2015 ended with a quiet smoke. No one shared the entrance into the new year with me. I stood outside and smoked a Lunatic to bring in the new year in light drizzling rain. Watching the neighbors fire works down the street.
I stood there and reflected and dealt with everything. Last year was filled with many things. Many teachings, experiences and revelations.
My anger has reached a new level. Still under control but levels that I am dealing are way above what I use to handle. The parental units have gotten a whole lot worst in their activities and the issues that they are creating.
it is weird to look and see that I have been in a relationship with lil red over a year. Definitely not how I had things planned or the way things go normally. But in dealing with her I realized just how deep the labyrinth was and that my desire was only my own.
Unintended, I ended up in a poly situation. And i am fine with it. it is not like the poly relationships I had previously. It doesn't have those feelings flowing. It is based on D/s but it is a cobbled together situation of my poly and theirs. The other two have shown me some things that have helped me deal with lil red. But the combination of it all is like the proper use and placement of the flying guillotine.
in all honesty. i just wanted the full relation and D/s with lil red. Then reality set in. And the Mandalorian in me adjusted accordingly. Leaving behind ideologies and things that I sought for what actions are made and shown to me.
of course the year had to have more coronations of monkey bitches. as the sanford monkey bitch ended up joining her new best friend the red springs monkey bitch in the land of ultimate stupidity. Thus, proving that association with monkey bitches only leads you to become one.
Once again into the breach!
The year has begun without any expectations or things to look forward to. Merely the things that are important to me and accomplishing them for myself.
matter of fact
The next chapters in Life Unscripted have already made their mark and not even a month into the new year yet.
Make the most of your year. If it is important to you then make it happen!
Happy New year
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