Ronin: Life Unscripted

Rōnin

A rōnin was a samurai with no lord or master during the feudal period of Japan. A samurai became masterless from the death or fall of his master, or after the loss of his master's favor or privilege.

This truly fits. It has fit since I lived in Japan and has become even more so currently than in the past. 

in my life I apply universal principles when it comes to dating, vanilla and D/s relations. These things are my own and designed for and by me. 

• I am not changing who and what I am to make you feel better about yourself. Accept and understand.
• I have chosen you for a specific role in my life. 
• We will be together for as long as you choose to maintain, work on and cherish our relation.
• There will be no chasing after you before, during or after we interact.
• Any interpretation or comparison to others will be incorrect. So get to know me for me.
• You will not get your way. So bratty, whining females need not apply for an application.
• if it doesn't work out, then we won't be friends and all close. We can be cordial if things were not violated but close or friends will not be an option.

These and some other things have been core values and tend to serve me rather well. Well, expect when I go out on a limb and do experiments I shouldn't have. But that is part of the ole college and boy scout try.

Looking at relations, dynamics and what was I realized I let so much slide. I was so lenient about things that really put things in disarray from the beginning.  Letting things go in negotiations because I felt it wasn't as important as the experience. Agreeing to things that were not ideal for me. Well, no need to cry over spilled milk. It all happened and i learned. So when it is time for me to get a sub and a slave then things will be in a more proper perspective.

I even had to re-evaluate the status of the D/s dynamic I had and the dating issues.  Realizing this is where things are and where I let them go. Semper Fi motherfucker!!!

In my relations compartmentalization is such a terrible word for them. They cringe, guesstimate and try to anticipate what will happen. And that anticipation has been what has really caused a lot of issue. I compartmentalize and adjust things constantly. Because things have to be tweaked in order to work and function at their best efficiency.

In compartmentalizing I don't express much. Hell, I express even less than I already do not express. And that level has gone back to what it was before i was married. Even with my Ru. It was weird at first but I realized I was using outdated and expired data in a completely different situation. 

I realize it is hard for the two that I deal with to accept and understand how I am. And they have come a long way from back in the day.  And i am thankful for their effort and attempts. Bless their hearts.

The journey continues. And this ABM continues rolling along like the Battle of the Bulge. 

"I am not paying for the same real estate twice!!"

-Gen. George S. Patton-