Red Alert, Shields and Battle Stations

This has been a rough week. My attitude and mood has been on the napalm mode. Things have really tested everything negatively this week across the board. I am still standing through the onslaught and turmoil.

There was a moment that was the reciprocation of kindness. I had stopped in the cigar shop for a little bit and was sitting there dealing with everything and pulling rabbits out of my ass when an elderly guy came in the store with someone else he knew. He spoke, saying "there's my boy."  I said hello and didn't think much of it at all. People know me from seeing me in the shop all the time and my Lunatics. So, I am still pulling rabbits when I look up and the same guy that spoke is handing me a Lunatic and talking about thank you. I am stunned and confused. I immediately said that you don't and didn't have to. He said he did and smiled as he went out the door with his friend. I had to ask Tim the owner what just happened. It comes out that I had forgotten that this same elderly man had came in and was getting a piece for his cane and didnt have cash and couldn't use his discover card since they do not take it. So, I paid for it and he thanked me and that was all I needed. a good deed done. time reminds me that this was the guy. I was like wow!

Even in predictive modeling there are known, unknowns that will occur. Those things that you know something crazy is possible and it happens. That has come up this week in a way that caught me a bit off guard. I still haven't really decided what to do about it if anything. I am letting some time eat through this for a minute first.

The parental units situation and them have worsened and it only seems to be moving further in that direction with more speed. So, some decisions will have to be made that I dont want to have to do with them but I am the only one that can and will be able to somehow do it.  I am going to have to wade even farther into the Mirkwood swamps in this battle.

I hung with Rich for a day. Thick pork chops, fries and stuffed mushrooms yesterday. And those damn pork chops were thick. I had never cooked them that thick before. But they were damn good. Some tony chercherans, garlic powder and pepper seasonings and then some chef made bbq sauce after that. It was good to just laugh, stay cool, smoke and carry on. Widowers Unite!!

Relations? Yeah, will have to talk about that another time.

We will just say as the title says. We are at war and the mode I am in is ferocity and carnage with tactical destruction.

Run Silent, Run Deep

Things have been everything but calm and peaceful since my return. But that is why I prepare for things. Some attempted ambushes and attacks. But I expected that from females.

See the key to compartmentalization and sterilization is your ability to adapt to the situation. To place it properly in it's context.

As Sarge use to say:

When the enemy rears it's head you take off it's head and all the heads near them!!

Ultra ABM time!!

Poetry: Temporarl Displacement

Temporal Displacement
 

The clock

Ticks

How long have we been in this

Relationship

Oops sorry

This situationship shit

Caught up in the rapture of

Antiquated socialized

Self destruction

Hiding behind your

Wizard of Oz

Curtain

Saying just hold on

Time will make everything better

Just keep giving me your all

Ummm

Time is not yours to command

And it will just keep

Moving on

Just like

Feelings and thoughts

But you thought

That you could make me wait

Just discard us

Until you did

Whatever your thing was

When you don’t

Cultivate

Invigorate

And maintain

Then

Time and relationships

Die or move on

While you sit there

Throwing your tepid fits

Remember this

You chose

Made a decision

And we weren’t

An important factor

So you have been greeted by

The stop watch

Where time is only

Moment to moment

Enjoy the seconds

Then

We are

Gone

From the chocolatezeus collection  9/13/16  ©

My Circles are Your Choice: A Zeus Principle

There has been issues, backlash, dismay that I have different circles that pertain to my life and those that are in it or interact with me.

The circles are labels given to levels of  connection with me. And they have definitely been tested and proven this past weeks worth of time.

If you are unable to be open with me and you have your defenses up so you can keep your distance then I keep you in the outer circle until you leave.

The inner circle means that you have invested more and may actually want to be around for longer than a minute or two. But you are still looking from the outside some time so I understand that and keep you here.

The inner sanctum is where those that I am close to and can accept, understand and appreciate me and all that is me reside. The place where all of me is present and accounted for without a doubt and you are invested in the same way.

Lastly there is the throne room. And this is where the true achiever resides in splendor.

The circles are what you are comfortable with when it comes to me. So you choose that path. You get to be more special than whoever is in a circle further out or not at all.

Everyone doesn't get the same treatment. Everyone doesn't connect in the same way or with the same intensity either. Just like any evaluation. You are analyzed and placed accordingly into or out of my life.

So there is the explanation

Poetic Realization: My Master Chief Mentality

My Master Chief Mentality

I look upon the world

Through my unchanged

Presence

Unreadable

Unpredictable

I am merely

A Noh mask

Showing you fully

While dashing your normalcies

Against the jagged rocks of

Your mental capacities

I am the armed

Black hole

Abyss

Of your pretension

Historic expectations

One man

Singular in purpose

Original design

I lead

Protect and serve

Give both

Love and apathy

Disconnected

So that positions and roles

Are preserved

Behind this polarized face plate

Regardless of what you cannot

See, interpret or prognosticate

Remains

The same person

That cares, loves, protects

And treats you

Better than

That populace

Or

Would you like to change?

Be the enemy

So you can understand

The other side of Hell’s, Hell

Grunts

Silence

Stoicism

All part of the duties

That I entail

But if you are with me

There is nothing to

Fear

From the chocolatezeus collection  9/11/16  ©