Integrity: Standards and Operation

According to Merriam-Webster the definition of integrity is…

integrity

 noun

in·​teg·​ri·​ty | \ in-ˈte-grə-tē  \

Definition of integrity

1: firm adherence to a code of especially moral or artistic values :INCORRUPTIBILITY

2: an unimpaired condition : SOUNDNESS

3: the quality or state of being complete or undivided : COMPLETENESS

Based from a great discussion led by Master Penguin at the MDHL meeting last month it got me to thinking about integrity in the lifestyle and life. Especially after everything that people have done and shown since the meeting.  There were viewpoints and information from both sides of the slash.

My view:

Integrity begins self. Then with those that you are close to and with. Followed by the communities that you are part of and represent.  Lastly the integrity to the general admission public.

Integrity does not mean that you don’t make mistakes. It means that you learn and improve from the mistakes so they are not made again.

What I have seen most lately that have been assaults against integrity

·         Attacks on consent violation and other victims

·         The inability to maintain or honor roles, word and actions

·         The outing and assaults on those new to the lifestyle as well as others

·         The inability of people to think, instead of following popularity and propaganda

These are but a few of the many things.

There are no integrity police. Each and every person is on the honor system with and for themselves. This reveals the make up and foundation of a person.

Are you the person that is bothered because someone said something about what your popular in crowd member does but it was wrong?

Are you the one who agreed to a role, dynamic, relation and can’t fulfill it because of lack of personal integrity?

Or are you scared to try, do and make things happen that you seek because of your fear of your own integrity?

There are these questions and many more. So where and how is your integrity?

Poetic Eroticism: Coiled to Strike

Coiled to Strike

I can no longer remember

The sound of each impact upon your flesh

The contortion and twist of each

Plain infliction

I don’t remember you

With each moment passed

The funeral pyre grows higher

And your sacrifice to me

A deeper offering in

Pain, torture and submission

I don’t remember you

Sting and thud of floggers

The brutality of bamboo and cane

Slaps, cracks and thunder claps

As I choke even your last breath

Among tittie and nipple

Twists, pulls and slaps

I don’t remember you

Time for you to speak

For me to etch this suffering

Upon you and your flesh

My easel and canvas

I don’t remember you

Until your pain comes from the well of insanity

As I relish in each whelp, bruise and scar made

I fist you so deeply

Your cells scream my name

You will remember me

And remember the penalty you have to pay

For making me wait

From the chocolatezeus collection  3/27/16  ©

D/s Hierarchy and Me

After some discussions with individuals and I have been talking about relationship dynamics in D/s.

Here is my understanding, concept and application on D/s.

I am the Dominant and whether it is poly or one on one I am the primary relationship and the only relationship. And I use relationship in the sense of dating, emotional intimacy involvement and focus. I do not believe in nor will I be with someone that wants me to be their Dom and have another Dom also. To me that is a clash of contradictions.

And I have heard how that is not fair and everything. yadda, yadda, yadda. That is fine and dandy. But remains the case for me.

And this comes from my personal decision as well as interactions with other Dominants that have been in the lifestyle for decades at least.

This is not to say that I won't take into consideration my sub's needs and desires. If there are things that I do not have the skills for or cannot provide then I will come up with something to satisfy her. That means finding someone appropriate to play with and enjoy those skills with. I want them to be happy and content along with taken care of and provided for.

Having two Doms clashes by opposing protocols and standards. Literally pulling subs in different directions. An unnecessary situation. Plus their service will be impaired with the division in dynamics.

So there you go if you wanted to know. And if you want to talk about it or have a question then ask.

It is Havoc time!!

D/s aka The Executive Branch of the Lifestyle

I cannot make it clearer. When the playing is done and you are working on, building or maintaining a D/s relationship it is not a cake walk.

Of course I realized that in talking to the experienced and conferences. When they talk about the financial, world applications and lawful ramifications of doing this.

The initial process is one of playing chess with both hands tied behind your back until you progress more and more. It is like sending out force recon to the unknown and wondering if any of them will come back alive.

For someone that is a direct and immediate type of person originally. I find it interesting to look back on this last year and realize that I had to do that patient thing and all that I hated previously. It has definitely had it's moments throughout that time.

I can look at the growth within the labyrinth of Lil Red. As I hear the phrase "there and back again," from the Hobbit. *lol* A relation that was opposing forces at best in the beginning. Now something closer than distant.

With Lil Red I have been thoroughly challenged. From the weird things each of us bring with us to the communication gaps at times. This is where the choice of whether or not things are important and you can focus come to bear fully.

Why did I use the phrase "executive branch of the lifestyle?"  Because this is the non glorious and always fun part of bdsm. This is the management and responsibilities part.

