Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Which Doctor Am I...Need you even ask?

‘Doctor Who’ Personality Quiz: Which Doctor Are You?


The Thirteen Doctors (Pic: BBC)
The Thirteen Doctors (Pic: BBC)
This is the big one. We may have teased you in the past with such relative fripperies as How Would You Deal With An Alien Invasion?, Which Companion Are You?, Could You Survive as the Doctor’s Companion? and even How Daleky Are You?, but this is where we take your core values, your character and the things that make you you, and boil them down to one of thirteen essential types within the Time Lord we all know so well.
This is not a test of how well you know your Doctor Who, and there are no value judgements. Each of the faces of the Doctor has something uniquely great about him, and if you happen to be closest to a Doctor that is not your favorite, well maybe it’s like that thing where similar magnetic poles repel one another.
And we’ve updated the quiz to include recent developments. So, thirteen Doctors (including the War Doctor), thirteen questions, with thirteen answers each. Answer truthfully and see what—and, most importantly Who— you get:


Which Doctor Am I?


I am  the War Doctor of course!!!!


Life is too short for mucking about. You have a job to do and you are committed to doing it, whatever the consequences may be. While every bit as charming (in your own way) as any of your fellow Doctors, you feel like you were put here for a purpose, and you find it quite hard to rest until all the work is done. 

This can sometimes make life feel like a bit of a burden for you, and result in the occasional moment of short-temper with other people's silliness or their strange choice of personal expression. It's OK, the people who love you know you don't mean it really. 

And despite your crusty exterior, they really do love you. Your greatest admirers would be prepared to make extraordinary sacrifices on your behalf if the chips are down, so don't feel that you have to carry that burden alone. 

Evolution and Dominant

The day was filled with unseen and unexpected. As well as the usual. Plus the ever present over thinking mind of mine.

This week was revolution. My fleet of Death Stars left the space dock this week. Dark and sinister, with prominent intent.  Deeper discussion with HQ was needed, occurred and shed light on unlocking the last of the big safety tethers left.

With the change has come the return to simply "being." Instead of the kid gloves that were used concurrently. If I didn't care I would have merely gave instruction and responded to them completing the assignments properly and on time. Unfortunately previous candidates were lacking.

As I said at the coffee tonight. As a Dom I have to go at a pace to learn, adjust and prepare my sub. Whether it pisses them off about the slow pace or not. My ability to be and be the best Dom possible is about doing what I am supposed to as a Dom. Allow for that trust, understanding and submission to occur fully.

So as I am here listening to the Hyphy Movement album. Even with my lack of patience. Time has led to better understanding and a place where we would not be at if things had just been at face value. So I am thankful for the learning from the Sirs and observation. As well as the interaction and understanding of HQ.  Learning will forever continue.

But now there is the unveiling and christening of

Me and the Dark Side!!!

Let's hope there won't be any full moons any time soon then. *Evil Laughter*

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Spoken Words: The Crucifix of You and Me

The Crucifix of You and Me


Why is there this connection
Seesaw
Emotions and destiny

But I look
Into your eyes
Face

And I see
Allow myself to feel
Acceptance of

What is
What could be

Still
Buried deep
The results of everything

When
Unearthed
Is what I want it to be

Has my faculties
Finally failed me
Wrongfully

Thinking
Wanting
Believing
In possibility

Will this lead to
Positive
Or negative
Ending



From the chocolatezeus collection 4/21/15  ©

Riddle Me This

There is no enigma as I continue to watch the absurdity of individuals stories and words, cascade carelessly everywhere. Like we are so blind that we cannot see or think. It is an egregious action against function brain cells.

How many times can it be said?  Be yourself and no one else. Speak your mind and heart. Don't be afraid of yourself. And most importantly know and understand yourself.

Everyone is a work in progress. But when you are force feeding us and yourself the bullshit daily. Then it only gets deeper with each passing moment.

With that said:


House of Mirrors


You are

Twisted
Gnarled
Mistaken
Misplaced

Mentally diabolically
Laced

Evidence of
Lying arrogance
Thinking that none can
See through your
Obvious
Observance

Even when it is only
Just your
Reflection
You lie to yourself
And the mirror
Again

Is anything about you
Original
Direct from the factory
Presented

What once was
Now merely
A remnant
Fairy tale

As we wonder
About every word that
You have ever said

Each story
Seemingly lies
That we have been
Forced fed

Knock
Knock

Is there anyone
Real in there

The mirror is for
Your reflection

Not your liable
Self and public
Deception




From the chocolatezeus collection  4/21/15  ©

Sunday, April 19, 2015

Spoken Word: Destination Nothing

The frustration
Bewilderment
Mental castration

Journeying towards goals
That  are forbidden
Combat zones

Heartless
Disconnected
Intent

Tortured
Twisted
Cold

Soul
Withering
Dead and decaying
Ashes blown

This rubix cube
Experience
With a purposeful
Anti Solution

Evidence pointing
Deftly in bright effect

That denial
Dissuasion
Revocation

Are the only
options available

Conclusion
Unfathomable

Empty
Rotten Future
Soul

Death to positivity
Happy ending
Something of Substance

Just let the
Cauldron
Boil


from the chocolatezeus collection  4/19/15  (c)

