I hope you had a good valentines day. You got what you wanted and enjoyed who you love.
My time has been spent laughing for the most part because of the interesting views people have of me and valentines day.
It is thought that I do not like it and that I wouldn't or don't celebrate it. I chuckled a lot about this.
Truth is that I enjoy it when I have someone to be with. I do the whole romantic thing. Cooking dinners, picnics and all. The things I do on a regular all year round and not just on valentines. I am an evil, chauvinistic, misogynistic asshole but when I love you then it is on.
Love deeply, openly and completely. Regardless of the claimed fears it is Grrreaatt!
Thursday, February 16, 2017
Sunday, February 12, 2017
Storm Shadow...a Recap
Times have been interesting indeed. Things have definitely happened.
Happy about hitting Amsterdam and enjoying myself. And really happy about the flight price. lol The line up for Jamaica and Dominican Republic is coming along nicely. I won't be hanging with Ru for her birthday since their are those I do not care for going wherever they are going. So I will catch her when she is stationary again and we can do our thing. And depending on this offer I may get to do England and Scotland this year as well. hoorah! Looks like will be getting back to the old school ways of being Ghost.
So the hot topic has been dating, relations and the modern way lately. With Tigger, lil one, red and in general discussions. There was some good, bad and ugly type of expressions. lol But it definitely is a wonderful thing when there are those that can understand and accept that my path is not your path but our goals can be the same if you choose to be a team. Some good info, good exchange and good convos were had to diminish the other ones.
Compartmentalization and disassociation have been moved up a level since the beginning of the year at least. It is really working wonders and keeping everyone organized properly.
Watched a lot of movies. The new underworld and resident evil ones. They were alright but nothing to watch repeatedly. Watched john wick 2 yesterday and that was good. At least he kept reloading his guns except for almost the end of the movie i guess they got tired of being accurate.
As I told red since I thought about her when I saw the preview for the tupac biopic "all eyez on me" which will be out later on this year. That might be interesting.
I am more than ready for Logan next month! I hopefully will finally get to see a Wolverine movie that is done properly I hope.
The parental units and their daughter are excommunicated like all other ex factors so who knows what the deal is with them.
apple products still suck! smh!
I think I need to go hang out with Pimpstress since I haven't seen her since that visit at blackbeat years ago. She good puerto rican people. Plus she rides a motorcycle! lol
ABM and Caveman forever!
I can't and Won't be stopped.
Enjoy your adventure whatever it may be....
Happy about hitting Amsterdam and enjoying myself. And really happy about the flight price. lol The line up for Jamaica and Dominican Republic is coming along nicely. I won't be hanging with Ru for her birthday since their are those I do not care for going wherever they are going. So I will catch her when she is stationary again and we can do our thing. And depending on this offer I may get to do England and Scotland this year as well. hoorah! Looks like will be getting back to the old school ways of being Ghost.
So the hot topic has been dating, relations and the modern way lately. With Tigger, lil one, red and in general discussions. There was some good, bad and ugly type of expressions. lol But it definitely is a wonderful thing when there are those that can understand and accept that my path is not your path but our goals can be the same if you choose to be a team. Some good info, good exchange and good convos were had to diminish the other ones.
Compartmentalization and disassociation have been moved up a level since the beginning of the year at least. It is really working wonders and keeping everyone organized properly.
Watched a lot of movies. The new underworld and resident evil ones. They were alright but nothing to watch repeatedly. Watched john wick 2 yesterday and that was good. At least he kept reloading his guns except for almost the end of the movie i guess they got tired of being accurate.
As I told red since I thought about her when I saw the preview for the tupac biopic "all eyez on me" which will be out later on this year. That might be interesting.
I am more than ready for Logan next month! I hopefully will finally get to see a Wolverine movie that is done properly I hope.
The parental units and their daughter are excommunicated like all other ex factors so who knows what the deal is with them.
apple products still suck! smh!
I think I need to go hang out with Pimpstress since I haven't seen her since that visit at blackbeat years ago. She good puerto rican people. Plus she rides a motorcycle! lol
ABM and Caveman forever!
I can't and Won't be stopped.
