I have to truly say that things have been extra fucking crazy as hell. This year. This quarter. This Month. This week. lol
The damn issues with the parental units increased to another level. Going to still have to do my duty and problem solve as public enemy number one.
The attitudes, moods and actions have been in full swing. And I have had to swing back at them.
I was asked about who I talk to about things that are going on and that are being dealt with. My answer is "no one now." I keep things to myself. I analyze and enact for myself. When I need another view I ask specific people that I can ask without attitude, drama and issue.
I have seen some light but I will let it decide whether it will fully reveal for itself or not. I don't hold onto those things that are not solidified anymore.
People in their place has been the theme. If I accept you then that is what i do. Accept you for who and what you are and whatever you can offer and no more. That is why they remain in my life. Even though they question the why after I have given my answers. I am like why question why if I am still loving, caring, want you? But then again I am not them so what the hell would I know. So, hey if what you have to offer is all you have to give and I have agreed with that then...there you go!
I realized that I was missing being able to laugh, be comfortable and just have a good time with those that are mine. It reminded me of how fleeting things are. And I understand even more clearly.
After watching Batman and harley and reminding me of my relationship with red. Episodes of the Orville to remind me of little one. I had to look back at all these years. Laugh and shake my head.
As I look at and wonder at that miracle. I am reminded of the Search for the Holy Grail. And I feel like the holy hand grenade of Antioch. lmao
There are some other things but maybe i will get to those later tonight. I think I will finish this writing and get some more thinking done.
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