My interest in BDSM began a while back through trips to dungeons and events with play before I even decided I had an interest. It definitely was different from the swinging world. But the turning point was the episode in houston that turned me on as I was doing it and in hindsight being with my wife. Those things showed me my excitement, interest and desire in this lifestyle.
Understanding me:
I am simply myself. I rarely fit nicely into anyone else's experience, outlook or generalization I believe and my actions honor being uniquely myself. I am the one who coined the phrase "monkey bitches" and use it when it applies. I am antisocial and very introverted. I am happily a nerd with an affinity for different things and experiences. I enjoy talking about things of interest and learning. And I can't get enough sex (when I actually can get it) and my sex drive seems to be getting worst. Even with my antisocial core I love and can be in love deeply and fully. I just don't allow those things to happen freely because they have ultra importance to me.
So I have always been with and sought females that stood out uniquely and were themselves openly. Submissive, intelligent, witty, open minded and sexually compatible.
Learning and Application
I have been doing the damn thing since I fully chose to be in this lifestyle. Just being around people and interacting as well as classes and meetings have helped shape and develop some things. Along with that I have had to tailor make things to apply to me and my relation.
I am the new Dom. With much to learn and much to do. lil red has more experience than me and thankfully there is something there that holds our relationship together. Trial and error can be a negative impact for someone that has experience.
Through this last year especially, I have seen how different needs, wants, communication and applications can be. Especially when you have someone that is completely different than everything else. And I admit my mistakes and miscommunications.
The Journey
I look past the surface. The walls of defense and combative episodes to evaluate what is underneath. I see you and where we can grow and go to be. Where you submit to me openly and know that I will make sure to keep you from harms way and hold you here with me.
Mentally: You hold me within your thoughts constantly. Knowing and feeling the connection that is our dynamic. Where you want to please and serve me. As I do my best to take care of you in all your pleasures, future and destiny.
Physically: Your body is my playground. To enjoy and serve me through all forms of stimulus.
The Keys
- the connection
- communication
- desire
- dedication
Conclusion
Not simply through words, but backed up with actions is where the dynamic finds it's foundation and continued existence. Where you put forth effort to make it work and make it better constantly. Because when your effort is lacking then obviously that is not where you want to be.
Who would have thought I would be doing this or been in a relation this long? Yeah, insert rawkus laughter here at the truth!
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