Monday, November 16, 2015

My Affect

It is like I am the dark side of the moon at times. Basically sitting in the blue section constantly. 

My interactions apparently can cause chaos. Let's be honest, many times cause chaos. And that fits why I am named Lord Havoc. 

I have spent time fighting that I wanted my permanent D/s relation. That union that would be tailor made to me and we were prepared to endure all that is life.

Since deciding this D/s journey I have been only in one dating relation. And it has been over a year. Yes, insert laughter here because that is just unbelievably crazy to think it happened. In that relation there has been growth, issues and setbacks. But it holds it's own weight and merits. 

I thought about poly. Just never thought it would happen with very little effort from me. But somewhere along the line there was an interest in me. (go figure). I am not the flavor of the month or a brand new shiny toy. I am just the newbie learning as I stomp through the savoy in combat boots in my tux. 

So the affect I have on others is interesting.

A woman that is gorgeous, super intelligent and weird as hell. But there has been some evolution and change with her and myself because of time spent and shared. Hell, I would have thought she would have remained the same hard headed, stubborn and difficult damn self. But my affect has been positive and negative.

My usual influence of making some realize their potential and worth. Others making them realize that it just won't work for them. 

And the results of being me are normally obvious. The disbelief in how and who I along with who interacts, wants and is with me. I am Public Enemy Number One, Zeus the immaculate one and Havoc the bringer of chaos and destruction to facilitate order and organization.

So basically, the things that I thought would leave my marks upon folks tend to do so. But I really don't see these imprints that I have left on people these days.

Yeah, this is weird. I am super weird. So what the hell were you expecting?

Have a good Monday. Ass smacks, titty grabs and gun shots to the ceiling.

And I am out!!!

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