It has been a rollercoaster since being back from Spanksgiving. Things are going. Life Unscripted is in full effect but things move forward.
Had plenty of conversation with folks about their journey. Realized what the girls said was true. That people do watch me. Tried to help and support those on their own journey with encouragment and listening.
I have met some interesting, intelligent, vibrant sexy females. I enjoy them in specific ways. Attraction, interest and intrigue lay there in front of me but it is about hearing them and being of service basically to things that they share or been through.
All of this opened up more analytics, thoughts and understandings. With my desires, relationships and dynamic plus much more.
In talking to these ladies. Their journeys had me reflect on mine. Where I started to where I am now.
Most definitely didn't do it myself.
It started with red the chick I was in love with and dating. Her energy, passion and desire along with patience helped foster a foundation.
little one has been the bulk of the journey because I have had a dynamic with her the longest. And showed me many different things that I hadn't considered or even understood. Solo poly stuff and all that. Helped formulate a lot more the way My House was to be.
Both of these two were in the lifestyle before me. So, I took quite a bit of knowledge from them so I could formulate what was Me and what I needed.
Then there came babycakes. Basically new, bright eyed and excited. The previous adventures prepared me more for this. For putting forth the will, drive, goals and the application to join Me.
Through it all there has been nothing but growth. In every aspect things have changed for the better. From decisions to expectations, needs and requirements. To the configuration of mono/poly that I require. And even the desire to have a third that is a slave in My House.
Sitting here as the parental unit only gets worse and drives me more into apathetic distancing. And life throws all the things that I need to handle on minute by minute basis. I can look and see that I have been blessed. I have been able to live life more abundantly through it all. Through the heartache and pain. The release and acceptance. Even the understandings and realizations.
I smile because of all that I have experienced. But my smile is brighter because of those I have watched grow. Those that I have talked to recently and hear the joy in them again. Or those I find sexy as hell and we talk about life, the lifestyle and goals.
Laughing at some of the many memories this year. The times where memories were made and will last forever.
Love's savage existence flourished and blossomed from the pain of release of red last year and losing tigger this year. To love having a different aspect attached to my heart and soul currently to add to my already hard core loving self.
Angry Man Prime is always me but to those that want, can accept and understand at least some aspects of Me then I am here to give love, affection, passion and those things that connect you and me.
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