Wednesday, June 17, 2015
Theme Music: If You Don't Give a Damn I Don't Give a Fuck!!!
Cue the theme music. Classic me and the theme album.
The Zeus rock and step in effect!
Bring Out Your Dead
No sleep. No problem.
I am at the gym getting Apocalypse training in. Worl War Hulk mode in effect! Weapons training is next.
I am going to try and eat and then start the drinks.
Still waiting to find out if the fox is goong to be applied.
My mood is back to the Original Chocolatezeus. Oh yeah!
Dictator and warrior. The road to goals completed
Lol enjoy your day.
It is hot and I am sweating. But moves will be made and no fucks will be given.
Release the Vanquished Beast
I am at the gym getting Apocalypse training in. Worl War Hulk mode in effect! Weapons training is next.
I am going to try and eat and then start the drinks.
Still waiting to find out if the fox is goong to be applied.
My mood is back to the Original Chocolatezeus. Oh yeah!
Dictator and warrior. The road to goals completed
Lol enjoy your day.
It is hot and I am sweating. But moves will be made and no fucks will be given.
Release the Vanquished Beast
Tuesday, June 16, 2015
Oh Yeah Update
The Apocalypse training is going. I am working out better than eating well. The eating part has not gone well especially this last month. The trainer is cool. Thanks to HQ for that. I have probably hurt something from going to the gym but oh well, just keep on going.
I am better than I was because things are quarantined and I found out where things stood. So that everything could be organized to where and how it should be. Understanding and evaluating makes things a better place to be.
Writing definitely picked up because of everything. From the journal to Angry Black Man and just big evil poetry pieces.
Construction and demolition have begun. Time for life to be revamped.
Yeah, things are....
*closing the vault door*
I am better than I was because things are quarantined and I found out where things stood. So that everything could be organized to where and how it should be. Understanding and evaluating makes things a better place to be.
Writing definitely picked up because of everything. From the journal to Angry Black Man and just big evil poetry pieces.
Construction and demolition have begun. Time for life to be revamped.
Yeah, things are....
*closing the vault door*
The Here and Now
I have had my adventures and I look forward to so many more. From swinging to bdsm and all that.
I hate having to break in new females that majority of the time can't keep up or keep my interest.
I realized going through the stuff that what I was relying on is a possibility not something that is a definitely. And clinging on to that is what that part of me will do. But in thinking it made me realize that I needed to go back and redirect. In order to regain that presence. The one that is basically ominous.
The days of travel and just doing my thing. Those are the days that I will have to return to. It won't be filled with city to city sexcapades anymore. Since my super picky selection process and needs make that even more difficult today. But I see how much I need that now. Wishing I had someone to go and be with on many adventures. Ru reminding me of how we use to kick it and go to swing parties and all.
The sadistic part of me has been ready and things planned for it's release party. Unfortunately postponed repeatedly. This energy has been in me and ready to fully be put into effect. Then....nothing. No outlet. No let loose finally. It has been very sad.
Talking to Munchkin remembering the episodes. Fucking a couple times a week at the honey comb hideout. The females from the groups I would fuck. Especially ole girl with the chocolate chip nipples and areolas and blond hair. Of course she had to remind me of dealing with the pink chick and all the mattresses in the hotel we fucked up because of making her squirt and the parties where she was confined to the floor in the corner. Even the amy chick in henderson was a damn good fuck.
I stay horny as hell. No outlet is killing me. Adding to that my sadistic needs. I am the kraken attempting to be caged and failing.
what i want is the one who turns me on. When we are together it is fire and electricity. We are uncaged fucking beasts until she is spent. And even then i will continue to make her cum again and again. dry up the pussy to make it wet again. Yeah I miss that shit like a fucking crack head misses crack. It has been fucking 6 months since that and I am mad.
As I have reiterated and said repeatedly. I need serious fucking, pain delivery and debauchery. I need to feed my needs. Rope ties that I haven't been able to practice or try. Now I am wondering. Damn, just feed my fucking need so there is comfort and peace.