And believe me when you get one of the stellar unicorn types management can be like riding a bronco while doing your 1090 at the same time. lol But it is worth it. I see Lil Red looking at me side ways but it is the truth. lol  The challenge keeps me interested and makes it all worth it.

The apply this fix and formula to solve everything. Doesn't work here. It is always on the job training and observation that you have to use to succeed. The traditional guidelines are there and they set down the basis and guide you. But Human nature is never that simple. And of course the adventure is always more memorable and exciting when it is not the same old boring things that you do.

Well I have to get back to reading my manual. More management to do.

And damn my play time is calling me too.

Till the next time. Adieu

The Aspect of Ownership

This has been the chapter I am on currently. And it has been in discussions lately as well.

I know for me it is not something I have taken lightly. Thanks to meeting Sirs that have shown and explained the value and importance in this. Hell, it is the reason why I paid attention, studied and opened up the learning to betterment.

Ownership is important to me because the point is to take care of my s types. To provide the things that they need and to lead. The pride and feeling of saying and the recognition of "she is mine."  That makes me smile and strive to be better. There is nothing like that feeling of ownership.

This is not recognized by society at large. But it is the application of taking care of your submissive. Making sure that they are healthy, moving forward positively and achieving the goals that are set to the betterment. Through attending conferences and events I have seen the recognition of Doms and their subs. The respect, rituals and service of the good dynamics I have seen are inspirational. You can see it with each interaction. The respect from Dom to Dom, Sub to Dom and the relationships between each. The outline that says this is mine and respect is in order and necessary.

It doesn't mean that the sub does not express themselves. I prefer my sub to express herself and I attend to her input and needs. She expresses so that things can be better tailored and the dynamic grow correctly. The protocols and rituals held in place to strengthen everything.

As a Dom it is my purpose to decide the best for my subs. For their service and realization that they are subject to what I decide for them.

I have been able to witness the need from the sub's point of view as well. The need for ownership that can give purpose and comfort. Part of that strengthening in the dynamic bond.

The key is applying the proper things to the sub that will allow her to understand, feel and accept her ownership. And that is not a simple task at all times or for all. But if it was simple more people would do it.

I am glad that I am learning and applying. Just have to finish the equation and complete


Keep your head up and do what you can to live for today and tomorrow.


*back to ABM*

Breaking You Into Pieces

Since I cannot remember I have enjoyed destroying and disrupting females. The badder they were and the more everyone wanted them only served my purpose even more.

It is how I had crews of girls with me from high school and on. Hell, I didn't need to fuck them to get them to be attached. Most of my beginning was just listening to them and giving them an outlet.  They latched on to me as if we were so intimate.

But I left those times to influence more along the kines of what I needed and wanted. Even we I didn't try it was happening. Like the case of that fayettenam monkey I was engaged with. She was jealous of the time that I spent with my college classmate. Claimed we were fucking. I had always wanted to fuck her. So I finally did it and fucked her roommate as well. A nice two for one deal. I broke three for the price of one then. Felt so damn good.

I advanced to more intimate means then. By making them feel me and fall in love with me. And those that know me I don't tell anyone I love them unless it is meant.

For example the pink girl in greensboro. Met her at the swinger parties I attended. We started talking and then private fucking. I had her head deep in my sand. She fell in love with me and became my sub/sex slave. She was the recipient of the first protocols I made. And that was before I became as educated in bdsm as I am now. I made her serve me. Every party she couldn't play until I was taken care of. It pissed everyone off because I controlled that. A lot of hate came my way. I took away their must have play thing and made them wait for me. She was broken and lost in me. And that scared her a lot. In the end she couldn't take it and backed off finally.

But hell it has been that way repeatedly. Crazy maryland still talks to and loves me. Even after I cursed her out at least twice and excommunicated her. I conditioned her enough to want me regardless. And hate herself for feeling the love for me. I further broke her already broken self. I merely skewed it my way.

I especially enjoyed when I would have gem begging me to plau and cum as I continue to deny her. Like a little pet or kid. She kept returning and asking. And I would make her wait. Even she had issues with falling for me.

I enjoying breaking their mind and soul. Twisting their heart and mind into what they are fighting. The power makes me smile and grin.

And to that the physical breakdown. The forced orgasms and orgasm control. And especially after the Toronto session with Lil Red I can add a pain factor to it that has the body cringing in anticipation. The applicatiin of biting and sensory torture is wonderful. I am going to be sure to put gem through her paces with this as well.  All I need now are some more instruments of pain to add to it all and I have some stuff in mind. I will make the bodies remember me more and more throigh pleasure and pain. whether it is fucking you for hours. Fisting your pussy. Or beating you long and hard. This addition has led to a new standard for thr broken. Lol munchkin will have to pay the price now in the pain department as well and not just the orgasms.

Breaking the bad bitches.
Making the stone cold melt completely.