Spoken Word: Beats, Thoughts and Conclusion

Beats thump
Give way to callous thought
Revocation of resemblance
To concerns lost

The black and blues
Hues of anger
Concussive revelations

I am the darkness
That was sought
Careening through
Emotions and feelings
Angered at their cause

Borg like mentality
Transmuted to Pudding soft

Origin
Where art thou
Too much has been lost

Scorch the universe
Stain existence with
The presence of the return to
What I am

Stand within the flames
Drinking gasoline
Smiling brightly

Return from misrepresentation
Fabrication of soft infestation
Necessary cleansing
The only available application

For tis I

Apocalypse
The representative of
Light and Dark

I am the
Evil Mark



from the chocolatezeus collection  4/19/15  (c)

Dynamic, Decisive Disregard Equals What Must Be

Realization. It came as a crushing blow. Even though it was foreseen a long time ago.

The one thing that I vowed not to allow to happen occurred.  I became soft and weak.  Has becoming a widower and interactions with the humans made me this week? Smdh.  Shame, shame, shame.

I let feelings get in the way of being. Let the concept destroy what should and always will be.

Dominant. It is who and what I am. Always have been. Most of the time in the past without any effort at all. Naturally it has happened.  I got away from actively doing what I need to do. Succumbed to complacency and fluffy things.

Yes, I treated the subs and slaves this way. There was nothing invested with them. Unfortunately the invested one is the one that I should have treated the same way as well.  Left with the point of "make or break."  It is my fault I slipped so badly in this way.

Time to drop the Nuke...

Throw the hands up and let whatever happens be the way

You....My Possession

From the convo with HQ about possession.

Males and men all seek to possess females in some shape or form. It really depends on what they want, the level of possession and the subject they are trying to possess.

Some females are possessed easily by fucking them well and giving them attention. I know I have had those types with the likes of Raven, boston cream, Nurse and more.  Where you fuck them like they need and they won't forget. They want it and you so they crave it. You possess them now. They will do what needs to be done to get their fix. Even if it means finding a third female to have a relationship with so that you feel comfortable when you can't see me.

I have never been the pretty boy or anything else that would have females falling for me. But, I have had the sexy females and the females everyone else wanted with me and loving me. Even breaking down the ones that didn't want to show or have feelings.  This was achieved through: attention, communication, probably that I am unique and the mystery of me.   From the cupcake girl that everyone was wondering why she was kissing me and had to play with me first at swing parties to the virgin chick that kept coming back for more even when I told her to leave me alone and she can't handle me. She finally stopped when we tried to have sex the other year and she was boring me so much with the hesitation and everything that my dick went soft and I was like never mind. I never heard from her again. lol

Males will try to possess females for the moment. Or so they can say that they had them as one of a list. Or many other reasons. Most it is about the aspect of the chase and conquering. Then there is the point of moving on to something new. Which in this modern age also has transcended to females as well.

My possession is deeper since being married. It is about that connection. The way we interact. Being there for me. Through pleasure, service, fortitude, understanding and more. Where I am a part of her. her mind and soul. She feels, needs and craves me.  That lock that is so strong and sturdy against the change of time.

When I say and claim her as mine. She knows and gives me that look. Knowing completely that she is all mine. That she will serve me fully and happiness will be by design.

Friday, April 17, 2015

There And Nothing Accomplished Again

Well with their daughter in tow. I honestly thought that something would get done. And then we came and got things together in the storage for dumping and yard sale. Got rid of half of the female parentals clothes in the garage. (remember that is only half her clothes in the garage now, not total)

And then I looked and there was nothing accomplished. Haha the joke is on me.

The stress. The stress. My blood pressure is higher than the high it is normally. The pain has decided to kick it up a notch. Ahhh this is the hot mess of relations with this humans.

Talking to someone that can understand my plight, pick at me and we laugh together. Makes it easier for sure.

Time to get back to the world. A stop at H mart in the ATL tomorrow on the way back to the beach.

This was definitely NOT the great adventure they sang in the Hobbit. LoL

Well, I better get some sleep for the road in the morning.

Friday, April 10, 2015

Journey to the center of Hell

Let's start with a huge woosah!  Because the parental units daughter is something else. I can't help but smh and say she is ditzy.  Failed to tell me about her stopping in atl on the way to bama as well as on the way back. So I have to find accommodations last second.