*shrug*
Well, we will see what happens next. I do know that I am going to go back to dissapearing. Maybe that will bring the connect closer again. Maybe that will be that aspect that gives them comfort again.
All I know is I need a week long fuck session at least to survive the next couple of weeks.
The public is not safe until someone feeds my need. I need my Fix! Unfortunately that is nowhere to be seen any time soon.
Oh and I am thinking about the next tatt I am going to get. It was originally going to be my wife and Superwoman tattooed. But I think now I just want another symbol of me. So I am thinking about Apocalypse with the saying "Death is only the Beginning." I am still working on the words to be put around the pic though.
I hate having to break in new females that majority of the time can't keep up or keep my interest.
I realized going through the stuff that what I was relying on is a possibility not something that is a definitely. And clinging on to that is what that part of me will do. But in thinking it made me realize that I needed to go back and redirect. In order to regain that presence. The one that is basically ominous.
The days of travel and just doing my thing. Those are the days that I will have to return to. It won't be filled with city to city sexcapades anymore. Since my super picky selection process and needs make that even more difficult today. But I see how much I need that now. Wishing I had someone to go and be with on many adventures. Ru reminding me of how we use to kick it and go to swing parties and all.
The sadistic part of me has been ready and things planned for it's release party. Unfortunately postponed repeatedly. This energy has been in me and ready to fully be put into effect. Then....nothing. No outlet. No let loose finally. It has been very sad.
Talking to Munchkin remembering the episodes. Fucking a couple times a week at the honey comb hideout. The females from the groups I would fuck. Especially ole girl with the chocolate chip nipples and areolas and blond hair. Of course she had to remind me of dealing with the pink chick and all the mattresses in the hotel we fucked up because of making her squirt and the parties where she was confined to the floor in the corner. Even the amy chick in henderson was a damn good fuck.
I stay horny as hell. No outlet is killing me. Adding to that my sadistic needs. I am the kraken attempting to be caged and failing.
what i want is the one who turns me on. When we are together it is fire and electricity. We are uncaged fucking beasts until she is spent. And even then i will continue to make her cum again and again. dry up the pussy to make it wet again. Yeah I miss that shit like a fucking crack head misses crack. It has been fucking 6 months since that and I am mad.
As I have reiterated and said repeatedly. I need serious fucking, pain delivery and debauchery. I need to feed my needs. Rope ties that I haven't been able to practice or try. Now I am wondering. Damn, just feed my fucking need so there is comfort and peace.
*shrug*
Well, we will see what happens next. I do know that I am going to go back to dissapearing. Maybe that will bring the connect closer again. Maybe that will be that aspect that gives them comfort again.
All I know is I need a week long fuck session at least to survive the next couple of weeks.
The public is not safe until someone feeds my need. I need my Fix! Unfortunately that is nowhere to be seen any time soon.
Oh and I am thinking about the next tatt I am going to get. It was originally going to be my wife and Superwoman tattooed. But I think now I just want another symbol of me. So I am thinking about Apocalypse with the saying "Death is only the Beginning." I am still working on the words to be put around the pic though.
Being There and Be Prepared
Things...well they are whatever they are.
Just look and adjust to it.
Expectations and all that. Get rid of that shit.
Absorbed.
Standing back.
While looking and listening.
Yeah.
Yeah.
It is exactly like that.
When communication
and implementation.
Lead to
A Clusterfuck!!
Thank goodness.
I am just ME!
Just awaiting the next episode in this thing. Letting each alternative just blossom and leave it's imprint. Have to be ready for whatever is next. Gauging from this year. The possibilities and endless in what can be done or said next. Let me just Be Prepared.
Eagle
Scout
Hellspawn
It is time!
Just look and adjust to it.
Expectations and all that. Get rid of that shit.
Absorbed.
Standing back.
While looking and listening.
Yeah.
Yeah.
It is exactly like that.
When communication
and implementation.
Lead to
A Clusterfuck!!
Thank goodness.
I am just ME!
