So where does this apply? Glad you thought you asked. lol
In my black and white scheme of things. I will exhibit, show and give emotions and emotional content. Or I won't have any emotions at all. Not even the so called human being ones. After all I am not human anyway.
Emotions are filled with fear, unknown, hurt, pain and joy. So many variables that scare people so much they have to avoid, detest or fight them tooth and nail. There are always a million things said negatively about emotions and how they are dangerous, will destroy you, not logical and only cause pain.
I see you and that side eye bullshit. But he said that "he either allows emotions or not." I appreciate you paying attention. Thank you. Emotions are not for every situation. Nor are every emotion the right fit for times an situations.
I am clear with my emotions. You are in one of my personal circles then you get that aspect or level of emotion. Well, until you change that or create a need to be downgraded. Then you can get less emotional content and even absolutely none.
Examples you say? I got married after one year to a wonderful woman because of the emotional attachment and that "You Are The One" feeling. This type of emotion was something I did not understand then at all and considering my utter hatred and disdain for emotion back then made for this to be devastating. I fought it tooth and nail but reality set in. I was emotionally connected. Not only with my wife, but myself in a way I hadn't before or accepted. So when it happened again years later with lil red I was shocked but I understood it. Even though me telling her what I want, saw, felt and our goal up front caused every last doomsday apocalypse defense to come up and things to be disconnected.
See, I have always been the counselor, confidant, sin eater and protector in many shapes and forms. From physically to the mental battle with the ultra logical lil red. It is the adaptation of each that shows merit and worth. It is those things that create thoughts, feelings and questions. It is a control and a grounding at the same time.
In D/s this is where the connection lies. When I challenge, show and express things that create a link mentally and in thought. Where daily issues and plans are discussed and figured out. It is not always flagrantly obvious. But look at the changes that have occurred. Look at how long this has lasted when I was nowhere near your typical norm. Your needs mentally, physically or emotionally will not be the same as anyone else. But this is why our dynamic is tailor made to each individual.
So let me grab my red lightsaber so I can prepare for battle once again. Ok, I never stopped battling, but I did take a vodka, everclear, tequila, rum break. Have a good day. Don't be scared of the emotion and feeling things. Embrace, learn and grow. It is the only way to evolve fully.
I will leave you with some poetry on this long ass post. lmao
Your Ground Support
Havoc
Zeus
Apocalypse
Monikers of change
Nicknames and
realities of
All of me
But here is the
kicker
The thing that causes
Malcontent resentment
My presence
Even in absence
Has changed your
normalcy
Those emotions you
battle with
Hate feeling
The conflict of logic
to
Emotionally attaching
That’s me
My mind, soul and
emotions
Invoking Dominance
Upon you
Your mind running 4
million mph
I am that turbo
injection
That will either make
it run faster
With my abstract
mental effect
Or slower with
A what the fuck
moment
That’s me
My mind, soul and
emotions
Invoking Dominance
Upon you
My slap to your face
With my direct Zeus
style
Eloquence and taste
With simple Caveman
ways
Leaves you changed
Thinking
That’s me
My mind, soul and
emotions
Invoking Dominance
Upon you
These things and more
Are parts of your
support
To create that safety
net and availability
For you to
Accept
Soar
Explore
As you feel
Hear
The beating of the
drums of
Your heart, mind and
soul
Remember
Grounded
My infliction of
napalm upon your fire
My destruction of
your world
Opened your world
Mission control
This is ground
support
I am on the job
From the
chocolatezeus collection 3/7/16 ©
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