Enjoy your adventure whatever it may be....
Poetry: Everyone and Everything In It's Place
Everyone and Everything In it’s Place
Words and actions
Suspended in ether
A spectral analysis
All encompassing
I digest
File away
Formulate
Placing those with
Ability and lack of
abilities
Boxed and walled
Comfort zone
fortresses
Neatly In their
Desired holes
Each observation
Creates inventory
To keep or discard
Appropriately
People and things
Either they have
their place
Make a place
Or be permanently
erased
From the
chocolatezeus collection 2/12/17 ©
Meat Loaf - I Would Do Anything For Love (But I Won't Do That) Lyrics
Tradition vs modern day.
Yeah, lol
Relational Scales
I have been chuckling about discussion about me and relations today. Well I do that most of the time but today was another one.
Offense has been taken because I differentiate between females and women. As well as the fact that I say that I see that the modern day female just wants a faux relation that is convenient and they can pull out of their purse and put back in when they want to. Oh, and the fact that I am a misogynist and chauvinist and yadda, yadda, yadda.
So the convo was about the independent, feminist, I don't need things, professional female. This applies to me because it is who I tend to be interested in, pick, attempt a relation with and who I married. The one I date and the sub fall into this category of course.
The comment was made that they wanted 100 percent of a man but they didn't need him all the time or that much time at all. As I laughed I said, "so you want to rent exactly what you want for a period of time and put it back on the shelf?" The appalled response said it all. Of course not she said. I want to enjoy it all. But wait, you want 100 percent of someone but you want it on your schedule, part time and when you want. Ummm, that is not a relation there. That is a situation. To which there was denial as I always here in replies.
As a man you have to choose to accept what the deal is or drop it and move on. The females I deal with are the same, so I choose to deal with the situations. I don't expect a loving relationship. I expect a sliding scale of everything with some love sprinkled in there once a Milena or so. They are the independent and don't need anything types. So, things get penciled in when it is convenient and I just look up to see when things come off and go back on the shelf.
The basis behind these walls and defenses they put up though is because of training, experience and socialization's. It has been instilled in them that it is weak to have needs and especially when it comes to a man. And every hour of the day somewhere a female is spouting about how none of them need a man, that men basically need to be spayed and neutered so the feminists and females can feel empowered. Here is where I challenged female critical thinking skills. If I give you your space, you get the loving and stuff you can handle, then where are the issues? Why do you have to fight the feeling and desire that you have to have a real relationship with a man. One that isn't only about you waving your female flag but a relationship that has two partners. A partner is there with you through it all and with it all. With fears, disagreements, pain, pleasure and happiness. But according to everything that females say there is no we. There is only them and someone they want to hang out with once in a while and throw them away again afterward.
So after she recollected how I was in the beginning until now with my direct approach and my very distinct black and white type of life. Along with realizing that the females I am with had to make a decision about being with me because I am not them or the other people they are with or been with. In the end even with situationships you get to be on the inside with me, unlike the rest of the people. That is a big difference and important. You can be special and have meaning or be just another female on the planet.
The scales that I attempt to keep in balance when it comes to relations were heavily modified. I know what a real relationship with a feminist, independent, strong career woman is like. It is the woman that has the ability to be a we instead of just a she. But i don't expect that from no one. I don't expect them to get out of their own way or realize the possibility. Even when I have said what I saw and what I wanted to them. I knew that was just me and they were probably do the opposite or some variation there of. But the balance came with removing any expectation, being direct and realizing that "it is what it is," aka they can only do what they can handle when and if they can handle it regardless. So I will enjoy the few moments here and there for what they are. And remain centered in reality. Love, relations, dating are dead prehistoric beasts that have been replaced by mobile disposable situations. So you get what you seek, want and give in the way that you present it.
The scale sits tilted heavily to the exasperated side. As I laugh at the memories and times that have been had up to this point this morning. No longer looking toward the future like an explorer, merely fortifying my journey. As they say, "you must adapt, overcome, destroy and remake in your way."
I enjoy the conversation. Because I can see the results of my existence through the attacks on their brains, heart and soul. The internal questions on thoughts and feelings. The challenge to the female status quo.