Just awaiting the next episode in this thing. Letting each alternative just blossom and leave it's imprint. Have to be ready for whatever is next. Gauging from this year. The possibilities and endless in what can be done or said next. Let me just Be Prepared.
Eagle
Scout
Hellspawn
It is time!
Monday, June 15, 2015
Today's Message Brought to you by Life
Oversharing is not caring when it is someone that matters!!!
**MESSAGE**
unless they are one of two blasts from the pasts.
**MESSAGE**
unless they are one of two blasts from the pasts.
Episodes in Tv and Movieland...review
Well since things are what they are right now I watched some stuff.
Jurrassic Park World was extra predictable and pedestrian to me. the most exciting thing was the raptors fighting at the end. Other than that it was just like someone throwing logs on to a fire. They truly need to not reboot or do this one anymore. Dinosaurs looked good. The plot was blah. Teaching dinosaurs? Come on now! Just because chris pratt made it big with guardians of the galaxy does not warrant another visit to this...ever.
Game of Thrones: this was one of the most lack luster episodes yet. The mother of dragons is in the middle of nowhere with one dragon and then get's surrounded by the dothraki people like who she was married with previously. Cersi's daughter is dead. killed by poison from the chick whose husband was killed from the duel for the dwarf. Still not understanding as soon as she started dying why did they not turn the ship around and go back to dorn. Hell they could still see the shore. The older stark girl waits until now to use the signal while stannis is attacking winterfell. The battle was skipped over. All we got was a weak aftermath of making sure to kill the ones still breathing. At least briann of tarth killed stannis for killing her king. But damn they didn't show that either. Cersi' takes her naked walk of shame which was extra stupid. But I guess she needs something more to kill the sparrow people and their shit. For a season finale episode this was some garbage. The link or intrigue definitely wasn't there to inspire watch the next season.
The first two episodes of Hannibal this season. I watched it and the plot has definitely deepened drastically. Hannibal married to his therapist and turning her to enjoy the killing as well. I almost thought they would have a threesome happily. I was wrong. The mental aspects are astounding. The way Hannibal has turned will and others. As well as the depth of the intelligence dynamic. This is the episode where we see Hannibal in his italian history and everything. A big difference from the united states.
The new season of Defiance started off with the super killers of the voltan collective showing up in a ship that needs power. and you can tell the two purples skinned aliens were black. and the girl that played the daughter was cute. But these vampire super killers are something else. The voltans are scared of and hate them for killing and feeding off so many of them. All of the mcauley family is dead in one episode except the baby and the crazy mother that stole the baby. Irisa and her daddy are back. And no one is happy about that after finding out irisa brought the ark down on new york and killed everyone to save everyone.
and that mad max fury road thing...was just a very bad rendition. I mean the action was interesting but it didn't last long enough to keep the movie interesting. It just seemed like a watered down version of the originals. Not good at all.
Oh well. Will take a break from the reviews and post in Angry Black Man. It is time to release things in peace.
Jurrassic Park World was extra predictable and pedestrian to me. the most exciting thing was the raptors fighting at the end. Other than that it was just like someone throwing logs on to a fire. They truly need to not reboot or do this one anymore. Dinosaurs looked good. The plot was blah. Teaching dinosaurs? Come on now! Just because chris pratt made it big with guardians of the galaxy does not warrant another visit to this...ever.
Game of Thrones: this was one of the most lack luster episodes yet. The mother of dragons is in the middle of nowhere with one dragon and then get's surrounded by the dothraki people like who she was married with previously. Cersi's daughter is dead. killed by poison from the chick whose husband was killed from the duel for the dwarf. Still not understanding as soon as she started dying why did they not turn the ship around and go back to dorn. Hell they could still see the shore. The older stark girl waits until now to use the signal while stannis is attacking winterfell. The battle was skipped over. All we got was a weak aftermath of making sure to kill the ones still breathing. At least briann of tarth killed stannis for killing her king. But damn they didn't show that either. Cersi' takes her naked walk of shame which was extra stupid. But I guess she needs something more to kill the sparrow people and their shit. For a season finale episode this was some garbage. The link or intrigue definitely wasn't there to inspire watch the next season.
