Monday, May 11, 2020

Mothers day poetry: Mother's Day Reality


Mother’s Day Reality



it hits hard when they are gone
when those that held the title
are no longer available

from the beginning
all I knew was Big Ma
matriarch and patriarch
of the clan

held it down
held it together
for what seems like forever

never realized till she was gone
just how intregal she was

collards and dumplings
smoldering hot ass house
listening to her drop knowledge

respected
loved and beloved

then there was the other half of
Team Titan
My Chocolate Doll

Been mother without having her own child
years and years of taking care of
her womb donor, sister, neice and more

Ther perfect compliment
to my extremist

as we looked forward to
making a part of us
to live beyond us
to love to death

many talks and discussions
of how we would raise our own
making sure that they are better than
we ever would been

both of our dreams
of making a family
blazed so fiercely it burned the ether
perfecctly, imperfectly positioned

then fate intervened
like a brazen theif stole our dream

the day the doctor told us
we could do what we need to get pregnant
but it would be rough
and I high chance that
we would have to chose between
My love and our child in the end

disbelief
ripped into atoms
a pain that lasts forever
tears that still sometimes come

our only argument
get pregnant and save the baby
let the woman I loved with my being go
No!!

fuck fate
fuck destiny
they took from me

marked permanently
mother’s day will never be
what it should have been

lost in molten tears
and a hole in my soul



from the chocolatezeus collection 5/11/20 (c)

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