Well, it is fathers day. I know everyone is enjoying themselves.
I have been asked about having children many times. And I had wanted them and planned on them early in my life. It just wasn't in the cards though.
I do miss the times I have had with children like being with my god daughter and the gary ex's children when they were younger. Definitely some good times. Some proud times. I am glad I left some positive marks on them back then. Now they have grown up since those times. Regardless I really don't feel them or that urge anymore at all. Even with the thoughts of me wanting to be and making a good daddy. At least daddy in that way. lmao
I am still working on this. Because damn I need it to work out this week so it can be put into motion immediately. It is beyond a need right now. Way beyond!
I have been getting asked what I am going to do for my birthday next weekend. Answer: *shrug* nothing. Just drink and stay to myself. Things are not like previous years.
Body aching and in pain constantly. But that is normal operating procedure lately.
I guess tomorrow make it to the gym. Double check the status of things. Pray it falls into place and I can get it done by wednesday. Then prep for the Fortress before Friday.
*head nod and chunking the deuce*
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