Monday, November 02, 2015

The End of the Road

Back from woodbridge and fellowship with like minded kinky people of color. I enjoyed the talk and laughter. The demos and play were interesting as well.

But with everything that has happened and been experienced I have decided to go old school ultra. No need to leave things to the way that they are.

I no longer strive or work on anything other than what is personally important to me. As has been said, expressed and shown just let things go whatever way and hold nothing in regard other than just the moment. Now the way that I am but the way the world is now.

As I have been talking to people there is no need to hold relations kn a position of importance. I guess that was one of my issues previously.  Working towards making a relationship work or in high regard only alienates and makes a mess of people's brains and dlebels of comfort.

Battling everyone and everything has been my duty since before I can remember. It took a long time but change occurred during all of this chaos. The silence has returned with a new purpose.  Leaving behind ideologies that are only my view and importance.

ABM returns and I embrace it all with a vengence. The battle of llve and hatred continues as I bridge the gap. Just. On  the light side is diminished completely.  Reached a point where I have concluded the renaissance part of life for me. Cold and self edifying is the mainstay of life it seems.

Looking at the vault door closing. I see the memories behind the door and smirk. So many things and experiences. Now a distant memory.

Rabbit holes destroyed. Simple ending.

Roll the credits. I am hearing boyz to men send the end of the road. And I envision this alternstive ending.

Goodbye and homage to what use to be.

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