The pain is something else. And seems to be building.  Ugh! And it will only get worse when I get around thr parental units. But have to do something before things get worst.

I need an HQ intervention.  Missing her little ass. An atidote to this mess most delicious and thoroughly.

And to top it off the parental unit's daughter's driving doesn't inspire comfort and relaxation. Like...at all!

Wednesday, April 08, 2015

Choices: Slaves, Subs and Others

Once I make a choice after thinking it to death. (lol) I go full throttle ahead until it shows that it was a mistake or the other party involved changes on me. That is just the way Zeus operates!

I have to say that the choices that I have made in the last 7 years have been 33 percent in good standing. I have made my mistakes in choices by not sticking to my picky standards and letting females have a chance in the equation.

But when I pick them and get that vibe, feeling and connect. Then it is on like popcorn.  Well, at least once we do battle for a while and come together as a fighting unit. I do pick some tom boy, feminist, high intelligent super freaks!  And honestly, I am very happy with my 33 percent of the best of the best. They bring me peace, excitement, unforgettable moments and memories.

The slave column.  I am batting absolute zero on this. From one that is off in lala land and I think her brain is broken. To the one that was under consideration and ...  Hey wait a minute that one's brain was broken as well. Is this some kind of trend? lol  I doubt it but the stats on this show that it is.

And the Sub predicament.  One golden goose that works and has minimal issues when it comes down to it. Even though there is an aspect of perplexity.  Then there was the one that I spoke to and attempted to educate to even decide if she was worth vetting. Only to turn around and say she is with a Dom one day after asking about her educational assignment. Plus the one that has a dynamic but kept the hinting that we could work it all out and she was showing hella interest. Oh, and I have been informed that I missed some others as well since I don't mind read or interpret hints that well. To be honest NOT AT ALL!

I always say, "step up to speak and say what you want and mean."

This journey has been interesting to say the least. Enlightening most definitely.

Complex Simplicity is what I want and need.

Simple design and destiny.

Wednesday, April 01, 2015

Boston Creams and Southern Cheesecakes

I have to say that things are positive. Which is saying a lot considering the parental units, life and all factors going on. Oh and my brain doing most of the damage with all the thinking.

But there are some things that make it worthwhile and give way to things to look forward to.

I look forward to this trip to Amsterdam. Hell I am looking forward to the trips planned Period! I see that they will be fun, exciting and very memorable. A lot of new things mixed in with some remember the time moments as well. Like Madurodam. lol

I am going to continue my first Shibaricon next month. I am looking forward to being in awe of the rope work of masters along with learning and applying. I need practice bad. Especially with someone else involved. lol

The birthday weekend will be fun I am sure. Along with laid back, relaxing and intoxicating. Plus the weekend before that will be an adventure as well.

So amid the Hell there are sweet times filled with boston creams and whipped cream topped cheesecakes. And I am very, very glad of that.

Because things with the parental units become increasingly more challenging.

Till the next episode...enjoy your just desserts!

Sunday, March 29, 2015

Life, Times and Dominant

As I hold my head. The throbbing remains from the parental units and everything else.  Whew, I need that break!

I was revisiting rope ties. And was reminded of the rope class the week before I attended to downtown. (Yes, it shocked me I went down there as well. But it shows my interest in rope)  Now, I am not comfortable or flexible to be tying myself up and most everyone was partnered up. But I did get my learn on. Plus there were two sexy white chicks and one sexy, curvy and young black chick. So I had eye candy displayed in rope. I definitely need the practice. Just don't have a real person to practice on. Oh well, will adapt and overcome.

As I played Gears of Way 2 again, I was really enthralled with the similarities with the game and life. How you overcome tragedy after tragedy. Clean up other's messes and try to stay sane while fighting every enemy that is known or unknown and seen or not seen.

After talking to Big T and texts with my god daughter. I miss the kids. Always different and interesting. But with energy and a different look on life.  Hell, it is still hard to believe at times my god daughter is in high school. thankfully she is pretty and intelligent. Which thankfully separates her from her womb donor.

My adventures as a Dom continue to grow as I learn. I am comfortable with where I am in terms of education and the things that I want.  I will continue to grow and experience. Only time will tell whether it will only be play experiences or more than that.   But, I am thankful for those Doms and Masters that I have met and have shared information, as well as experiences. It has allowed me to understand, analyze and dissect things. Then put my perspective into place more effectively.

Moving forward is key and not always simple but it is happening. And of course I am severely dissapointed Black Beat won't occur this year at all. I was looking forward to attending again and some great classes. At least I got the experience last year.

And the experiences with the so called slave types have definitely shown me who and what to avoid.


Well, let us continue this lifetime Marvel comics edition of....

Journey Into Mystery!!