The first two episodes of Hannibal this season. I watched it and the plot has definitely deepened drastically. Hannibal married to his therapist and turning her to enjoy the killing as well. I almost thought they would have a threesome happily. I was wrong. The mental aspects are astounding. The way Hannibal has turned will and others. As well as the depth of the intelligence dynamic. This is the episode where we see Hannibal in his italian history and everything. A big difference from the united states.
The new season of Defiance started off with the super killers of the voltan collective showing up in a ship that needs power. and you can tell the two purples skinned aliens were black. and the girl that played the daughter was cute. But these vampire super killers are something else. The voltans are scared of and hate them for killing and feeding off so many of them. All of the mcauley family is dead in one episode except the baby and the crazy mother that stole the baby. Irisa and her daddy are back. And no one is happy about that after finding out irisa brought the ark down on new york and killed everyone to save everyone.
and that mad max fury road thing...was just a very bad rendition. I mean the action was interesting but it didn't last long enough to keep the movie interesting. It just seemed like a watered down version of the originals. Not good at all.
Oh well. Will take a break from the reviews and post in Angry Black Man. It is time to release things in peace.
Culling, Demonizing and Chaos
After yesterday's episode in the chapter of this months episode. I watched the door shut and the vault lock down. Change! The one thing that remains a constant through things.
My interest will still show and remain. I will still continue to just be me and say what I say. But I realize now that the darkside vow must be reclaimed. Holding it all like INFOSEC was the key. A key that I let lapse unfortunately.
Message received. Vorlon protocols engaged.
In preparation for the possibilities and realities that are ahead. I went back to Apocalypse training. Hit the gym and came back to eat something. Preparing the techniques and strategies that ruthlessly need to be kept in place.
The demons flutter around me. Starring. Seeking an opening. A weakness to exploit. But I am the head Demon. They will never take me.
The Chaos continues to reign supreme
My interest will still show and remain. I will still continue to just be me and say what I say. But I realize now that the darkside vow must be reclaimed. Holding it all like INFOSEC was the key. A key that I let lapse unfortunately.
Message received. Vorlon protocols engaged.
In preparation for the possibilities and realities that are ahead. I went back to Apocalypse training. Hit the gym and came back to eat something. Preparing the techniques and strategies that ruthlessly need to be kept in place.
The demons flutter around me. Starring. Seeking an opening. A weakness to exploit. But I am the head Demon. They will never take me.
The Chaos continues to reign supreme
Deafening Silence
Simply put...I am just ME! And with that said it is the cause of a multitude of issues. Not for me. But for everyone else on the planet apparently except Ru.
I have been there for and helped others from the time I started thinking. It has always been my nature to help and lead. No need to yell and scream. But merely analyze, apply and execute.
If I tell you that you are a part of me and my heart then you have a coveted place there and in my life. I don't run around giving everyone pieces of me or even allowing them to interact with me intimately. But, the problem is I am a man and that is an extreme. I talk to, flirt and show interest in people and things. I don't tell them my life story or give them emotional eulogies.
My expression is potent, impacting and straight forward. I don't claim to be mary poppins with the public. I stand behind strong beliefs and thoughts.
In talking to HQ and Ru I have witnessed the differences very brightly. Ru, said that I am always social with people as long as I get along with them. I just don't go running around making conversation with everyone like a social butterfly. But outside of Ru it doesn't seem to be understood or recieved. Like I told HQ last year at BB when I flirted with strawberry slut cake and the babyprincess, it is not well recieved when I do it regardless.
My silence is seen as cranky, unsocial meaning. Even when I speak and talk to the people.
So, I merely listened to what HQ had to say and I am just applying the code fix for it. Retaining previous success and training.
Let the Silence Reign in all ways with me. That way the misconstrued and misunderstood will be channeled appropriately.
I have been there for and helped others from the time I started thinking. It has always been my nature to help and lead. No need to yell and scream. But merely analyze, apply and execute.