I love breaking the females.
Tearing away their position and psyche. So that they are lost in observed retrospect.  Confused on how they got there.

Monstar...Ready For It!!!

Life has always been one filled with battles, trials and tribulations. And either you lead, conquer or get out of the way.

A year ago I truly embarked on this journey. To properly Dominate and lead the way. Attending a conference and getting involved in the community. Plus learning and absorbing information. In person, through conference calls and more growth occurred.  I dived into it all. But I took a cautious approach and emphasized learning instead of doing. A bit of a difference for me. But I wanted to do things right and not make a mess of everything.

Since last year I have met some interesting and dynamic people. They have added on to my knowledge in this life in different ways, but beneficial to me. And talks of mentors and classes have shown brightly. And I have and continue to take classes. Finding a mentor is a bit more of a challenge. Because there are differences from each Dom or Master than the others. But I have decided on seeking information and or mentorship from specific ones already. Hell, I have gotten good instructions already. Even the forums have shed light on differences and things. But my path is set. I am merely getting what information and teaching from here and there as I go.

One of the things I realized while dealing with everything recently and through some convo with HQ is that I was trying so hard to do things properly that I missed what I needed to do to make things work smoothly. Learning to observe, learn and apply were keys. But I had to learn recently to stop overthinking and analyzing things. To let my natural Dom return. Instead of what I allowed to happen. To be so concerned about comfort, adjustment and focus while I lost the Dominant aspect all together. The things that I did naturally that made them follow me without thought. That ability to comfortable want to serve and seek commands from me is very key. And in some ways it happens currently. But in the one situation where I was focused on making it happen. It was missing terribly. So, the return to laying down the way and reinforcing it in her will be applied like it should have been from the start. But you live and learn.

I slow walked the relation dynamic and even play. and now I am ready. Chomping at the bit and excited. Prepared to pave the way in unique things. Because honestly when I am involved or HQ. The weirdness is off the charts.

It's Monstar time!!!

And I am more than Ready for the Ready.

Turning Point

Another year is about to be marked saturday. I am not happy about it because my plans were all dashed. The comfort, pleasure and peace I looked forward to is out of reach.  So basically I probably won't do a single thing this weekend. I did get the invite to Twin's bday party at Bill's. But I am horny and need of my fix and it is not there at all either. Well, it is what it is. And reinforces that rule of mine on expectations. *shrug* Lesson learned.

I need a deep tissue massage so badly right now to deal with the stress and dealing with everything that happened. I just need something to give. Get some reprise. But I will have to wait on that as well.

Oh and my King Sadist in me is really losing it. Past chomping at the bit in the need to finally let all the infliction of delicious pain out. I have been thinking and plotting how to use this energy on HQ. But that is on hold until whenever. I want to watch the reactions from flogging, tying them up in rope and me forcing each and every delicious orgasm and mental response. I especially ready to use the crucifixion tie and futimomo. I have been ready for those to be implemented to my demented pleasure since watching them demonstrate them at the rope classes here. It is going to be so titillating to have her prone and stuck in those positions so I can have my way with every inch of her body.

As a man I like to feel and see the reinforcement of relations with me. It makes me appreciate the person a whole lot more. Especially considering that I share with them all of me. Yes, I like the sexy pic sent to me to brighten my day. Calls, texts and thoughts of me keep me happy. I only ask for a few things to feed my attentive needs. Those little things make me smile and thankful for them being a part of me.

I have thought and discussed the joining of D/s relationship and having a relationship mixed together. it is not an easy thing. And honestly I am having a hard time feeling and figuring out the ways that will make things the best way possible. It doesn't change my goal and what I want though. It just says that it is not easy at all. But I want exactly what I want.

There have been some good things that have happened. Good discussion and realizations. At least I don't have to deal with absolutely everything being horrible.

I think I need some chocolate chip cookies to deal with this.

Enjoy. As I continue my mind's 20000 mph thinking

Spoken Word: The Call of Rope

The Call of Rope

Visions of you

Bound and tied

Prostrate to me

Each session

Rope lesson

Instruction

Building on

Depravity

Delight for me

Your hands tied behind you

As I tie your neck to your ankles

Have you bent into

An auntie annie pretzel

Open for my delight

Your arms wide

Lashed to the cross

Begging my attentive strikes

Against your skin

As the rope bites

With each strike

Slapping you

As your rope collar

Cinches you just right

Only to tie you

Leaving you there

Pulsing

Lost in pleasure

Contentment

As I marvel at

Delve into my delight

Of how the rope

Has brought you to life

A predicament tie

As I fuck your body and mind

Invasions

Repeated as you hear my delight

Connected

You and I

As the rope binds

Not only you

But this pleasure mountain

That we will climb

From the chocolatezeus collection  6/9/15  ©