Poetic Expression: The Struggle is Not Real

The Struggle is Not Real

I am not your knight in shining armor

I am not even your friend

I am the hypothesis that you can’t understand

The when hell freezes over answer

The ambiguity that holds you captive

As the world spins

I am the desctructo disk

Severing it in halves again and again

A heart beat

That is colder than nitrogen

That makes you wonder if

It is even there or beating

The things that you

You can’t

Won’t

And are afraid to

Accept and understand

The anomaly

In your heart, soul and loving

I just

Am

From the chocolatezeus collection  7/7/17  ©

Poety: The Maginot Line

The Maginot Line

You place this buffer

Your repulsor field

While asking me to

Open up completely

Tell you all these things

Be this transparent thing

I laugh hysterically

As you make sure to do the opposite thing

Keeping that distance evident

So I took into account

The relevance

I stepped back

Understanding your decision

Made very evident

So I give the head nod

And we can do this dance

Dance of

Moment to moment

Relevance

Using the sliding scale

At least now it is obvious

I can tell

From the chocolatezeus collection   4/6/17  ©

Poetry: In the Distance

In the Distance
 

Closeness

Connectivity

A sliding scale of

De-evolutionary

Experience

Words expressed

Claiming

Desire

Need

Want

To come together

Be something other

Than one against each other

I snicker and laugh

At the charade

The obvious division

In what they say

Versus what they mean

They are comfortable where they are at

But they do not want it to seem

That they don’t want to be close

It is like a helicopter

Hovering 15 feet off the ground

High enough to jump

But high enough to

Get killed

In this kill zone

Is where relations lay

Where the minefields

Reside

It is my choice

To attempt to navigate

Get blown up

Or say no thank you

Distance

The necessary piece of

Relationships and dating

From the chocolatezeus collection   4/2/17 ©

Poetic Affect: Cold Hearts With Love Divine

Cold Hearts With Love Divine

I love you

In love with you

Heart beats

Make me want you to be mine

Each caress of your face

Feel of the curves of your skin

Looking deep into your eyes

Reminding me

You are situationally

Mine

Looking at the results

Of what me in your life has done

To your soul and mind

Told you to be mine

My girl, my sub, my wife

But

I have broken

Your heart

Your soul

Your mind

The only thing I cannot do

Is break through

Your stubborn denial

From the chocolatezeus collection  2/20/17  ©

Poetry: Going the Distance

Going the Distance

When did this

Cold

Desolate

Menagerie

Appear?

When did us

Just disappear?

Looking back

At all the times

The meeting of the minds

Only to realize

There never was

A meeting of the hearts

Between you and I

When time drug out and along

I bided my time

Allowed you to meander along

So you could feel fine

Closeness became a distance equation

While our connection became

Merely a Pi type of

Relation thing

Within my heart and soul

You began

Here and now

Light years and warp speed

Are the only things that can be described?

Distance equaled indifference

Time created apathy

Connectivity left

A misfiring, non-congruent

Iceberg type mess

Sunk

Sinking

Have you thought about

What that distance is worth?

From the chocolatezeus collection   1/21/17  ©

Poetic Reality: Chocolate Doll: Legacy

Chocolate Doll: Legacy

I hate you

No, I really, really do

As I am left to laugh at you

How could you set this precedent?