If I tell you that you are a part of me and my heart then you have a coveted place there and in my life. I don't run around giving everyone pieces of me or even allowing them to interact with me intimately. But, the problem is I am a man and that is an extreme. I talk to, flirt and show interest in people and things. I don't tell them my life story or give them emotional eulogies.
My expression is potent, impacting and straight forward. I don't claim to be mary poppins with the public. I stand behind strong beliefs and thoughts.
In talking to HQ and Ru I have witnessed the differences very brightly. Ru, said that I am always social with people as long as I get along with them. I just don't go running around making conversation with everyone like a social butterfly. But outside of Ru it doesn't seem to be understood or recieved. Like I told HQ last year at BB when I flirted with strawberry slut cake and the babyprincess, it is not well recieved when I do it regardless.
My silence is seen as cranky, unsocial meaning. Even when I speak and talk to the people.
So, I merely listened to what HQ had to say and I am just applying the code fix for it. Retaining previous success and training.
Let the Silence Reign in all ways with me. That way the misconstrued and misunderstood will be channeled appropriately.
Deafening Silence
Carrion and crows
Pick litter bones
Remnants of
Mind and soul
Calls
Beckoning to come
Participate in the
Droned stagnation
Disgust and loathing
At
Doing and being
My way
Held the world
Upon my shoulders
Universes in each
hand
Throughout it all
The devastation
Assassination of
Man
Still
I
Stand
Society’s
Words and actions
Wax poetic
Devoid of substance
As I am the enemy
For I think and act
freely
Bludgeoning
Crushing
Expression
Reveal
Is what they seek
I ration
Give them what they
need
According to me
Once again
Reform is not the key
Unacceptance
Deliverance
As again
Silence
Is the
Key
From the
chocolatezeus collection 6/15/15 ©
Thursday, June 11, 2015
Another regular night
Unable to sleep once again. Insomnia seems to be even more intimate.
My mind on mission impossible processing. Dealing with it all. Making sense of the senseless.
I realize I am the weird anomaly. It is hard to fathom and think that I operate differently. The fact is that is who I am and how I am.
I am still stunned and in shock with everything that has transpired. One step forward means being shoved a mile backwards. Those I thought understood and were ready to be who they needed to be. Unable to fulfill their duties.
New valuable leason about attachment and expectations had to be applied to those that were in my circle with me. Signaling a changing of the guard and relations apparently. Maybe the circle needs to be tighter then.
I laugh at respite and comfort that I sought and need. Their reciprocity has left me blank and blinking. All I can do is laugh maniacally.
Planet Apocalypse seems to be a required need now. No need to pick up pieces. Just leave behind what use to be lover, relation and friend to me.
As always it comes down to the Journey. The long walk. Taken alone. No refuge from storms or wars. Mermely the solitary journey into the wastelands of thinking and living with beings.
Lol this would be the point in the movie where they pan to faded memories. Scattered into the wind and blowing.
A sleepless Apocalypse
My mind on mission impossible processing. Dealing with it all. Making sense of the senseless.
I realize I am the weird anomaly. It is hard to fathom and think that I operate differently. The fact is that is who I am and how I am.
I am still stunned and in shock with everything that has transpired. One step forward means being shoved a mile backwards. Those I thought understood and were ready to be who they needed to be. Unable to fulfill their duties.
New valuable leason about attachment and expectations had to be applied to those that were in my circle with me. Signaling a changing of the guard and relations apparently. Maybe the circle needs to be tighter then.
I laugh at respite and comfort that I sought and need. Their reciprocity has left me blank and blinking. All I can do is laugh maniacally.
Planet Apocalypse seems to be a required need now. No need to pick up pieces. Just leave behind what use to be lover, relation and friend to me.
As always it comes down to the Journey. The long walk. Taken alone. No refuge from storms or wars. Mermely the solitary journey into the wastelands of thinking and living with beings.
Lol this would be the point in the movie where they pan to faded memories. Scattered into the wind and blowing.
