself and Act!
Oh and I am going to have to drop some horny ass sadistic shit when I get in tonight so you were warned.
The Ghost Who Walks...Adventure in Life Unscripted
I made it back today. Hell after this morning and having such a damn good time fellowshiping and everything that it was hard to not want to keep that going. This morning was a priceless classic. Hell it was Epic!
Havoc made his appearance last night at the Baltimore Playhouse. I didn't play but I did learn and observe It was too hot in there for me to play even if the situation was right. But damn everyone was having a good time. And the Sirs were doing their thing. The ladies were sexy and getting their kink on.
And it was priceless when slave kore comes yelling "Lord Havoc?" That and everyone saying hello and recognizing it was me. Especially considering this is the first time they have seen the weilder of the "monkey bitch moniker and name association" as well as the Evil one that is on the calls.
The whole thing made me want to go to more things and continue my involvement in the community.
This mornings hypnosis scene made me want to learn hypnosis to weild it like the Sith on everyone! You better watch out now!
I laughed so hard this morning while being entertained, intrigued and in sadistic delight it was incredible.
In a week that I have been teaching, leading, resolving, managing and put things all in their place. I have to say it has been very interesting indeed.
I had to use my monkey bitch phrase to describe some hack therapists. So that got some of the soft asses diapers in a bunch. Must be some sensitive folk from the all encompassing feminist poly groups that are so non judgemental. lmao But regardless my point was to help the young lady on the call and fuck their feelings and sensitive asses.
Through working with pebbles and cali gal it has given me other opportunities to understand, ,help and see.
This week had me being a loadmaster as well. I made some more unilateral decisions that are not liked. But in being me I do what is required to allow the ones I care about and the very few that I like where they should be for themselves. Yeah that's me public enemy number one. Even to red and little. Ru and Tigger as well. As I told pebbles and even little one and red previously. I will protect, support and everything concerning you even when you are mad at me and hate me. But there have been issues because I don't really disclose feelings or any of that anymore. It's alright. Everything has to be in it's place. And in D/s it is not about a reciprocal relation especially when it comes to this. It has had me look at life, D/s, having submissives, dating and interaction protocols.
Everyone loved the Batman and harley shirt that red had gotten me a couple years ago. Even some older people on the hotel shuttle. lol
Point blank...everything has changed. Whether it is due to what has been shown in ability and capability to handle or not to things that there was no other choice.
The kink experience was real in the last 24 hours for sure and I am thankful.
There will be more but I haven't slept in days and I need to do a few more things.
Enjoy and be yourself...
Havoc made his appearance last night at the Baltimore Playhouse. I didn't play but I did learn and observe It was too hot in there for me to play even if the situation was right. But damn everyone was having a good time. And the Sirs were doing their thing. The ladies were sexy and getting their kink on.
And it was priceless when slave kore comes yelling "Lord Havoc?" That and everyone saying hello and recognizing it was me. Especially considering this is the first time they have seen the weilder of the "monkey bitch moniker and name association" as well as the Evil one that is on the calls.
The whole thing made me want to go to more things and continue my involvement in the community.
This mornings hypnosis scene made me want to learn hypnosis to weild it like the Sith on everyone! You better watch out now!
I laughed so hard this morning while being entertained, intrigued and in sadistic delight it was incredible.
In a week that I have been teaching, leading, resolving, managing and put things all in their place. I have to say it has been very interesting indeed.
I had to use my monkey bitch phrase to describe some hack therapists. So that got some of the soft asses diapers in a bunch. Must be some sensitive folk from the all encompassing feminist poly groups that are so non judgemental. lmao But regardless my point was to help the young lady on the call and fuck their feelings and sensitive asses.
Through working with pebbles and cali gal it has given me other opportunities to understand, ,help and see.
This week had me being a loadmaster as well. I made some more unilateral decisions that are not liked. But in being me I do what is required to allow the ones I care about and the very few that I like where they should be for themselves. Yeah that's me public enemy number one. Even to red and little. Ru and Tigger as well. As I told pebbles and even little one and red previously. I will protect, support and everything concerning you even when you are mad at me and hate me. But there have been issues because I don't really disclose feelings or any of that anymore. It's alright. Everything has to be in it's place. And in D/s it is not about a reciprocal relation especially when it comes to this. It has had me look at life, D/s, having submissives, dating and interaction protocols.
Everyone loved the Batman and harley shirt that red had gotten me a couple years ago. Even some older people on the hotel shuttle. lol
Point blank...everything has changed. Whether it is due to what has been shown in ability and capability to handle or not to things that there was no other choice.
The kink experience was real in the last 24 hours for sure and I am thankful.
There will be more but I haven't slept in days and I need to do a few more things.
Enjoy and be yourself...
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