Tossing a Grenade Down the Rabbit Hole

Last year I took a step back. This year I have came to a halt. Now the decision is to decide to carpet bomb or kick everything into the negative zone.

I had a nice birthday today and weekend. Today was full of laughter, talk, smoking, eating and drinking with a lot of thought.

Have to admit that thai food at Tastee Thai is really good. And yeah it is healthy also. lol  But, I needed to go do something today and that is what I chose to do. And as usual it was worth it.

There was only one thing I wanted for my birthday since last year. And I didn't get it. But I expected that so it wasn't a true disappointment. It was merely an affirmation.  So with that comes another change in how things are. I gave it all a chance. I did my part and now I am in the results stage. And I am good after learning this lesson.

Ru and I had talked about things in depth as usual and what had to be done for next year based off of results this summer and this year. And it all has come to fruition.  So a new direction has been taken with new destination.

Through this journey

I have become a better Dominant through walking the minefields, traps and obstacles. There have been some faltering and there was a failure but still things have pressed on. I look at where I was in the beginning till now and I see the progress. The guidance, attention and wisdom to stabilize, create and make things better. This walk has been made through guidance from those with many years experience, my own experience and understanding. Still, I know that this still in it's beginning stages. And I will continue to push forward and progress.

I have come to a point where things have not gone according to plan. What I wanted has been out of my hands. And the struggle has been real.

So I closed down this experiment in niceties and human like atrocities to return to being simply the Titan that I am. As I watched everything from the recent past wash away I realize, what was, what could have been and what is. And now there is only the man, the memories and the thoughts left as any parts of me.

I may think too much and cannot sleep. But I come to understand, sort and make a plan of attack as i begin my assault.

Returning to the World War 2 era of the United States style of being.

Braced and Ready for New Adventures

I am looking forward to leaving the country again. And next year I will be further going back to the old school way of things. No longer weighted with expectations and extraneous outside things. I ride and the adventure begins. If someone wants to ride then so be it. If not...yeah, oh well.

Simply I am me, myself and I. I am not:

• Your exes
• Previous Dominants
• Something you can manipulate and change
• Or your servant

Resistence is futile. But understanding and acceptance of all of me works Perfectly!