Set the bar high and leave

Now, I am only left with

Want to bee’s

Female pretenders to the throne

Things have gone from your

Fat girl fallacy to

Woman: the dead and endangered species

You marked and marched the path

Of what womanhood is and should be

Connected

There was no need for

Backlash and posturing

Or “I am female” roars

With titty beating

That team platform

Is lost on those that seek to

Only perpetuate the plague

Of the lack of women

Epidemic

Hearts that beat jointly

Even when miles apart

Love that is not

A part time

Situational

Job

Actions and words

Like bullseyes

Constantly ringing

Truth

You’re an A S S

My A S S

And it is your fault that you created this

Mission impossible standard

Damn you

Damn you

For making sure I never would be

Satisfied or enthralled with

What females presented from behind the curtain

The only thing left

This legacy

This legacy of separation

Woman from the female masses

All because you made the impossible

True

From the chocolatezeus collection  1/20/17  ©

Poetic Truth: A Denied Destiny

A Denied Destiny

I touch your face

Look into the bright, white of your eyes

I see you

I see

Feel

The chocolate decadence

That is you

Behind the walls

The fears and hesitation

I see

The loving

Passionate

Woman that I want with me

The one I saw

Through all the

Smoke screens

Posturing

And extra standoffish things

You have done

From the beginning

I saw and felt

Connected to

The real you

If only you could see

Allow yourself to be

Just be free

Then happiness

Love

And destiny

Would be true

From the chocolatezeus collection  1/17/17  ©

Poetic Reality: Me the Oyabun

Me the Oyabun

I sit here through the clouds of

My cigar smoke

As always alone in a crowd

The silent stand out

Fellowshipping with the

Good, Bad and me the Evil

Everyone a walking armory

Making moves

Blink after blink

Sophisticated

Cro-Magnon Caveman

Yes, that is me

I won’t fit into your theory

Your attempt to understand me

Leaving you in psychiatric wings

At the head of the table is where I will be

My silence speaking volumes for me

As I keep my circles on lock down

Limited to no access

In the light there is the dark

In the dark

There is ME

I feed on human beings

And everything and everyone

That is not in approval with me

Not giving a fuck

Making decisions

Pressing forward

Fuck those that can’t hang with that shit

I am a full clip

With a nuclear tip

And I am always

Ready, willing and able

To nuke you

And you too

From the chocolatezeus collection   12/28/16  ©

Poetic Expression: Big Gift in a Small Package

Big Gift in a Small Package

A reason to smile

To laugh

Again

After wave upon wave of

Substandard estrogen adventures

Intimate communication

Mixed with desired revelation

Active interested projection

Amid the laughter and silliness

Direct correlation to accomplishing

Wants and desires

Wow

Someone that actually

Wants a relationship

Something more than a

Gone with the Wind

Whim

Every now and then

A taste of the

Nectar of what

Love and relationships

Are supposed to be

Just when there was nothing left

Gave up on females being anything more than

A plug in play thing

This unexpected gift arrived

The gift that keeps on giving

Proof that there is a woman left

On this planet

Unique and special gifts

Make me happy

This is just what I need

Thankfully

From the chocolatezeus collection   12/27/16  ©

Hope and Poetry: Hope Still Breathes

Hope Still Breathes

It is good to smile

From interactions and thoughts of you

To enjoy the conversation

The showing of

Interest and importance

Seemingly

Outdated and outlandish things

To people these days

To delve

Into communicative delights

Shared experiences

Carnal desires

Make things more than

The usual just bareable situation

Instead

I look forward to you

In every aspect

Every day and night

The test of time

Has been shattered

With the unexpected

That hated relationship thing

These days

So

We maneuver

Oblivious to what others do

Leave them to their

Running and hiding

Fear of intimacy with another being

We embrace

Laugh and intwine together

Throwbacks to a time

Where relationships were

Wanted and less of

What is yours is mine

State of mind

A light in modern day idiodicy

As I hold onto what

We share vigorously

I am merely thankful

For the reprieve

The last bastion in relationship

Normalcy

You and me

From the chocolatezeus collection  12/23/16  ©

Poetic Reality: Displaced Remnants

Displaced Remnants

A vision of you permeates my mind

Thoughts of what ifs and what I thought

Tattered ribbons

Of my heart and mind

Love, marriage and life

That was the wishful design

The prize

But it was met with an oppositional divide

Defense mechanism or fearful design

Your availability screams

DENIED

Attempted relationship

An actual situation ship

Glimpses of love, relation and importance

All of them cremated before

There was even a chance to happen

Evidence in

Shown lack of interest and importance

Inability to attend to anything other than yourself

Anti-supportive and giving

What started out as

The big bang theory

Transmuted and fizzled to

A dying Duracell

A defibulator

Sparks and shock needed

Otherwise

This telltale path

Is already apparently

Set

From the chocolatezeus collection  12/23/16  ©

Poetic Moment: Another False Positive

Another False Positive

Calculated risks

Calculated vulnerability

Taking a long shot

For a man like me

I looked at each ribbon in the sky

When I decided to try

An experiment of my design

Each outcome cascaded through my mind

It wasn’t my standard

So much damage

Still, I calculated and chose

Chose the experience I would find

Was I dumb for doing this?

