When the Well Runs Dry

I give chances. I am supportive of those I once cared for until they have fallen completely off. Meaning, that they have chosen to widen the chasm that they created with me.

There are fears of them becoming monkey bitches with the rest of the crew. But here is the thing. You have to earn your monkey bitch name by deciding to disregard the issue that I brought up to you and not giving a fuck. So there is your choice. Enjoy. As I told bgp this week. There is no need to worry until you do something and I address it with you and you choose not to do anything to fix it. l

There was talk with lil red about being around folks that you no longer feel the same way about or care for in the same way. There isn't a need to do it. It was something to do. Was.

Tonight...

I came face to face with the end of the road. I always have tried to keep the safety of the female that I was with at parties or out in effect. With sub space and females getting that high from endorphins and alcohol it is very very dangerous. Tonight showed me just how much. I have no idea what the teenage dream was thinking. But when I say, let me know before you play. I mean let me know. And it is not because I don't want you to play. It is to make sure of the state of mind that you are already in. But when you disregard that and attempt to argue with me about it. Then you said what needs to be said. I don't have to give a fuck about anyone but me. But as a Dom and those I am with I maintain safety and concern. But hey as the song said, "tonight was the night."

There once was a brighter light within me. The reason why the war between the light an dark use to be so vicious. Now the battles are less. The dark is obviously winning.

From everything that has been said, done, not said or done. I am merely going to pull a Spartan 117 now. No need for the interactions, decent expectations or anticipation.

As the dust settles in the well.

Let my silhouette in the sunset be left in my haze. Knowledge assimilated and actions taken. It's just me against the universes!