Living It Instead of Playing It

My journey in bdsm has been one of profound experiences and accounting.

I am still new. I will continue to learn. To look for a mentor and everything.

As it was said on the conference call tonight by Kore. The aspects of this lifestyle is not all that sexy when you are doing the relationship things. Not just the beat me and make me feel good episodes.

It is important to have that connection and binding that you need outside of playing with someone. But as it has been said what do you do with each other when there is no play. It is about being able to talk and do things that are basically considered vanilla.

My journey with Lil Red has been one filled with uniqueness an weirdness. But it has been a journey in fundamentals and a dynamic that holds a serious weight between us.  We talk and are able to function in and out of the lifestyle.  Defining being a Dom and a sub together on a journey into mystery.

This relationship and hierarchy is not easy. It isn't a simple turn the corner and be there. It is about the building of trust and communicating. The connection that is established and grows. Hell, I can tell you in this short amount of time I have learned from leaps and bounds on things. And I am still in the very first steps of this.

There were the question of whether Lil Red was the right one.  How did I know and understand that she was the right one. And my answer was and is: Because I evaluated, analyzed and got to know her. It comes from teh times where we have agreed, disagreed and shown who we truly are. But the beginning was that vibe and connection that was undeniable to me.

Here we are in the here and now.

Everything is not krispy kreme sweet with Lil Red and I. Our journey is not complete or even fully defined. But it is what it is and where it needs to be.

This lifestyle. This choice. Is not for the faint of heart. Or even for those that can do it if it is easy. It is overcoming, the overwhelming things that won't come easy or make sense.

Minus the glamour and glitz. I enjoy Lil Red and the things that we do and share. Add to that the D/s and the destiny that I have planned. Then things are just Perfect!

The Journey...

Mr Wolf and Lil Red

I am ready, willing and committed.
Be Prepared.

Monstar...Ready For It!!!

Life has always been one filled with battles, trials and tribulations. And either you lead, conquer or get out of the way.

A year ago I truly embarked on this journey. To properly Dominate and lead the way. Attending a conference and getting involved in the community. Plus learning and absorbing information. In person, through conference calls and more growth occurred.  I dived into it all. But I took a cautious approach and emphasized learning instead of doing. A bit of a difference for me. But I wanted to do things right and not make a mess of everything.

Since last year I have met some interesting and dynamic people. They have added on to my knowledge in this life in different ways, but beneficial to me. And talks of mentors and classes have shown brightly. And I have and continue to take classes. Finding a mentor is a bit more of a challenge. Because there are differences from each Dom or Master than the others. But I have decided on seeking information and or mentorship from specific ones already. Hell, I have gotten good instructions already. Even the forums have shed light on differences and things. But my path is set. I am merely getting what information and teaching from here and there as I go.

One of the things I realized while dealing with everything recently and through some convo with HQ is that I was trying so hard to do things properly that I missed what I needed to do to make things work smoothly. Learning to observe, learn and apply were keys. But I had to learn recently to stop overthinking and analyzing things. To let my natural Dom return. Instead of what I allowed to happen. To be so concerned about comfort, adjustment and focus while I lost the Dominant aspect all together. The things that I did naturally that made them follow me without thought. That ability to comfortable want to serve and seek commands from me is very key. And in some ways it happens currently. But in the one situation where I was focused on making it happen. It was missing terribly. So, the return to laying down the way and reinforcing it in her will be applied like it should have been from the start. But you live and learn.

I slow walked the relation dynamic and even play. and now I am ready. Chomping at the bit and excited. Prepared to pave the way in unique things. Because honestly when I am involved or HQ. The weirdness is off the charts.

It's Monstar time!!!

And I am more than Ready for the Ready.