A sleepless Apocalypse
Spoken Word: This Car Wreck
Bright
Happiness
Such positivity
Came to a complete stop
SOUL CRUSHED
As my heart smashed into
The dashboard of
What was
Now
Unrecognizable
Trying to remember how it was
Lifeless
Unfeeling
This dawn of the dead
Living
What had just been
smiles and full speed ahead
looks now like
Stonehenge
As I look
It is hard to believe
What was promising
Is now the abyss
Feeling
Signifying
Nothing
Paralyzed
Part of me wants to understand
Realizing
Finally
The true damage
100 miles to reverse
In a split second
Severe damage
Everything
Just Wrecked
From the chocolatezeus collection 6/11/15 (c)
Happiness
Such positivity
Came to a complete stop
SOUL CRUSHED
As my heart smashed into
The dashboard of
What was
Now
Unrecognizable
Trying to remember how it was
Lifeless
Unfeeling
This dawn of the dead
Living
What had just been
smiles and full speed ahead
looks now like
Stonehenge
As I look
It is hard to believe
What was promising
Is now the abyss
Feeling
Signifying
Nothing
Paralyzed
Part of me wants to understand
Realizing
Finally
The true damage
100 miles to reverse
In a split second
Severe damage
Everything
Just Wrecked
From the chocolatezeus collection 6/11/15 (c)
Tuesday, June 09, 2015
Feed Me
It has been forever since I have had my need for bdsm, sex and comfort met. And it is fucking with me. To the point that it seems that it may actually be dead. Then I realize that it's not dead. The Dead Man is.
Need that week of fucking to death that leaves you sore, throbbing, hurting and needing a lot more. Where I make enough porn to deal with not getting any until the next damn time. When I fuck your mouth, pussy and ass so I can leave my mark.
My rope play has fucking super suffered. I haven't had anyone to tie up and torture to death in years now. And it really, really fucking pisses me off. I am supposed to be working to perfect my skill. At this rate I am sure I have regressed a whole fucking lot.
Need to make more lasting memories of fucking, bdsm and orgasms. Need more crawling across the floor to get away from me.
I guess I should feel sorry for the next time I finally get fed. But I definitely don't! Since I am not getting fed I need to break everything down and tear the universe apart.
Fuck it. Let the Anger and Evil reign. Not getting any so the public must pay!!!
FIGHT CLUB!!
Need that week of fucking to death that leaves you sore, throbbing, hurting and needing a lot more. Where I make enough porn to deal with not getting any until the next damn time. When I fuck your mouth, pussy and ass so I can leave my mark.
My rope play has fucking super suffered. I haven't had anyone to tie up and torture to death in years now. And it really, really fucking pisses me off. I am supposed to be working to perfect my skill. At this rate I am sure I have regressed a whole fucking lot.
Need to make more lasting memories of fucking, bdsm and orgasms. Need more crawling across the floor to get away from me.
I guess I should feel sorry for the next time I finally get fed. But I definitely don't! Since I am not getting fed I need to break everything down and tear the universe apart.
Fuck it. Let the Anger and Evil reign. Not getting any so the public must pay!!!
FIGHT CLUB!!
Spoken Word: The Call of Rope
The Call of Rope
Visions of you
Bound and tied
Prostrate to me
Each session
Rope lesson
Instruction
Building on
Depravity
Delight for me
Your hands tied
behind you
As I tie your neck to
your ankles
Have you bent into
An auntie annie
pretzel
Open for my delight
Your arms wide
Lashed to the cross
Begging my attentive
strikes
Against your skin
As the rope bites
With each strike
Slapping you
As your rope collar
Cinches you just
right
Only to tie you
Leaving you there
Pulsing
Lost in pleasure
Contentment
As I marvel at
Delve into my delight
Of how the rope
Has brought you to
life
A predicament tie
As I fuck your body
and mind
Invasions
Repeated as you hear
my delight
Connected
You and I
As the rope binds
Not only you
But this pleasure
mountain
That we will climb
From the
chocolatezeus collection 6/9/15 ©
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