Momento's of the Heart and Soul
Despair
Dissapointment
Loneliness
Beating my soul like a bass drum
The cadence deafening
Causing internal insanity
My mind trapped underneath this mountain
Held down by sheer weight of will
Excruciating thoughts
Here
In this moment
Caught
Unreleased
Me this caged
Trapped
Carnal beast
Seeking
Searching
Physical and etheral release
from the chocolatezeus collection 5/22/06 (c)
Here to tantilize and create unique and interesting thoughts and comments through poetry, short story and my general Explicit nature.
Monday, May 22, 2006
Silent Regret
Instilled rage
Waves of ocean sized emotion
Everything welled up inside of me
Haunted and taunted
I sometimes just wish it would end
But this silent torture is what makes me a MAN
For so long I denied its existence
Fought each inch of it tooth and nail
Never gaining ground
Never overcoming it at all
Hurricane winds buffeting my soul
Bring me to my knees
Buckling every corner of my soul
A laundry list of past discressions
Things a time machine would fix and reckon
But that is not going to happen
I am here in this void
Vortex of mind and matter
Caught by the things in my life
That TRULY matter
So I yield to my soul
Speaking from and to my heart
Giving way to repentence
The need to grasp the things that I missed in my past start
It is not a whine or anger
Just the bleeding
Piercing of my heart
For it misses what was
Gives in to what should have been
Yielding to a future that will be
Still licking wounds from the regret that life did breathe
The actions mine own
Though I am grown
I couldn't avoid the faults of my own at that time
So I sip my comfort gently
Caressing the wounds that I still keep
Understanding the reasons and regret
Wishing to change past history
from the chocolatezeus collection (c) 5/22/06
Waves of ocean sized emotion
Everything welled up inside of me
Haunted and taunted
I sometimes just wish it would end
But this silent torture is what makes me a MAN
For so long I denied its existence
Fought each inch of it tooth and nail
Never gaining ground
Never overcoming it at all
Hurricane winds buffeting my soul
Bring me to my knees
Buckling every corner of my soul
A laundry list of past discressions
Things a time machine would fix and reckon
But that is not going to happen
I am here in this void
Vortex of mind and matter
Caught by the things in my life
That TRULY matter
So I yield to my soul
Speaking from and to my heart
Giving way to repentence
The need to grasp the things that I missed in my past start
It is not a whine or anger
Just the bleeding
Piercing of my heart
For it misses what was
Gives in to what should have been
Yielding to a future that will be
Still licking wounds from the regret that life did breathe
The actions mine own
Though I am grown
I couldn't avoid the faults of my own at that time
So I sip my comfort gently
Caressing the wounds that I still keep
Understanding the reasons and regret
Wishing to change past history
from the chocolatezeus collection (c) 5/22/06
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