The last two weeks have been something else. There have been good times, revelations, unexpected realizations and hot mess.
Meeting lil red while she was on her vacation brought me to a lot of thinking. Between our discussions, time and things that happened during and around that time. This was the beginning of some serious thoughts.
The rift with flower child opened up and had to be addressed. And the last talk and evaluation that I need to have with my subs will be with her this weekend.
The weekend with little one went well and she opened up to a better place now and I am glad about that. She is progressing right along with things going on in her life. As she is supposed to be.
That brings me to this weekend...
This weekend reunion thing that I had no intentions on going to since it is just a play party. But when I saw they were going to have some form of education there I decided to go do that and observe. I am not a pick up play person really. I guess if someone interesting and I talked it might be a possibility but I am not sure at all about that.
My outlook on this event was solidified with the back door, little boy activities that happened with lil red's vacation and with the fool that contacted little one. For someone to not even be boy enough to speak to me about what is mine and you claim the lifestyle is beyond ridiculous. And the boy that claims he knows me while saying that I am not that experienced and maybe they should find someone more qualified like them. Well monkey if you were qualified you wouldn't disrespect an established relationship. So, with these things I took into account about being around the poc people will have to be seriously quarantined and I will keep my distance.
And I am not that happy about how this event seems to be run so far and i haven't even gotten there yet.
Even though there were a couple of people that I was interested in meeting at the event. I won't be going even though I will be right there. It is unfortunate that things are not up to par and that there are individuals that really dont shine an acceptable light on events. but that is reality.
So as I sit here at the Maryland house not really wanting to get back on the road and get on the nj turnpike I remain in contemplation.
Enjoy your weekend. I am sure that there will be more to present soon.
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