I love the weird and uniqueness. They are parts of the woman I need and want. But it is that type that is the hardest to actually be able to cross the line and have a fully function relationship of WE. To evolve from the female fortress of solitude thinking to where chances are taken to reach higher levels more deeply.
Team Titan was the blueprint and I am the half that is left from it!
Life is not a guarantee. Live, love and be. Just don't hinder yourself from living.
Offense has been taken because I differentiate between females and women. As well as the fact that I say that I see that the modern day female just wants a faux relation that is convenient and they can pull out of their purse and put back in when they want to. Oh, and the fact that I am a misogynist and chauvinist and yadda, yadda, yadda.
So the convo was about the independent, feminist, I don't need things, professional female. This applies to me because it is who I tend to be interested in, pick, attempt a relation with and who I married. The one I date and the sub fall into this category of course.
The comment was made that they wanted 100 percent of a man but they didn't need him all the time or that much time at all. As I laughed I said, "so you want to rent exactly what you want for a period of time and put it back on the shelf?" The appalled response said it all. Of course not she said. I want to enjoy it all. But wait, you want 100 percent of someone but you want it on your schedule, part time and when you want. Ummm, that is not a relation there. That is a situation. To which there was denial as I always here in replies.
As a man you have to choose to accept what the deal is or drop it and move on. The females I deal with are the same, so I choose to deal with the situations. I don't expect a loving relationship. I expect a sliding scale of everything with some love sprinkled in there once a Milena or so. They are the independent and don't need anything types. So, things get penciled in when it is convenient and I just look up to see when things come off and go back on the shelf.
The basis behind these walls and defenses they put up though is because of training, experience and socialization's. It has been instilled in them that it is weak to have needs and especially when it comes to a man. And every hour of the day somewhere a female is spouting about how none of them need a man, that men basically need to be spayed and neutered so the feminists and females can feel empowered. Here is where I challenged female critical thinking skills. If I give you your space, you get the loving and stuff you can handle, then where are the issues? Why do you have to fight the feeling and desire that you have to have a real relationship with a man. One that isn't only about you waving your female flag but a relationship that has two partners. A partner is there with you through it all and with it all. With fears, disagreements, pain, pleasure and happiness. But according to everything that females say there is no we. There is only them and someone they want to hang out with once in a while and throw them away again afterward.
So after she recollected how I was in the beginning until now with my direct approach and my very distinct black and white type of life. Along with realizing that the females I am with had to make a decision about being with me because I am not them or the other people they are with or been with. In the end even with situationships you get to be on the inside with me, unlike the rest of the people. That is a big difference and important. You can be special and have meaning or be just another female on the planet.
The scales that I attempt to keep in balance when it comes to relations were heavily modified. I know what a real relationship with a feminist, independent, strong career woman is like. It is the woman that has the ability to be a we instead of just a she. But i don't expect that from no one. I don't expect them to get out of their own way or realize the possibility. Even when I have said what I saw and what I wanted to them. I knew that was just me and they were probably do the opposite or some variation there of. But the balance came with removing any expectation, being direct and realizing that "it is what it is," aka they can only do what they can handle when and if they can handle it regardless. So I will enjoy the few moments here and there for what they are. And remain centered in reality. Love, relations, dating are dead prehistoric beasts that have been replaced by mobile disposable situations. So you get what you seek, want and give in the way that you present it.
The scale sits tilted heavily to the exasperated side. As I laugh at the memories and times that have been had up to this point this morning. No longer looking toward the future like an explorer, merely fortifying my journey. As they say, "you must adapt, overcome, destroy and remake in your way."
I enjoy the conversation. Because I can see the results of my existence through the attacks on their brains, heart and soul. The internal questions on thoughts and feelings. The challenge to the female status quo.
I love the weird and uniqueness. They are parts of the woman I need and want. But it is that type that is the hardest to actually be able to cross the line and have a fully function relationship of WE. To evolve from the female fortress of solitude thinking to where chances are taken to reach higher levels more deeply.
Team Titan was the blueprint and I am the half that is left from it!
Life is not a guarantee. Live, love and be. Just don't hinder yourself from living.
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