I am telling you up front. this is going to be long. Get your drink and snacks together now!
Well we are into another week. And as always my mind is in overdrive every second of the day and night. From my relationship, my relationships to everything that has to be accomplished and handled.
In 5 days I have traveled more than 2000 miles so I hear Ru Ru saying, "told your Road Warrior ass that you were not retired." So yeah this one time she was correct in that. But I am not going to say it unless she asks. lol
Rope class was cool. I watched because I was still worn out and I felt it while I was sitting there watching. Still wish I had someone to go there with me so I could practice on. But that is life. I found myself keeping myself awake.
Ok so this was the weekend I was going to the swing party in rdu. Even though the ex munchkin monkey is excommunicated before that point. I said I was going to go and so I did. I really wanted to go and show my fucking ass at them bitches. So I ended up going with the teenage dream to the party. With her as my slave. And I had no intention on sharing anything with anyone there. Plus I needed a playmate anyway so I can have some fun and release a little bit of energy.
Here is the thing about me and the swing lifestyle. I enjoyed it in the beginning because the people weren't fake ass, self serving monkeys. And unfortunately it is also linked to they were not just black folk. But in the beginning it was about meeting, socializing and not being cliquish and having a good time. After that point it was just about money and whoever was the stars and flavor of the moment. But I don't normally play at parties because I am just good ole me and nobody else. So I bring my sand to the beach so I get what I want and how I want. Fuck the rest.
So back to this weekends party. It was alright. A little cramped in the host room but oh well. The main host was flirtatious but i knew that from the first time I met her at that cookout and tattoo party last month or something. I finally saw what evil lyn (ex munchkin monkey's cousin) looked like outside of a car. She actually had a decent body and some titties and ass. I still think she is a transformer and is just part human, part car. lol I had nothing to say to the ex munchkin monkey taking the money at all. There were some of the regulars. One of the ninja turtle looking chicks. And that hershey chick that doesn't like me because of the red springs monkey bitch. So teenage dream and I were in the host room and it was time to dress down and the host came to get the females. I told her that teenage dream wouldnt' be playing. I know that she loves fresh, new pussy so I am sure that was a bit of a let down but she had plenty of other options.
There was a guy there that I had met at the cookout and tattoo party with his girlfriend who wanted to swap but something was nagging at me not to do that even though I didn't mind fucking his chick. And I remembered later why. He stayed on the phone that first time I met him arguing with his wife. And the girlfriend was pissed with him about it. Umm, no thanks to fucking drama that I didn't create.
This brought to life the whole conversations and issues with swinging and bdsm that has been happening. I mean they are two different lifestyles and people are trying to combine the two. Like the ex munchkin monkey and the host had to get permisson from some guy but they are not his sub or slave. Go ahead and play that way if you choose to. Now I was a swinger before I came into bdsm. And I do combine the two. I combine them like I did last weekend. I went to a party and went back to my room to play. But I also know in true swinging there are relationships that are built and worked on as there are in bdsm. There isn't necessarily a hierarchy of course. But as in and out of both lifestyles and life you have those that want to pretend, play or just defraud the lifestyles and themselves. Nothing will stop the differing opinions on this subject.
Which brings me to a final subject. The actions of those that I once cared about and loved. Because once again I had to really consider just going all out and completely decimating another one instead of keeping her in limbo. Because I can't keep giving chances to show the importance of the relationship. I normally excommunicate immediately. But in my old age I gave some chances unfortunately over this last year. My mistake. Out of nostalgia and a past I gave these two a chance this year. Yeah, that worked real well. They couldn't speak up, tell the truth or say what were on their mind. But they want to act like everything is ok. No, it is not but then again maybe it is for you. For me you have made your choice in your exit strategy. And how do I always attempt to communicate with you and you never get the messages no matter what form I use? That is rather suspicious to me. Especially when I spend my time traveling. But that is apparently the concensus for humans today. I dont' have time to play games with jealous, insecure females that want to show and be extra crazy. With that said...you get what you choose.
Alright so I told you it was long. As I sit here watching wwe's night of champions and still laughing at how the first episode of Gotham didn't hook my interest yesterday. I am going to eat me some wings now and chill. Thinking about some Mr Wolf and Lil Red Time!
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