Back here in the city of unbrotherly love. Why? Because I promised myself that I would come back after my wife's 2nd funeral here.
It is strange being back here. The last time was to end the greatest parts of my life. To say my last final fairwell to a part of me.
So I will hit 4th Street Deli and try to go to the diner on broad. I am not sure the nifty fifties that we went to is still open. Other than that I am just taking time to just be. I had dinner with shortcakes last night. It was good to laugh and catch up.
Hmm, philadelphia. The place I found my wife. Where I flew from to get married in Jamaica. And plenty of outstanding marathon sex sessions, fun and enlightenment. For a place I do not care for it held a portion of my life that was great.
When it comes down to me as a person I have rules and regulations I live by that don't make sense to others and more.
Within the three circles of interaction with me there is caring and loving aspects towards the few that can grace them. And it goes at a hierarchal level. But in all of them I will do what I can to help and support according to their level. Obviously the highest level aka the inner sanctum is an all out type of relation.
Well, in a discussion with red earlier I was talking about my concern for my Ru Ru and her situation. And the fact that I can't give her the support that she needs right now. And she has been there for me for all the years that we have known each other. That is why she gets the supreme spot and treatment that she does. I know I can only do what I can but it is important to me to support those that I care about in whatever way that I can. Well, unless they don't want support. Then I bide my time until another decision is made. This is part of my intimate relationship package. They get the things I do not give out to associates and humans. So yes there is a division of meaning there.
I always try to maintain and carry out my duties to those I care about. Sin Eater. Counselor. Friend. Lover and more. Does it always happen? No. But I do what I can, how I can and when I can.
This is one of the things that I am not mean and evil about even though it is only for a very small and select amount of the population.
So I am going to continue this journey this weekend. My birthday month has began with this trip. We will see how things happen and work out this month. We are already off schedule. And this month will show and help me decide some things.
Have a great weekend.
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