Perceptions...
They have been revealed, reinforced and reiterated.
The attitudes lately have been rather out of pocket. The lack of understanding what a submissive is to me has been in a negative spin apparently.
Fairness and equality are things that remain wanted in a hierarchial relationship repeatedly. There has been issues of trust as well as puzzlement of the ability to even be a submissive. Many of things seem inherent within the female gender it seems. Whether they are weird or even to the point of extra weird.
So the journey has been running through the jungles of vietnam while being chased by the viet cong many times.
I have found the ability to communicate between a man and a female is still like a trip to mars. There seems to be a need for them to interpret what is said almost all the time. So, it is a road that is hard pressed to travel to achieve the communication goal. With trying to read my facial expressions, body language and all is really a bad way to interpret me unless you have known me deeply. And honestly there is only one person left on the planet to be close enough to have a shot at that right now. It doesn't mean that someone can't get to the point if they chose and made the effort.
One of the important thngs that people disregard and ignore is...Effort. That drive to achieve things. In this case I am talking about, relationships and dynamics. You have to maintain and show effort and interest or whatever it is will DIE. Yeah, yeah, yeah we have built females to hide or not have emotions, attachment or anything that would resemble a relationship with another person. But in this scenario there is only the Epic failure to be expected. Everyone is not the same but the requirements are still rather standard on an individual basis.
Which brings me to a subject...
If I tell you I love you, care about you and involved you truly in my life then you are special and a part of my life. I don't and won't treat you like everyone else unless you want to be with the common everyday people I don't pay attention to mostly. I have found this is such an issue for some because their need for me to treat others better. When they should be happy and basking in where I have them in my life and importance.
In the same token I have realized that females have and will have everyone on the same level when it comes to relationships, friendships, dynamics and whatever else. And in this scenario I find myself downshifting things to that holding position. Because if my worth and value are the same as everyone else then obviously I do not need you to be important in my life or anything. So, I merely register you as an authorized user and no longer someone to be close to anymore. And this is for poly as well as non poly situations. The thought that boyfriend, Dominant or whatever is the same as the chick you are girlfriends with is unacceptable to me.
I deal with the weird ones. They stand out to me. Sometimes it has been a thin line between weird good and weird psycho monkey but I have way more positive than the few bad ones. And the bad ones were extraordinary.
After some celebrating with hurricane matthew. Some seriously bad service at days inn and cracker barrel over the weekend. Things have been put into perspective more and I am keeping it pushing.
With those things said I will end it here...
"The beatings will continue until I am happy!!!!"
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