Allowing an atom of that nice guy bullshit

To return

It would be shown to be self evident

In the future of irrelevance

Bratty

Whiney

Complaining

I need to get my way

Evidence

Showed the case

Proved the realizations

When you are constantly saying

Don’t it my way

I see your topping from the bottom

Notate and take action

I put in so much into this experiment

To get it to work and having lasting effect

But the experiment had their own issues and things

To use to circumvent

In conclusion

Notating the data from the experience

Checking another city off of the list

Oh yeah

The list of cities of females not to ever fuck with

Unless they are just a fuck given

Long live

Compartmentalization

And indifference

from the chocolatezeus collection  10/25/16  ©

Poetry: the Unclaimed Key

The Unclaimed Key

Needs and wants

Wants and needs

They are not too separate things

They are the key to

Me

Culminated in you

Each delicious morsel

To each moment I need you to comfort me

Connected commitment

The Holy Grail to me

As I look into your dark eyes

See the soul and the universe alight

Trace your curves amid each cuddle

Lose myself in your smile

Just want mission control to say

Ground control to

Major Don

Turn your smile on

She is the one

Let us dance within the

Pitch black moonlight

Leaving our mark on the fabric of the universe

Just you and I

Leaving the so called experts

Naysaying and prognosticating

Enemies

Outside our life

You and I

Me and you

No longer

A want

Or a need

Just

Where we need to be

What we need to do

The

Pinnacle

Me and you

From the chocolatezeus collection  10/23/16  ©

Poetry: Temporarl Displacement

Temporal Displacement
 

The clock

Ticks

How long have we been in this

Relationship

Oops sorry

This situationship shit

Caught up in the rapture of

Antiquated socialized

Self destruction

Hiding behind your

Wizard of Oz

Curtain

Saying just hold on

Time will make everything better

Just keep giving me your all

Ummm

Time is not yours to command

And it will just keep

Moving on

Just like

Feelings and thoughts

But you thought

That you could make me wait

Just discard us

Until you did

Whatever your thing was

When you don’t

Cultivate

Invigorate

And maintain

Then

Time and relationships

Die or move on

While you sit there

Throwing your tepid fits

Remember this

You chose

Made a decision

And we weren’t

An important factor

So you have been greeted by

The stop watch

Where time is only

Moment to moment

Enjoy the seconds

Then

We are

Gone

From the chocolatezeus collection  9/13/16  ©

Poetic Realization: My Master Chief Mentality

My Master Chief Mentality

I look upon the world

Through my unchanged

Presence

Unreadable

Unpredictable

I am merely

A Noh mask

Showing you fully

While dashing your normalcies

Against the jagged rocks of

Your mental capacities

I am the armed

Black hole

Abyss

Of your pretension

Historic expectations

One man

Singular in purpose

Original design

I lead

Protect and serve

Give both

Love and apathy

Disconnected

So that positions and roles

Are preserved

Behind this polarized face plate

Regardless of what you cannot

See, interpret or prognosticate

Remains

The same person

That cares, loves, protects

And treats you

Better than

That populace

Or

Would you like to change?

Be the enemy

So you can understand

The other side of Hell’s, Hell

Grunts

Silence

Stoicism

All part of the duties

That I entail

But if you are with me

There is nothing to

Fear

From the chocolatezeus collection  9/11/16  ©

Just Poetry: A Heart with No Fear

A Heart with No Fear

From the moment

I first told you

I love you

I am in love with you

I want you as my wife

The foundation was set

I knew from the beginning

What I wanted and sought

What made my heart

Beat and stop

Even as you used

Every comparison

Of exes and friends

And their strange tells

What I wanted from you

Never changed

Vulnerability

Let me say it again

I made myself completely vulnerable

To begin with

So you could sit back comfortably

Try to grasp the plot

Take it all in

The seriousness of

My plan

Chance given

A welcoming door open

Regardless

I am prepared either way

Good or bad

I made my stand

Only later to be

Placated

Challenged

A need for assimilation

Still

I stand

Amid all the

My way

I can’t believe your that way

Interpretive

Inability to accept and understand

This is

Love

Passion

Affection

And more

At the intense level

But her there is always

Burger king instead

Have your way

I will remain on my path

No guts, no glory

My heart speaks

As loud as my attacks

From the chocolatezeus collection  8/14/16  ©

Poetic Heartsrings: My Love is

My Love is

I have

Fell in

Been in

Loved

And in love

Given

Heart

Soul

Future

All vulnerability

Why is it so hard for you to

Accept

See

Feel

Oh

Through my potent

Direct sledge hammer

Love skills

Or

That it isn’t done to your

Checklist

Is that the reason why

You just don’t

And won’t feel

Words

Actions

Actions

Words

They have remained constant

To love’s dismay

Now love merely

A waxed coroner’s stain

It seems

When there is only the deafening

Essence of

The love I

Bring

From the chocolatezeus collection  8/14/16  ©

Poetic Expression Incarcerated Comfort

Incarcerated Comforts

Bloody entrails

Lead to the closed vault door

Staining the very fabric of existence

All emotional content

Crushed beneath and in

This vault door

That fire survives

Somehow burning white

Deprived and starved

Purposefully

That emotional edict came

Decreeing

Survival of the fittest

In this death match

Relation

Once such an

Integral and necessary part

Of me

Those drops and movies in time

Of comfort and need

Concluded with

Emotional

Serial killing

Genocide

And now it’s time

Where freedom rings

As the vault door closes

And the tumblers

Give that death lock sound

Stoic resound

Death howls

Invigorated with life

Unchained

Blood dripping from restraint

There are no more

Comfort strings on me

Carnage and chaos

Unfettered

Smiling

Remnants

Unchained

From the chocolatezeus collection 8/14/16  ©