I didn't get to see ms reid since she was under the weather. I did have a nice breakfast date saturday. It was good to finally meet.
So the party...
Normally these things can get extremely wild since there are always a number of swingers there. And not talking about wild as in fucking everywhere. But naked folk going around having a good time together without the sex. Well, except for licking a nipple or sucking a tittie. So this year was a little different. The lifestyle people were not the ones acting wild. It was the vanilla drunk folks. chicks eating pussy in the stripper pole room. Chick getting stripper pole burns on the insides of her pretty little thighs. And the bi and lesbians were out. Even the gay guys had to laugh and shake their heads. Even my fellow NC boy's girl was ultra wild like I had never seen before. In all the years I have never seen her drink that much and definitely grabbing dick and ass, or fingering the chick and telling me mmm don't this smell good while putting her fingers near my face. The quiet little chick done went girls gone wild. lmao I told my boy that he was in for an interesting night and sunday lmao.
The demon was being her usual boisterous, annoying self. I didn't miss that at all but that was to be expected. There was a little bit of eye candy. one amazon with a great ass. And then the usual hood certified, self absorbed females.
Some good convo about traveling, price gouging at hotels and resorts because of events. Since the amazon, the cute light skin chick and the hood chick had been to aruba the other week for the fest Mr B goes to every year. Light skin chick was the best one out the bunch. Not because her body because it really didn't stand out. she had cute little nipples through her dress. But simply because she was more even keeled than the others.
Pool playing, watching movies in the theater room and the females swinging around the pole all added to the entertainment quality. Well that and the group of gathered individuals that were there. lol
I made my guest appearance.
It reminded me about my desire, need and want for companionship with the realization of life right now at the same time.
Still rolling solo with Team Evil!
Which brought me back to reading a wonderful entry by Sir Orpheus Black What is Pure Submission?
One of the best parts of this was the following excerpt..
What is so powerful about this is the acceptance of ones position as the devotee. The beloved is comfortable with being and becoming whatever it is that their love needs when they need it. They draw power and inspiration from their lover. And they recognize that it is this union between lover and beloved that makes all things possible.
It is truly about that union and connection for me. Without it then I can still be your Dominant, Top and Destroyer. But it will be disconnected and devoid as you have chosen.
I have listened to, experienced and observed this need by submissives to lay down all these rules and hard limits in an attempt to keep their control over themselves. "You can't change or give me commands on this and that." Then I just see it as you want submission when it is convenient and beneficial to you.
D/s is not an exact science. I am dealing with females with multitude of issues and things going on at any given second. Mistakes are made. But if you want someone to be completely open to you and you are closed off then that is not going to happen.
I didn't begin this journey out of ego, pride and some once in a while pussy. I did so for the aspect of the leading, growth and support. And that is what I have stuck to and tried to do. It hasn't been about serving me more than the need to establish themselves in growth and understanding in themselves.
I held on to the above union between lover and beloved deeply because of being married. Now, I realize it is an ever constant sliding scale with females. I don't expect any more than that. If I get surprised I am happy. Otherwise, no loss.
My decisions are based on knowing you. And if you don't allow me to know you or let me in to understand then you are receiving what you asked for at the level you wanted.
There is always the option to break and destroy you but if i actually had interest in you that wouldn't work because I would leave your dead carcass for the carrion to feast upon.
Submission in its purest form is attainable. But as with all things you make a choice. You choose to have your wall and defcon 5 defenses up then don't blame me for the inability to connect or have anything meaningful.
Hmmm, I really need something really good from smiley to make me grin right about now.
I am sure you had a great weekend. So make your week even better.
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